Bollockybollockybollocky HTT

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Basically I have to take bloody diazepam three times a day and be visited by HTT every day and even then the nurse reckons it's 50/50 if I'll need to go into hospital or not. This has gone too far. I'm absobloodylutely sodding fine and visited the drop-in as I was worried I was going to become not-fine and wanted to know how to stop DP worrying unnecessarily after having spoken to CMHT as I was referred from GP as I wanted to avoid becoming depressed and how to maintain my current good humour and general sparkling and effervescent nature. The lesson apparently being that being responsible and proactive with your mental health gets you accused of poor insight and told to take drugs on pain of hospital admission.

She's really fucking scared me. I will not go into hospital. So to avoid it I have to swallow pills that make me slow and stupid and sleepy even though I am totally happy with the way I am now and it's everyone else who doesn't like it. Maybe its everyone else who needs bloody medicating.

I hate this so much. I know its a bad idea to get involved in MH services. So why do I ever go back?

No it wouldn't make much sense without the edges. I just wanted to know if I was being unreasonable in thinking that my handwriting is, while a little messier than usual, perfectly decipherable with a little effort But then most of the HTT are workin in their second language I think and handwriting styles can be vey different in different countries so perhaps that's a factor.

Hi thumb. A female Garfield is the perfect description of my lovely Gladys.

I didn't know you could get guinea pig balls.

I loved my guineas. I had some very clever ones and some… not so clever ones.

Loved them all.

Except the evil bitey one.

Hell, I loved her too. I just didn't let anyone else hold her.

Anyway I feel like a total fraud because the whole reason for this thread is null now as I spoke to the HTT earlier and they're not going to be visiting me any more ((woohoo) so I girss I have nohing to be worried about any more and no Damocletian admissionsword (ward sword?) dangling over me any more. I'm FREE (I apologise if Mr Humphreys tickles your Alan Carr aversion centres BTW MP)

You must be relieved that the HTT have called off the dogs. I has them for five weeks earlier this year. Keep an eye out for the Mental Health Act though, it can sneak up on you from nowhere.

Ahhhhhhhh, it's so nice to have people understand how coercive HTT can feel! What do you mean by "sneak up" though? As far as I'm aware I'm not sectionable...

I don't know if you're sectionable or not and it's none of my business but refusing treatment sometimes causes alarm bell to ring in certain people's heads.

Bit apprehensive as no matter how many tines I told the guy on the phone I was being COMPLIANT he still insisted on descibing my request to no have daily visits as "not wanting to engage" - but he did say he would write it in a "nice way"

Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm glad you turn off the psychiatrist part of your head on MN - I trust mentals but not psychiatrists

On here I'm definitely a patient. You're not the only one to distrust psychiatrists. My mum used to think it was all made up nonsense despite the fact that her mother died from bipolar disorder.

I have been emphasising capacity and getting every professional I see to concede that I am rational and have CAPACITY and COMPETENCE.

I don't think it's made up - I have family members with suffering and dysfunction variously diagnosed as depression, endogenous depression, atypical depression, GAD, PTSD, social anxiety disorder, OCD, anorexia nervosa, bulimia, and "well she was a bit odd and had to go and see her guru sometimes" - so I know it is real; I just dispute the methods used by the system to deal with people like us.

Also five weeks?! how did you ever get anything done?

I think my mother had hoped I would have a glittering surgical career. Try operating with my tremor.

Oh and I forgot the one with manic depression (as was then) - the proper insane type

They used to come at the same time everyday but I was off work sick so I had fuck all else to do but hang around the house.

Ugh, yesz the lithium tremens

Sorry terrible joke.

There's always anaesthetics? I have a slightly dim but lovely friend who went into that, and I don't think a tremotnwould be too bad, as long as people don't mind cannulation taking a little while longer....

Anaesthetics is very dull. I actually really like psychiatry, it's nothing if not a challenge.

Or general practice? Nobody's getting into that now though. Everyone I know is getting out while the going is good.

Never general practice. All those babies with rashes and endless coughs and colds. I'd hate it. My fronds who are GPs are totally demoralised.

Yeah , "dull" sounds about right. I don't understand it myself. She was in set 2 for maths

Fronds?? I meant friends.

People I know are mostly demoralised by the admin, the hours, the responsibility, the stress, the lack of prestige, the need to become a businessman/woman, and the lack of decent career progression, than by the snotty babies. Though those are ofncoirse a feature.

more demoralised.

Ach your typing is still better than mine. And you've got a good excuse too