Being Mentally Normal: The Theory and The Actuality

[Mitchy1nge]

we must be on part 11 or something by now?

this is the nicest one I've ever had, at least it is actually about me and it has some chat about running and horses and stuff and things that are actually MY behaviours

old care plans were just lifted straight from some generic description of common or garden manic depression I think

have only just realised there is stuff on the back of some sheets too but is dull, I like the bits where I sound scary and dangerous

(do I eat duck? man in my life wants to know. I think not. But do I?)

You do.

Obviously you can bifurcate whether you do or not, but it's much easier to decide you do.

Duck is delicious. I have no mental illness. Am just drunk.

This takes many effort. Much autocorrect. You struggle much with mental illness. Am only autocorrected normal. Love you all. Am normal.

Drunk.

Autocorrect.

Ignore .

I really don't think I do eat duck. I want to say yes but I remember the various food related traumas of our relationship so far, crying in wagamama's (what business does their tofu pad thai have being over 900 calories? what business have they making pad thai when they are meant to be japanese?) and being a Bit Fucking Mental.

I don't really believe in mental illness at all so can't help with that.

(don't have any alternative theories of behaviour/thought/feeling to replace it with, I just reject it, like an autistic child rejects language)

by tomorrow morning I will be So Fat that if someone had to do a surface anatomy exam on me they would FAIL because they won't be able to find anything except PODGE

but luckily nobody will be doing anything like that on me

will just get up, have porridge, usher #3 into taxi, run to next village, do Slow Joggers 10k route with them, add an extra few miles to make 'long run', run home, walk dog, get orange horse in, tack up, ride out with dullest person in world (apart from self), get off horse, get into land rover of ex-mr-mitchy, go to CAMHS

so there won't be time for that sort of thing anyway, so can relax and go to sleep

Dp is disallowing me any further alcohol as apparently have had 14? units. FFS. Am watching ST: T.NG.

Sod it. Have no mental illness.

Fuck me. I am not mentally ill. It is all a sham: there is no such thing.

am sure there is plenty of evidence for and against the concept, whichever concept of mental illness that might be, it is all very difficult and frustrating

did your care coordinator say something unhelpful today? just wondering what has brought this on

you can be mentally ill if you want I won't judge you!

I agree

I don't have any kind of care plan as far as I know.
Is everyone with moments of slight mental abnormalities meant to have one?

I dunno, they seem like a thing of the past

mine doesn't say anything about me having any kind of mental disorder

Drunk.

Ignore.

Have been autistic child. Did not have Care plan then. Do not need one then. Do not need one now. Sod autism. Sod mental illness. I don't need the NHS.

How can tofu pad Thai be over 900kcal?

Meh oh well. A drink then bed for me. I love self medicating.

deep fried tofu

I can't keep up this level of eating I feel like I'm going to die of over nourishment

but an amazingly kind and thoughtful thing! #3 has changed my sheets, installed and switched on an electric blanket, put an extra duvet on top with a pretty cover, decorated the area with fairy lights

is sooooooo fucking warm, finally

How lovely

Sleep

Apologies

Shitty me