Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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I made a new one hope no one minds.

We had curry. DH has gone out for the evening so I'm just trying to settle DS and then need to get on with tidying/other household bits. Some nights he'll stay settled and others he keeps waking up.

I'm ok thanks, at least it wont continue over the weekend. And I can choose not to read (as I've been saying to others)

The pub sounds a plan!

Oh ((( victrix ))) yes agreed what a day!

dizzy hope DS stays settled tonight so you can relax a bit too. If you don't have the energy I'd leave the household stuff for tomorrow

Yes staying away sounds like a good plan snowy hope ur evening is going well

Yep, I've been watching the sewing bee. How's yours?

I didn't realise sewing bee was on

It's been a good evening snowy Just had yummy fish n chips taken my evening meds just waiting for DD for fall asleep now then I can watch some catch up tv.

What's sewing bee all about then?

Thanks Pulled, he's so far slept well and I've got most of the bits done. Was just meant to start on the admin but somehow found myself on MN instead, no idea how that happened...

Eep, they made animal one-sies? I tried making DD's halloween costume last year, ended up having to buy one instead. I love seeing what other people can do, even if I'm rather rubbish at it myself.

Sorry to hear that Victrix

Had a nice day but keep getting the dissasosiation thing, where I just feel like I'm walking through a dream and can't focus on normal things, like other people talking (which comes off rude and I hate doing). Know it's my mind's weird way of protecting me though. You can only take so much stress etc. I used to SH to 'bring myself back' but trying very very hard not to. It's been years since I stopped and I know it only helps short term and makes long term problems worse etc etc.

Hope everyone's had a good eve. Hopefully I'll have come back down to earth by tomorrow morning

(And pulled, tantrumming kids can be so stressful even on a good day! I empathize. DS can be a nightmare and he's only 3 so still at 'that' stage. Hope it's easier tomorrow).

Thanks orchard Keep strong re SH. I understand the whole dissociation thing as I have that too & it's scary to try keeping urself together to not SH. I've been SH free for about 18 months now I think if my memory is right but it has been bloody hard. I was even thinking normally on a day like today my mind would have just shut down but somehow I've managed to keep it intact. It's made me wonder whether I'm getting better I don't know if this is something you could try but when I become dissociative I curl myself into a ball & rock myself back n forth and say out loud "I'm safe" That makes me feel protected somehow and has many times stopped me from SH. Sorry folks I've digressed a bit.

orchard I'm with you on the sewing front I can just about manage to fix a loose button on something

That's ok Pulled Know what you mean Well done! CBT helped me stop SHing after 6 years of doing it, and it is so hard at first so that's great!

I don't want to go back there ever again if I can help it, it just feels horrible when you 'tune' out'. I can barely understand other people/remember what I need to do etc when it's bad and it can be very distressing. Picked up a few tricks over the years though (just trying to use the senses as much as possible).

Hope everyone has a lovely weekend!

Victrix - sorry to read that you are in hospital again :(

Orchard & Pulled - my sewing skills run to button fixing also! Anything else is done with the help of Lakelands Liquid Sewing Machine (in a bottle) it's fab!!

Dinner here was chilli with jacket potato, with sour cream n chive dip and guacamole :)

orchard your doing great so keep going

collar dinner sounds yummy

victrix hope u have a good night and are not in too much pain

I'm going to turn in for the night now so wish everyone a peaceful night. Will pop in tomorrow I'm sure

Thank you.

Ooo sounds lovely!

Sometimes I really feel that DS would be better off living with his dad. I'm such a horrid grump sometimes and dread him being more and more aware of things, like what's going on when I'm sick etc. My biggest fear is it 'rubbing off' on him. And I just feel like I can't cope with him at this age sometimes.

I know it'll pass though, and I'd miss him too much etc. Just really bugging me atm.

He loves you regardless orchard. Xx

Ok this is bizarre, I keep seeing things behind me, day before yesterday it was a pigeon that wasn't there and then yesterday I kept seeing a cat walking past behind me. It's like they're in my peripheral vision it's really frustrating because when I turn round obviously they're not really there.
I even pointed out the pigeon to Dh!

Sorry to hear that. I get similar, except it's usually black cats/rats etc. Small black animals that seem to be right to the side of me/flit past. Except they really do have a shape. Always when I'm very anxious/haven't slept well.

It's annoying because you feel stupid when you turn to look and nothing's there/you've jumped in front of someone else...

Hi all,

Hope everyone is having an ok weekend so far.

I've woken up with a headache even though I've slept just going to try and having an easy day as much as I can. DH tidied and hoovered last night so at least that is one less task. I'm leaving them at the mercy of each other but it won't be long before I hear "mummy"

orchard ur DS loves you trust me. I get all those feeling too but the truth is I know DD won't survive an hour without me. Partly because DH is useless in the parenting department and partly because despite her driving me bat shit I love the hell out of her. We all do our best each and everyday with our kids

As for the seeing things in the corner of my eye I had that a while back I put it down to sleep deprivation. I was also having a feeling of presence in my room that was a bit scary though and for time was seeing a dark figure in my room. I knew the whole time nothing is there but still felt/saw these things. It does make you feel stupid at the time though.

Gosh how many times did I use time in the last paragraph

It was sewing bee for comic relief, there were 4 episodes this week. It should be on iplayer.

Hope everyone has a good day

Thanks Pulled He came back from my DM's this morning (she had him overnight) and I felt better. He'd missed me and said he wanted to come home so he could love me (still doesn't quite understand what love/i love you etc really means). So I know it's just a bad thought I have when I'm down. It's just hard when you feel like you're not being as good a mum as you could be etc. Mother's guilt as my gran calls it!

The corner of the eye stuff is usually a sign to myself that i'm either way too on edge or that I've not slept or eaten enough. When I was at my worst last year I'd get the sensation that someone was stood right behind my back, almost pressed against me. It made me feel stupid but I couldn't shake the feeling and was still scared (and I was sure someone was in my room in the hospital, we had a shared room and I was alone in it for a few days but with the curtain-divider drawn and the lights off in the other half of the room, really creeped me out...serves me right for watching too many horror movies haha).

Hope your headache goes

Thanks snowy that is my something to watch for tonight sorted hope ur day is going well x

orchard I can't watch any type of scary/horror stuff anymore as I completely freak out afterwards. It has saddened me though as I use to love watching CSI just about can handle watching holby city but even that has freaked me out a few times. Thank you my headache is disappearing slowly

I can't even watch Casualty/Holby City any more, or the news.

The news is the worst. I laaughed when a GP once suggested turning the news on if I was up early-morning (to remind me my issues aren't that big ). Errrm, did you want me to get better. I doubted it

Well DS's dad had him for a little while and instead of lying on the sofa for hours like I wanted to I made myself cook a yummy bacon, pesto pasta meal for me and DS to have later. Been eating crap cus I'vel felt crap but need to look after us/myself.

Hope everyone else is doing good

Ditto re the news snowy I end up in tears each time and think to myself why do I bother

orchard I swear some GP's are clueless when it comes to mental health as if watching sadness, destruction & misery of others is meant to fix us. That line of "there are people worse off then you" comes to mind which is typically used.