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Basically I have to take bloody diazepam three times a day and be visited by HTT every day and even then the nurse reckons it's 50/50 if I'll need to go into hospital or not. This has gone too far. I'm absobloodylutely sodding fine and visited the drop-in as I was worried I was going to become not-fine and wanted to know how to stop DP worrying unnecessarily after having spoken to CMHT as I was referred from GP as I wanted to avoid becoming depressed and how to maintain my current good humour and general sparkling and effervescent nature. The lesson apparently being that being responsible and proactive with your mental health gets you accused of poor insight and told to take drugs on pain of hospital admission.

She's really fucking scared me. I will not go into hospital. So to avoid it I have to swallow pills that make me slow and stupid and sleepy even though I am totally happy with the way I am now and it's everyone else who doesn't like it. Maybe its everyone else who needs bloody medicating.

I hate this so much. I know its a bad idea to get involved in MH services. So why do I ever go back?

Psychiatry definitely wasn't promoted when I was in medical school. I was contrary and did it anyway.

Psychiatry does seem to be a bit of a dumping ground. Some brilliant, some appalling. One I came across couldn't diagnose an outbreak of scabies on the ward. Appeared to believe we all had synchronous mysterious tunnelling eczema.

Some very arrogant people in medicine too. Many who can't believe they're not necessarily the most intelligent or qualified person in the room. But that's not a psychiatry thing.

Good for you mental

I'd like to think that I'm not one of the appalling ones. I really do care for my patients, even if they see me as an interfering old cow.

You don't seem like an arrogant twat to me so you're definitely in the top twenty per cent just on that basis. IME anyway. Obviously I have no idea if you're any good at your job, mind, but that's just gravy IMO

I didn't mean this to turn into psychiatrist- bashing, BTW. I'm genuinely grateful to some of then and have met some amazing and thoughtful clinicians. As well as the slightly useless and actively unpleasant ones. Just like everyone else really.

Now ophthalmologists: they're ALL weird.

Agreed.

I had one that was WELL HOT

too hot for psychiatry

he got into trouble recently (nothing too scandalous, it all seemed a bit unfair) but I LOVED him

It must be weird being treated by a psychiatrist when you're a psychiatrist.

I have never had a psychiatrist I fancied. I wonder why.

I've had a group Jungian analyst who insisted we all saw her as a substitute mother/lover figure, which was a bit odd.

It's very weird but I'm used to it by now. In fact I see very nice psychiatrist on Wednesday.

My psychologist is hot.

because there's only ever been one and he worked here?

She was not hot. Or indeed motherly.

She creeped me the fuck out and almost every session for two years involved me and her arguing about science and reality and quackeryquackery and evidence-based medicine in between people disclosing their most horrendous trauma.

Probably Mitch

Glad you're used to it Mental.

I have no idea why I kept going to that group therapy. It was worthless.

I think I'm a very difficult patient.

I have to see a psychiatrist on Thursday. I know only his name and that a random CPN said "Ah, he's lovely. Very young."

Which means she either fancies him or wants to take him home and feed him up and look after him.

I think you are probably an exciting challenge, Mental.

TBH I feel so much better now that I might cancel the appointment on Thursday

I don't think you should cancel the appointment even though you're coming across as not quite as manic as you were.

You're probably right.