Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

Happy New Year everyone. Hope 2015 is a better year for you all xx

Dont understand what keeps happening to my posts..

Wishing and hoping that 2015 is a better year for everyone.

I'm finding today v tough.

Is today any better, CIQ?

How's everyone doing? I'm fairly low, trying to distract.

Happy new year everyone.

Not too bad today, managed to get out and do all the jobs that needed doing. Trying not to think about tomos no idea how I am going to cope with the motorway drive plus being out all afternoon. Sometimes everything feels so overwhelming

Hi folks - me too having a tough time - woke feeling mega depressed (no trigger) and couldn't face getting up - crying and scared. In the end I tried to get my CPN but got her colleague instead. She was kind but made me realise how there is nothing they can do really - conversation went something like this
Me.....sorry, snivel, cry....sorry
CPN ...take a breath mate (!) I can't tell what you're saying
Me.....repeat...
CPN ..What's happened?
Me....Nothing
CPN ...just woke feeling shit - Me: Yes. CPN - what usually helps when you feel like this........aaaaaaaaaargh. I didn't answer just snivelled a bit more. Told her about my suicidal thoughts, and she didn't comment.
CPN: Have you had anything to eat
Me: No
CPN: Have you e mailed X (my CPN)
Me: No I'm not up yet (2.30pm.)
CPN: Aren't you ....(obviously shocked)
Wish they knew how hard it can be to get out of bed when feeling so crap.
I said I was sorry and thanks for her help and rang off.

DP came back in while I was on phone so I cried all over him. I've had 5 years of this on and off and it never gets any easier. Mind have been physically ill for 4 weeks and can't seem to get back on my feet, so that doesn't help.

SORRY for self indulgent post............wishing all of us more resilience to cope with the tough times. How do you get more resilient - anyone know?? That's a serious question - I often wish I knew how to cope better with mental illness.

Happy new year to everyone.

Thinking of everyone struggling xx

Oh dear, (((( NN )))) Poor you.

oh nana I'm sorry you have had such a bad day :( i think this time of year is rubbish for a lot of people.

today hasnt been too bad but i sm going to resume job hunting soon and im terrified or yet more failure.

Thanks snowy bit better today. Hope the distraction worked - can be hard work.

nana sorry you've had such a tough day. Hope tomorrow's better.

lem its natural to be daunted. Don't let that panic you. As my dear brother tells me "how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time! "

One step at a time x

thanks ciq

to lovely people in the village, apeaceful and healthy new year to all.
Quick update, I was employed for 7 months and then jacked it in (toxic workplace making me ill) have interview next Wed in a town 15 miles away..hmm..not sure.
Have loved being at home and enjoying my dog, but feel as if I should get out there and do something. Am on 150 mg Sertraline, have benefitted from a cbt course. Get good days and bad.
Ho hum .
Nana It sounds like you are still not well physically, and the time of year is horrible. Nothing wrong with being in bed if you are ill, just be kind to your lovely self.
Lem yes, just take it a step at a time.. like ciq says. The right job will come up when the time is right.
Ciq hope you are feeling better.
Snowy hope you have a lovely cosy day today.
Many thanks to all others on this thread who have kept it going.

I'm busy pretending I'm ok, back to being the person they all think I am.
The mask is stifling.
I ate too much at christmas because treats were there and people expected me to eat, now it's over I can go back to my diet. Today is a miso soup day, 25 calories a cup.

Not feeling too great at the moment but judging from this thread I shouldn't moan because lots are worse off than me.

I need to go to the supermarket and do a big shop but can't go alone so can't do it till Wednesday when h can come too. I can just about manage to grab milk and something for tea.
I need to start Running properly again and am going to retreat back to the quiet woods.
I'm starting to think I'm going backwards I just want to hide away and forget the world.

Hello to all and sorry to read so many are struggling.

nana absolutely nothing wrong with staying in bed when your unwell. Hope u feel better soon

lem job hunting is the toughest thing ever. Like others have said the right job will come along at the right time. Please don't get dishearted. Hope your keeping well x

ciq hope all is well with you and your feeling slightly better today x

snowy hope your better today

hoochy hopefully the good days will increase and bad days disappear. You sound like your doing well.

((( spidey ))) be kind to yourself. Eating loads in the festive season is nothing to feel guilty about. You will get back to your dieting/running in. I time. Hope u start to feel better soon x

I've been pretty low myself last few days but at least I've survived Christmas/new year. Just getting through each day as it comes at the moment. No energy to do any more or less really. Crisis line number is on standby in case I get funny ideas in my head

Hi hoochy, pulled lovely to hear from you. Hoochy hang in there you're doing good!

pulled this time of year is not easy. Take care.

spidey I daren't go near my scales. Everyone eats too much at Christmas. Be kind to yourself.

Well home now. Fil remains seriously ill. 2 days till dcs go back to school

Well I'm ill now, will I ever get a break? Been up all night with horrible sore throat, chills, awful headache and can't stop shivering.
Google says it's Ebola or meningitis. It's just the flu, but maybe itd be a kindness.
H went into a flap that we'd run out of paracetamol and dashed off to find some, I didn't know how to tell him that we've not run out, there's eight boxes under the old towels in the airing cupbourd.
Still got to visit mil today but at least she's cooking and says I can have a nap in her bed while she sneakily feeds ds with crap.
Hey, good side though, I can't swallow except tiny sips of liquid so it's gonna be a really low calorie day!

Take it easy spidey. Your mil sounds nice.

I am mostly fine apart from background stress which seems to be spilling over into nightmares. Woke up feeling really, really panicked with a nightmare that is clinging on to my mood even though I can remember the actual dream and it wasn't that bad just the feeling from it.

Second one this week after so long without them I was thinking it was a thing of the past.

Hi mink, spidey hope this eve is ok.

Back to earth with a crash. Fil taken back into hosp. Can't stop thinking his death will be devastating for dh and ultimately fatal.

ciq sorry to hear about fil. It is so hard when you know something is inevitably going to happen that you don't want and that will be painful.
hard though it is not to imagine how things will be and how you or others will cope I think sometimes you have to deal with the now and not borrow troubles from tomorrow. One day at a time.

((( ciq ))) sorry to hear about your FIL. Just take it one day at a time

I'm sat in Dr's surgery got numbness in my legs, toes & private area and pain in lower back and buttocks (sorry maybe TMI). Been ignoring the symptoms for 3 days but today the pain got toooo much so have dragged myself here. Dr google has obviously declared me dead already so I must be typing from the world beyond

Hoping everyone else is having a better start to their week then me! Love to all x

How was the dr pulled ?

I'm so sorry to hear that about your FIL ciq

I hope you feel better soon, spidey

Hey snowy I'm at a&e now, they suspect a mini stroke or neuropathetic pain. Just waiting for blood test and ECG but there so busy so looks like I'll be here a while.

Oh dear pulled I hope it's good news!
I've been to the drs who basically diagnosed a sore throat but then scared the shit out of me by telling me that I had lots of symptoms of meningitis and if I get a rash to go back. It wasn't my normal Dr, he gave me antibiotics and paracetamol and some throat spray which is supposed to numb the pain but does nothing.
Don't know how he expects me to take them? I can't fucking swallow! I'm apparently supposed to just take my fluoxetine as normal, ive not managed to swallow anything not even my own saliva for nearly 24 hrs, I'm dizzy and lightheaded from low blood sugar and pretty sure I'm badly dehydrated too.

Called h at work, he says he can't come home so I'll just have to "soldier through" fucking soldier through! I'm supposed to be laid in bed for at least the next three days and yet here I am got to go do the school run and cook tea for ds and look after a three year old till 8pm when he's home, but it's ok I can go to bed after ive put ds to bed!
No offer to fucking help then?

Oh ((( spidey ))) that sounds awful. You need rest and fluids somehow or you are at risk of dehydrating. It's hard enough looking after kids when ur well. Can you ring/text DH back and ask him to come home earlier as you really shouldn't be left to cope on ur own. I know this is probably easier said then done.

I've had the ECG just waiting for blood test now then Dr will see me. I'm feeling quite dizzy now though

hugs to everyone -struggling a bit but you guys are having a shit time:(