Hi everyone can I please join your village - if I can stop crying enough to type.
Feeling really emotionaly drained and need to clear the tears and tension before picking the kids up. A medicinal giant chocolate cake is currently in the oven!
CIQ sorry to hear about your FIL, bad time of year to lose a loved one.
My basic problems are that I suffer with dyspraxia and epilepsy, which is under control with medication but does come back abit if i get really tired or stressed. Dd suffers with dyspraxia, dyslexia, dyscalcula and ASD. Dp has bad dyslexia and is really depressed, largely due to an abusive childhood that he can't / won't deal with. he just wants to shut himself away and we're all walking on egg shells so as not to upset him. Finally Ds I think is suffering with ODD although he just about keeps control in school and around Dh.
The more tired I get the more i forget things and muddle everything up. e.g. wrote friends christmas card and forgot to write our names; booked Dh's holiday from Monday to Sunday rather than Saturday to friday meaning he's working both christmas sundays, and so we can't go to my family's (not that he wants to go anyway)! Always saying I'll do things with Ds and immediately forgetting. Dd understands but ds doesn't and loses it, usually resulting in beating me up and being inconsolubly upset.
I just feel like I'm by the edge of a deep black well and sliding closer all the time. i really need to keep it together for Dh and the kids because they can't cope at all without me there. The kids won't let Dh do anything as our roles are really strictly defined in both their heads - including making them a drink, bowl of cereal. They can just about cope with him washing up if we do it together.
Sorry for the big boring post but it does feel abit better just saying it! 