Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc

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Oh fluffy, I'm so sorry things aren't going better for you. I know you'll hate it but PICU might be just where you need to be for a little while. Know that everyone involved only have your best interests in mind.

Thanks snowy I'm sorry you've had a similar ordeal with blood tests. Have you had those results back yet? Hope your blood pressure results come back ok.

fluffy Of course you want to be safe lovey please don't think like that. MP is absolutely right everyone will have your best interests in mind.

I second and third MP and Pulled, (((( fluffy )))) I want you to be safe.

My blood tests were fine, I hope yours come back ok too pulled.

It wasn't till I was on the PICU (my hypomanic ranting was disturbing the whole assessment ward, including me) that I felt in a quiet enough place to start to feel better, fluffy. I also found it useful that in the PICU we could only smoke one cig an hour, at quarter-to-the-hour, last fag 10.45 IIRC. I'm just saying this in case that's where you end up - and of course what suits one person may not suit another (staff were surprised I preferred it!)

Thanksfor your good thoghts. I have been to PICU before.

Have ligatured tonight but no joy, feel shit.

Fluffy, we need you to be safe, whether you want to be or not we need you here. Your destiny is to fight this and to survive it.
Your destiny is to be out in the world helping others to survive.

I hope you can finally get peace and they can help to make you realise that the world needs fluffy.

The villiage loves you, the villiage needs you and the villiage wouldn't be right without you in it.

That goes for all of you! even in your darkest hour when you believe beyond all doubt that you have reached the end, there is no hope and no one cares remember the villiage, everyone here is struggling and trying to stay afloat and I believe that we need each and every one of the villagers here supporting each other to keep us all afloat.
So if you don't survive for you survive for us.

Failed again this morning, feel vile.

Sending ((hug)) fluffy. Sorry it is so bad at the moment. X

(((( fluffy ))) hope the day gets better for you x

I'm now ill with a cold that follows a flu jab so another bed day today.

Hello to everyone else and hope the day is being kind to all

Hugs all. Fluffy, hang in there xx

(((( fluffy ))))

fluffy sorry to hear things are not good at the moment. I hope you're getting the support that you need.

pulled the post flu jab cold is grim, DP and I escaped this year but I was full of it worth last years vaccine.

I've had a morning driving round the county with a CPN doing home visits. Nice way to spend a morning but noticed that at least two of my tyres need replacing. At £400 each it's going to be expensive

Hi guys, sorry I went AWOL. I got very ill and believed I was possessed, but thankfully escaped hospital.

By the miracle of Quetiapine, I was back up and feeling OK within 5 days of an increase. Somehow, I've managed to be well enough to make it out to Texas for a research trip.

Sorry for the really quick message, but just wanted to say hi and send a gazillion hugs to everyone. I won't be on for a while as have a crazily busy schedule.

I'm glad the quetiapine helped, dontrunwithscissors I remember when you got unwell in the US. I hope your research trip goes well

Ouch re: tyres, mp

Having a bad day, don't think crisis would care because the councillor signed me off and the cmht haven't bothered to contact me so I don't even know who I'd ring. Next door neighbour has had a breakdown and attempted suicide, I didn't even know until I got a text from his landlady (we had problems with the last tenants) to say the house would be empty and it didn't look likely he would return. I feel guilty that I saw him and thought he looked sad but ignored it because I was so wrapped up in my own shit.
Have sh a bit, just going to put ds down for a nap and consider giving Samaritans a ring, I don't think I'm truly suicidal but feel I need to do something. I wish it was a running day, running helps me switch off and calm. And the stupid voice keeps shouting at me that it's my fault and I should've seen him suffering and known what he was planning.
I don't want to call crisis because it's a bad day and I don't want them to think I'm like this.

I was doing so well and ive fucked it all up again.

Oh no MP re the tyres that sounds really expensive

I'm sipping away here on Lempsip though I'm also scared that I may be pregnant as I'm late by 16 days now but I haven't got the courage to do a pregnancy test but am freaking out about it all anyway. I really could not deal with a pregnancy I just about manage to look after DD.

Glad quetiapine has helped dontrun and do come back and tell us more about ur trip to Texas.

snowy how are u doing today?

spidey it was absolutely not ur fault re ur neighbours breakdown - ignore the stupid voices. Do u have a number for the crisis team/Cmht? If u do please call them and exam what has happened today. Otherwise giving the Samaritans a call is a good idea. And u really haven't fucked anything up at all. Hope u have managed to put DS to bed x

Hi spidey sorry to hear about your neighbour but please know that none of what happened to him is your fault. Have you looked after your sh? Consider giving the Samaritans a call, it's good to talk when you're feeling like you are.

My hand is swollen and bruised all over. I don't cut anymore Dh threatened to leave me if he saw another cut.
I bite. Mainly my right hand and forarm but that's ok because I am very clumsy and Dh always believed I tripped.
Well it's not ok but it's not like proper sh.
I don't think I could talk ive emailed Samaritans. Ds is asleep on the sofa and should stay there till 5.
I'm furious that I feel like this I had loads to do today and I've not done any of it I've just wallowed in self pity.
I should have seen it. Ibshould have said something when he put all his livingroom furniture out in the back garden for two days tv, stereo and all I should've knocked on the door and asked if he was ok.
I was just so busy being a selfish self centred twat that I ignored it.
I should've helped and now his little girls will have to grow up with their dad ill.

Ds is awake now so have to pull myself together until bedtime.

((( spidey )))

Aaaannndddd if today couldn't get any shitter Ds just bit the cat.

Sorry you are having a rough time spidey

Just got cut down again, I am ok feel a bit sick though.

Hate this. Hate my life. Need togo now.

My rough time is a thousand times easier than yours. I feel a bit guilty for whining about my problems when you're suffering.