Hi carrie - really sorry to hear you're feeling so crappy
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I don't know what to suggest - although I agree that if you're not happy with your home life, no tablet is going to 'cure' those feelings until the situation changes, although the tablets should still help take the edge off things and help with your anxious feelings, I would have thought. Do you think you're still feeling better than you were before you were taking the tablets at all?
I would forget about reducing the meds for now, or maybe make an appointment with the different GP again and talk about if the one your on is really working for you - I would have thought that 150mg is a big dose to still not be working properly? And if you don't feel able to ask the GP about therapy, have you tried any online? There were some links for some good online (free) CBT on the old thread, I will have a look for them.
I still just take 50mg; maybe sometimes I do feel I could do with more, but I still have side effects and feel quite zoned out sometimes, I don't want to feel any more out of it than I do already! My GP mentioned reducing after six months, but I don't feel at all ready to do that yet - I still feel a bit up and down, although generally I do feel better than I did at the start so I cling onto that thought!
And I know it's easy for me to say from the outside, but its really hard to be objective about things like relationships, your marriage, etc, when you're feeling crap anyway. So I think you really have to try and put thoughts like that on the backburner for now and tell yourself you'll see how you feel about those things when you are feeling better in yourself.
Hope you start to feel better soon 