Being Mentally Normal: The Theory and The Actuality

[Mitchy1nge]

we must be on part 11 or something by now?

Lovely #3

Hop e everyone okay tonight

How is it morning already
Enpoid, I hope you don't have a poorly head

I'm taking MIL shopping, must try not to murder her, don't think I'm sufficiently mentally abnormal to get off on diminished responsibility

What's everyone else up to? Have a good ride, Mitchy, I hope it's not as dull as you fear

No, no headache, thankfully. I don't really get hangovers as such.

Do try not to murder MIL.

Today I have no plans until this evening, when I'll be working on an abs workout with the trainer at the gym.

Not entirely sure why I decided to drink so much last night. I think I was tired of being sensible and adult, and talking to my social worker about what jobs or education I could do brought it home to me that I'm not ever going to be a human rights lawyer, or indeed anything else I ever wanted to be, because of a mental illness that I'm not altogether sure I have

it's very moreish isn't it

is painful to think of what might have been but you're still so young! it's never too late to find purpose, meaning etc

It's true, there are many other things one can do that aren't being a human rights lawyer

Looking forward to your ride Mitch?

yep

almost as much as am looking forward to a poo

am v excited actually about riding the orange one, not often allowed to hack her in case of 'fizzing her up' which is hard to imagine, she's a very sweet pony

Horses are complicated things.

mazeltov to me, achieved poo :)

now to get into running kit, which is sitting damply on lukewarm radiators

life can be very cruel sometimes :(

Pleasant.

I'm currently Not Reading My Emails incase the boss has sent one to me. I'm not even opening the app, which is annoying as obviously I could have 100s of very important emails from people offering me Viagra things of importance.

I haven't read my work emails for a couple of weeks, can't face it

All my emails come through to the same place, my work is on a pop account.

Thankfully my boss is sometimes lovely and won't contact me unless she has to. She is leaving before my sick note runs out though, so I'm not sure what will happen.

It's the weekend well nearly, there won't be anything so important it can't wait till Monday.

What time are you seeing MIL, Millie?

I work for a church- weekends are BUSY!

Off to have the lovely phlebotomist take all my blood, and call in on the pharmacy to see if they can give me some OTC stuff.

I meant the Very Important Viagra non-work-related ones, Caulk - the work stuff can wait too because you're signed off

Phlebotomist is off sick and I cannot be bothered to drive all the way to the hospital to get it done there. One week won't matter will it?

No idea - is it for lithium levels?

Yes. But it was so low last week that I can't see how it can have become dangerously high since then.

I've just heard "my ringtone", but I'm on my phone, which means someone else must have the same one as me. The trauma of 1st world problems.

I've just seen an actor from doctors in the cafe, and am fawning over his beauty in a very Mentally Normal way- ie telling the internet where he is and smiling a lot.

Ooh, pretty telly people

I'm lying on the sofa in a dressing gown, feeling delicate, watching the news and waiting for DP to make me a poached egg. Love him

my whole self HURTS and some of my precious porridge came back up into the mouth at around 4.8 miles it did that yesterday, why is it doing that? why?

also am numb with cold and could very easily get into bed but let's be positive

1. have achieved 7 of planned 12 miles
2. a mentally normal person does decide not to run another 5 miles when they are extremely tired and various things hurt
3. is good that am not someone who just keeps running for hours with hideous strains sprains stress fractures etc anymore
4. have achieved tiny but impressively calorific drink of carb replenishment
5. eventually I will thaw out
6. am much more likely to make it to marathon start line if I continue stuffing face and resting than if I persist in my Old Ways
7. appear to have lost a tiny bit of weight, implausible as it seems on 2500 cals a day and reduced running, even if my scales are fucking with me (unlikely as trend weight and the happy scale apps which monitor the trend both concur) I appreciate the gesture

Well done Mitchy.