Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc

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Shiny new thread. xx

Yes maybe I should go and do that now Snowy. I am so cross with myself for going out...

Takeaway is good Snowy. I may have to follow your lead on that as I ended up coming straight home with nothing for tea tonight.

Thanks Nana :) i may have to stay close to the thread for the rest of the day for a little support.

Evening all. Feel very knackered tonight, heavy period, tmi. Bath soon. Done nothing today. Apologies for not saying hi to all, big hugs xxx

Yes, I feel I'm in a blip, NN Hopefully it will pick up before Friday - Friday's when I'm being setup with the 24 hour blood pressure measurement machine. Apparently some people don't tolerate it. I think it's odd how maths stirs emotions in people, more than (e.g.) English, which is as important at school.

I'll probably have capital chicken wings, singapore rice noodles and garlic broccoli.

We're all here for you, collardove

Sorry nethuns, I missed your post. Not tmi, I used to suffer terribly, but now take tranexamic acid (reduces the bleeding loads), and mefanamic acid.
I hope you feel better soon.

I also don't get why dyslexia is known so better by the general population compared to dyscalculia. It doesn't seem fair.

No - it's not fair about dyslexia and dyscalculia is it!! Ooh the takeaway sounds good....

No need to apologise Nethuns sometimes just breathing is an effort

Collardove yes we're all here to support you.......go get that takeaway and see if you can sort yourself out for tomorrow. Sorry that sounds a bit uncaring but you know what I mean.

I'm worried about my neighbour - I'm pretty sure she's depressed - they are a couple in their mid 30s with 4 children under 8 and that's a heavy load, but she just doesn't look right and her DH said she wasn't well but wasn't specific. Don't know whether to offer support or whether she'd think I was being nosey.

Cheers chaps xx

Cheers nethuns, my watch says it's gin o'clock

Ugh I'm really ill, keep wheezing and spluttering, yuk. I need to go to work tomorrow though even if they send me home.

Re: the maths, yes it is really a huge thing for people if they find it difficult. My career ambition is/was to become a primary teacher and then specialise in maths, so a head of mathematics in a junior school or something like that. I couldn't even finish my degree though when I got too ill. But I specifically dreamed of that job because I wanted to make a difference early enough - I was told to try for secondary maths teaching but in all honesty I think for many it is too little too late. Once that lack of confidence sets in it's incredibly difficult to reverse. I worry about my DD as she certainly hasn't inherited my maths ability and is already struggling. DH has gone to a yr3 maths meeting tonight though so we can be up to date with the exact methods they use.

Must tuck DS in now. DD read him a bedtime story as I've all but lost my voice! She might be a whingey madam sometimes but she really is a very caring big sister. :)

No - it's not fair about dyslexia and dyscalculia is it!! Ooh the takeaway sounds good....

No need to apologise Nethuns sometimes just breathing is an effort

Collardove yes we're all here to support you.......go get that takeaway and see if you can sort yourself out for tomorrow. Sorry that sounds a bit uncaring but you know what I mean.

I'm worried about my neighbour - I'm pretty sure she's depressed - they are a couple in their mid 30s with 4 children under 8 and that's a heavy load, but she just doesn't look right and her DH said she wasn't well but wasn't specific. Don't know whether to offer support or whether she'd think I was being nosey.

Sorry don't know what happened there - duplicate post!

((( fuzzpig ))) I hope you feel better soon.

Take away was lovely, NN Nice reward to self.

All you with the takeaways! We had chicken nuggets and the worst attempt at chips ever produced. In the oven an hour and still pale and flaccid. I'm usually a pretty good cook honest!!my heart just wasn't really in it. This cmht thing has knocked me flat. It feels like I've become a problem so I've been dumped on someone else, gp didn't know what to do with me so dumped me on councelling, councillor doesn't know what to do with me so she's dumping me on cmht, where do I go when they don't want me?
I tried so hard to do couch to 5k yesterday that I can hardly walk today, not in an "oohh ive been excercising" way more in a "someone's swapped all the bones in the lower half of my body with broken glass and my muscles feel like I'm moving through treacle" sorta way.
I'm fucking sick of it. Can't I just go back to pretending I'm ok? Bury my feelings and Anguish back in that dark place way down deep and pretend so hard that every movement isn't painful that I start to believe it?
Mil told Sil that I was "a bit down so seeing a councillor" so not only did she tell sil when I asked her not to but apparently she doesn't think I'm particularly ill? I don't know how to react to that. In a way I don't want people to see that I'm vulnerable and I don't like to display emotions so it's good that they all think I'm coping fine but also I want to shake them and shout "I'm not ok! I need more help! I can't cope with doing all the housework, all the childcare, caring for mil, trying to plan and calorie count meals every day and try to keep positive and convince myself that I deserve to live and deserve to have a semblance of happiness. It's all too much.

It might just be the aches and pains making me miserable but I'm all out of positives today guys, I can't think of any.

Thanks

Panicking big style about money again... got a letter from CSA, it seems the rules are changing and I'm terrified we are going to get charged a lot more now and things are tight as it is. Got that pit of worry feeling. DH is phoning back tomorrow to give all the details (they want info about rent etc even though on the CSA calculator online it doesn't - so I'm not sure if they take it into account or not) but then there might be a long wait for calculations etc (especially if we have to find and photocopy documents) and it does my head in.

Spidey - your pale and flacid chips description made me giggle!
I am glad I am not the only person who cannot turn out decent chips!

Nethuns - so sorry you are so down today.

I am slightly calmer now. But angry as this upset has meant for most of the day i have not done any reading and prep for my interview tomorrow :(
A Friend of mine who also has MH issues has been a godsend to me this evening keeping me distracted with texting me.

Apart from you all and her no one else around me in RL understands the impact of anxiety. How quickly it can surface, and how long it can be till it subsides.
Also I didnt sleep more then sn hour last night, which I actually forgot about! So the tiredness has also contributed to my struggle today after the encounter with my excolleague.

Snowy - I did as you suggested and wrote it all down. It was a right angry ramble. Two A4 pages long. I have read it again and now filed it in the bin.
Hope you enjoyed your takeaway!

Nananina - :) I know what you meant. Thanks for your support.
I will have to do a little reading now for the interview. I will check in again before I go to bed.

Pulled - good to see you

Fuzzpig - hope you feel better

(((Hugs))) to everyone else x

Good luck tomorrow collar, will be thinking of you!

And I totally get how you are feeling following that encounter with nasty woman. People who don't have anxiety cannot comprehend that. Even DH who is no stranger to depression and PTSD doesn't really get it - he finds it baffling and frustrating when I just won't let something go. I'm not surprised it drives him nuts when I keep asking the same thing! Whereas if something happens to him, he will rant for a bit and then move on.

Anyway, I'm sorry this happened. Crappy timing or what! Hopefully having slept on it you'll feel better tomorrow.

Aww thank you fuzzpig. I have calmed slowly this evening after reaching near hissy fit level late afternoon.

No one understands like the villagers on this thread :)

Hope you feel better tomorrow!

Good luck tomorrow collar

Sorry you feel rubbish nethuns and fuzz

spidey I was referred from my GP to counselling to the CMHT - it is the right team for me, please don't be worried, they can offer more support and more long term support

Watching TV with my constant. Tired.

(((Fluffy)))) thank you lovely :)

What are you watching fluffy? :)

In fact for a lighthearted topic what are everyone's favourite things to watch on telly?

I mostly watch comedies, I love Big Bang theory (watching some now as I always sleep downstairs when I'm wheezy), friends, scrubs, black books, spaced, blackadder, Fawlty towers, green wing... Also love dr who and Torchwood, and am totally hooked on Revenge. I am an animation nerd, I love anime (hoping to start learning Japanese because of this) and am starting to branch out into European animation too. DH loves sci fi but I say YAWN!!! :o

Aren't things weird. today I somehow picked up 3 neglected.kittens and the possibility of a job in the area of policing that floats my boat. ... After all my panicking about the email it looks like it's put me on the radar for a.job....The. kittens are a separate problem. ...I. already have 2 cats and I've ended up with 3 kittens all suffering cat flu, worms and other nasties.....but they are squidgy cute balls of fluff that were found in a cupboard. ...I said I'd take them temporarily. ...We might now be a 5 cat household. .... just trying to prevent my moggies catching anything off them. ...poor mites. They are all underweight, full of worms, and full of snot. ...poor babies.

Awww kittens!

My neighbour's two cats both had a litter recently, they were so gorgeous and I had lots of cuddles before they were sold.

Ahhh! Finally a positive, I am now 2st lighter than I was two months ago. Doesn't 100%count to the competition between Dh and myself because I lost 1/2 a stone before we started counting.
Hopefully going for proper running shoes today (running in converse isn't the best idea) and if I get Dh in a good enough mood he's going to buy me some lovely new boots. I just haven't told him yet!