Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

[creamhearts]

I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

Hi Faith sorry you feel so triggered, just hang on, take it minute by minute if you need to.

Cheese and crusty bread and a flake sounds amazing spidey You are doing so well, please don't be worried about people seeing your SI, loads of people have seen mine and I have never had a bad reaction.

It's on my thighs, generally people won't see but I don't want ds to see it and "d"h keeps shouting at me and he's not even seen it. I've got it all covered with dressings now but I can't do that forever.

Sometimes I don't feel like eating although I know I need to. I count out 5 grapes, or 3 dates, and make myself eat one. Once I've got going I feel more like finishing the rest of the portion - and I've had one of my 5 a day.

Or toasted cheese, cut into bite-size squares works as well.

Or a Weetabix.

I'd not done it for years, my scars were nearly all faded but now I've got new ones and I'm angry at myself for it.

spidey please try not to feel angry with yourself. It's so hard and the main thing is you're trying your hardest. Your "D"H is out of order shouting at you :(

Thanks cream. I'm just about to make some food to distract myself. Spidey, you talking about food reminded me I haven't made anything yet.

silvery that's a good idea with having small portions of things. I too find it hard to eat at sometimes but once I started I usually (though not always) realise I'm actually hungry.

Potatoes cut and bunged in the oven to make wedges and the knives have been safely put away. Unfortunately though I did manage to burn myself trying to add garlic to my tray of potatoes without removing it from the oven.

I'm getting anxious and twitchy now, I need to get up and do something but I don't know what.

Have you found anything to do yet spidey? Is there anything you can do with your hands? I know it's boring but what about sorting any washing out / folding the washing. Or writing even if it's nonsense.

I had a look at the distractions thread further down the mental health board and that helped a little - though probably wouldn't help when very anxious.

I've just been and done some washing I think I might paint my nails then j can't touch anything for a while.

Grr just posted and it disappeared. Still feeling v rough.
Welcome faith
Take care spidey
Hi to everyone else

Well I will be in plaster still for another few weeks, but am slowly mastering left handed typing, agony though it is as have tendon trouble with my left wrist. Can I actually get any more useless :( .....

I am so glad the thread continues. Having caught up today with the past week and half, yes it has gone quieter. With wishful thinking hopefully it may mean that for some maybe slightly better times?

I feel a bit more stable at the moment. It's been an awful year and I am looking forward to close the book on 2014! I really need this year to end, and new one with fresh hope to start.

Probably my expectations may be a little high for 2015, but it's all that's helping to keep me going....

Welcome new folk to the village!

to Snowy, CIQ, Cream, Pyrrh, Pulled, Silvery, Spidey. Nana :) lovely to see you post!

Victrix - hope you are doing ok and fully recovered now after your op?

(((Hugs))) to you all

please may I join you? I don't know anyone in real life who thinks like me. it would be so good to tell how I'm feeling sometimes without being judged. I might not come back but good to know you are here.

Morning everyone
Thanks for the support. I think that alot of the problems are due to me being so sensitive to upsetting people that I do everything because I think it's going to upset people if I ask for help. Ds told me this morning that he wants me to tell him what to do and remember. Memory problems are a big problem with the epilepsy medication and the dyspraxia as is the over sensitivity. I need to work on getting less upset telling Ds off than he does at getting told off and maybe write a note of everything I say I will do. Will report back on the success.
Back later as need to get washing in the tumble dryer!

Morning all, thanks for the support last night, I managed to get through without SHing. Hope you managed to as well spidey.

collardove that sounds painful! I know the feeling of just wanting this year to end. Perhaps it is optimism but still, if it keeps everyone going it can only be a good thing.

Hi stottie. I hope you find this thread useful when you need it.

Hi to shannaratiger too.

Got to dash but will pop back later (hopefully).

I didn't sh, I'm trying to focus on giving ds a perfect christmas.
When h came home from his night out he was very drunk, I was very vulnerable and we had sex, I don't know how I feel about that, he's acting as if it's all begind us and nothing happened. I'm still confused and hurt but I've told him I'll be checking up on him and if there's even a suggestion he's doing anything he's gone, I can't even manage to go to the supermarket alone at the moment I really wouldn't cope with throwing him out. Better the devil you know really.

oh my word - thank GOD you are all here!! I thought the threads had been lost. I am really struggling :( my anxiety is making me not want to live anymore - i am not going to do anything about it as i know my DD needs me, but my life is hell.

Will read back on thread now. Thank you for starting it.

Oh gosh, it looks like a rough time for alot of us :( Spidey, i am not sure what happened with your DH, but you take things at your own pace

Just picking a few things up as my anxiety is making it hard for me to read properly.

CIQ i will pray for your FIL, my friend's mother is very poorly just now and its not thought she will last til xmas - its such a difficult time of year to lose a loved one :(

Nana i hope your chest infection improves.

It was an interesting year for the village wasn't it. I have missed it, christ i even started reading a book about village life (totally unrelated to MH) and felt some comfort imagining being part of it

((( lem )))

((( spidey ))) and to ((( lem ))) too. Hoping things improve for you both soon.

Hello hello everyone. I've had a bit of a break from MN to get on with stuff like my beds campaign and getting back to work. Both of which seem to be successful so far.

What's everyone up to for the next couple of weeks? I'm currently sat in soft play hell drinking coffee.

I'm glad the beds campaign and work are going well, good for you for doing the campaign!

I'm going to family tomorrow, looking forward to it. Saw CPN today, she wants me to see someone during her two weeks leave, I think that I can cope for a couple of weeks myself.

Don't envy you on the soft play, keema!

Oh my god all I do is sleep all say n night at re moment and the brain is absolutely fried

(((( hugs to all esp lem & spidey ))))

I've literally stepped out of the bed and I really have no idea how to cope over the next 2 weeks with DD being home!!! Someone just kill me now did I mention I hate Christmas. We still have no tree, DD has one present so far as I can't stay awake long enough to go out shopping or if I make it out the door i turn around as soon as I see the crowds. Plenty of junk food in the house but no idea what we'll be having for Christmas dinner. Do u think I'll get away with fish and chips

Sorry about the massive moan just needed to let it out.

Welcome to the new folks and hope all are having a good day x

How old is you DD Pulled? Is she pre or post Santa?

Just wondering how you can get hold of stuff. You could reserve items on line in Argos and then you can do a ninja trip into town if that would work?

Could someone pick stuff up for you?

Hugs for spidey lem pulled

Hello to new people :)

First full day back at work today, was ok :)

Can I join please? I'm awake and my mind is whirring
Bit about me: I've been given a series of MH diagnoses over the years, but current therapist (who is also a psychiatrist) has diagnosed me with "attachment disorder" and thinks that this is the root cause of all of my problems
That said, I'm currently signed off work with anxiety and depression and I honestly can't see a way back to work. I hate it and it definitely contributes to my low mood and anxiety. I'm just left with this huge sense of guilt now. And I also feel very overwhelmed, because my motivation is low and I can't face communicating with my boss
OH works away and isn't emotionally supportive at all and I'm left to cope with juggling work, life and DD and really struggle when I feel like this. Family are a fantastic help, practically, but not emotionally (ref. attachment disorder diagnosis)
I just feel very alone, trapped and a bit like my world is collapsing

Sorry, that got a bit long