Full Mental Normality

[Enpoid]

Kubricking it.

Sorry, x posted and that's just my experience ^^ :)

They need to cop on to themselves about inclusion, as well - it's just not on to have someone left alone in the day room while everyone else does an activity they can't.

I have patients who actively like day hospital. I humour them while secretly thinking that they're a bit odd.

Agree services can be very patronising - everything is always aimed at a very basic level, to make sure it's accessible for people with poor literacy, poor concentration, and no previous experience with or education about MH problems, IME - and while it's important that things are accessible to everyone, it does mean you tend to get the very very basic stuff reiterated again and again. It bothered me more when I was younger - as a teenager, it was very important to me not to feel I was being treated like a child, so simplistic handouts covered in cartoons offended me far more than they do now

Sorry snowy, I shouldn't be berating day hospital. Blame my shitty mood and hunger.

If you feel you would get some benefit from it then you should definitely go.

Go eat a stick of butter

How was clinic?

Thanks for everyone's thoughts, I don't think it's for me.
You're allowed to say how you feel here, mp, I don't feel you're here as a professional, just as one of the gang.
How were everyone else's days?

My clinic was busy, full of the mentally abnormal but no need to section anyone today which was nice. Still here doing paperwork but planning on leaving soon.

Guess who turned up at my meditation group today?

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Yeah, Mavis.

I feel a bit bad because my brain went "hey, what are you doing here? This is my thing" when I saw her, which is completely unreasonable because I'm the one who encouraged her to register. I was getting annoyed by her (and not showing it, I hope) because she turned up in a onesie, because she loudly commented "your hair looks fine" when I was surreptitiously rearranging it in my phone screen hoping nobody would see me being vain , and because she curled up and went to sleep in the session instead of doing the guided meditation (she told me afterwards she for bored and did her own, different visualisations), and it bothers me that she can't just do what the rest of us are doing, then it bothers me that I'm bothered by nonconformist behaviour

That would have annoyed me so much too

I don't think you're being unreasonable Enpo.

Really, Caulk and Mental?

That's a bit of a relief; I was thinking what a cow I was being (if only inside my head)

If I was me I would have thought it, thought I was a bit of a bitch, and then carried on thinking it.

Really Enpo.

Chapuys my mentally abnormality is fairly public knowledge. It's hard to hide the number of hospitalisations I've had.

nah, Mavis sounds really fucking irritating (and I say this as someone who is Well Annoying herself)

my cup of achievements is bubbling away like a little cauldron:

achieved finding stock shirt
buying new stock
acceptance of loss of old stock and stock pin and necessity for safety pin
bunging horses on horse walker instead of riding (why don't we do this every day?!)
having cry all over and cuddle with Long Lost Friend who is still here, a fixture and fitting now but she works a lot
going to co-op and buying quite a lot of suffolk smokehouse smoked chili cheddars
thinking about The Omelette

I really really miss MFP I think it is making me depressed, will give it a few more days in case of lithium being disastrously low (for me) and then maybe can just start another new account, I need some kind of plan, holding everything in my head is exhausting, I have nothing to look at to reassure myself

it's horrible

I talk about it quite a bit but not in great detail, and those close to me know about the od and that I'm off work because of it. I don't tell the actual diagnosis though because that embarrasses me.

hi chap

I did keep it a secret as far as I possibly could for as long as I could

is hard when police, ambulance etc swoop in and you disappear for several months

or even for those who missed the actual dramas, there are still long absences and changes to explain (was in a revolving door type situation with hospital for the first few years)

generally people are all 'yeah, I know it is obvious' although sometimes they are more 'but you seem normal to me' and I feel an odd mixture of gratitude and hurtful invalidation

I don't put it all over Facebook or anything but I can't really hide the fact I'm sometimes not entirely normal, either. I don't have RL friends, really, and my family are all extremely familiar with mental disorders so it's treated like any other illness, in terms of talking about it. It must be so hard keeping it all completely to yourself

I also find it hard to conceal, because of hospitalisations etc.

I'm horribly bitchy about Mavis here but I do like her, really.

I don't tell people any of my potential diagnoses either (my only official one is depression but others have been suggested, and all of them embarrass me) but everyone always assumes I'm bipolar

I'll swap you Mavis for one of my housemates. Anytime you want. I'll put her in the post.

I'm finally going home. The NHS owes me an hour and half of overtime.