Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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Total disaster of a day. The car broke down on the way to DHs interview, so he had to walk for about half an hour in his suit as he didn't have a coat with him. They've said that he's not really what they're looking for.

So that's a days pay lost, no new job and now we need to fix the fucking car. I could cry.

(((( screamer )))) How rubbish

I hope the time doesn't go too slow, victrix

I hope the paperwork is done and/or in progress, mp

I hope the car issues are sorted, spidey

I hope you got to your appointment, pulled, and you caulk

I got into town this morning, windowshopped, thinking about ordering this in my size to try (to the store) here I think it might be a bit short, so going up a size if I do order in.

I was too scared to tell the Dr about seeing things and the voice. I chickened out. I apparently have to ring cmht myself to chivvy them along and I can still ring the crisis team number that I have, and got told off when I told her about Dhs accident because I shouldv called crisis or the drs.
Tbh she seemed more interested in my weightloss and asked all the same questions she asked last month.
She has given me the all clear to start running again after my hideous cough though so hopefully I can stabilise myself that way until I see cmht.

That's a real shame Spidey. My GP chivvied the CMHT on my behalf. Can you call the number you have and tell them about the voices and stuff?

CPN thinks I'm low. Bugger. See my psychiatrist next week. I'm sure I'm fine.

Is there any particular reason she thinks you're low? Hopefully it's not the sign of going down.

I'm seeing my psych this week to see if she'll give me some anti-Ds along with the other meds I'm on to try and pull me out of the depression I seem to be in permanently.

I have been feeling a little low but pushed it to the back of mind and carried on. I'm sure it's just a blip, I'm on so much medication I couldn't possibly be getting depressed. Can't take antidepressants anyway. Will try to get out for some air every day, that usually helps.

Sorry to hear people are still having a crappy time.

Hope you can shake the SH thoughts pulled

Sorry to hear that Screamer - Sounds like a nightmare!

Glad you got a date at least Victrix

Keep losing my cool with DS. I have so much more patience when I'm 100%. Just feel like I can't keep him under control and keep losing my own control (by shouting/losing my cool). Argh, hate it.

Nearly bed time though, and I've managed not to have a total meltdown because of DS today. And have some crap to eat whilst watching Tv I love later.

Half terms should be illegal...

Hi everyone. Do a couple of bad days mean my depression is likely to be coming back or can it just be a blip?

Hi everyone. Not such a good day here today :(

Woke up this morning after not a very good sleep feeling quite low. Mood just generally went from low to lower. Feel anxious and really quite nervy.

I think it's because very late evening yesterday I heard from one of my excolleagues and talking and texting with them just brought about uncomfortable memories.
I recognise it is one of my trigger points anything much to do with my ex workplace, and try to avoid as much as poss excolleagues, going near the shop as its that sends me spiralling downwards. But it came out of the blue, wished I would of ignored her initial text.

I question how long it will ever take to move on from this and not be so mentally affected....

Hoping this is a temp blip and that my anxiety levels will go down, as am going into my second week in my new job and working tomorrow.

Sorry for my all about me post :( I just feel so shit :(

Cherrypi - so I am thinking this is a blip and that it's not returning. It may take a day or do to lift my mood. Can't do much more really...

Well I am finally off constants :)

At home with my DH and the cat on some leave.

Have been really poorly the past 24 hours, d&v. Blah.

Sorry to hear that Collar and Cherry.

Collar - That sounds pretty normal. I'm pretty much over things that happened to me as a teen, ten years ago, but if an old school mate got in contact or I had to go anywhere near the school I'd be a nervous wreck. Sometimes the damage is done but you can move on from it

I have blips a few times a year, but generally don't worry unless it's been for longer than a week if that makes sense Cherry? How long has it been going on for?

Finally sat down watching mu shit tv and trying to get back to the point where I can take a deep, 'proper' breath. Got so worked up this afternoon

What's everyone else up to?

fluffy sorry to hear you've had some sort of bug, I imagine it's the last thing you need. Great news that you're off constants and are on home leave.

I'm going to go and try to do something creative with lamb steaks........

Just a couple of days but felt exactly the same as before. Feel a bit better this evening. I put my depression down to my old job but not working there anymore so bit scary it could just be me.

It might not be that black and white but it's good you're paying attention to how you're feeling. Maybe head back to the GP if it's not passed in a few days, just to be safe?

Lamb sounds lovely MP Hope it is just a blip. It can be so hard to tell sometimes

I'm plucking up the courage to go bac to the GP this week and be 100% honest about how this month has been/what's happened. Had a tiny SH blip, an hadn't had a SH blip in almost a year (quit, after doing it daily for years, in 2009 but slip up every now and then). Dissapointed with myself, for being low again and for doing that again but it is what it is and I need a helping hand with it atm.

On the plus side, I love Halloween. Not too apathetic for it this year and will look grumpy enough to be scary

Glad to hear about the leave, fluffy I hope the bug goes soon too, I always used to end up with one when inpatient.

I hope it's 'just' a blip, mp and cherrypiand collardove

I'm struggling to think of SMART goals (for next week).

Orchard - I really hope in time that I will be able to move on completely without all the awful anxiety reaction. It just knocks all my confidence away in a flash, and I have to rebuild again.

Fluffy - welcome home :) that's great to hear you are on home leave.

Snowy - how are you? Are you feeling better today?

I'm feeling physically better, collar thanks for asking

(((( all )))) it's seems to be a crappy day all round

I made it to therapy but now I'm reeling in the after effects. Just had a magnum to cheer myself up but it doesn't seem to have worked but hey ho it's bed time soon.

Totally agree half term should be made illegal.

Get my vitD injection tomorrow morning which means I'll be in bed for a few days as it Knocks me for sixes. Though that would suit me fine with the way I'm feeling at the moment

Snowy - that's good :)

Pulled - I hate injections :( oh to spend a few days in bed though sounds bliss at the moment!

I will have to put a smile on my face tomorrow come hell or high water as am back to work. It's only my second week, I was very chirpy last week. So if I don't cover up my anxiety they will all wonder what the hell has happened to me??

Here's to a better day tomorrow for all those who have felt shite today :)

Good luck Pulled. Sounds a bit nasty.

Hope it's not too stressfull collar

((( collar ))) wishing you the best for tomorrow. I'm sure you will be fine. If you feel weird just knock back a glass of at lunchtime or even better think of the silly jokes we have been telling on here