"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

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New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

Thanks, I feel anxious about the assessment feels like a backward step.

(((snowy))) It's there to help you, but I understand. I feel rubbish, really, really tearful and chaoatic. And sick. It's because the home treatment team have left me without 2 doses of setraline now, and I'm starting to feel the effects of that.

They phoned, trying to sort them out I think, but if I miss doses, that's not helpful is it?

Gosh katkins - i got all goosebumpy reading your post - you will be with your DD and you just add in as an aside the first class honours Bloody well done that woman!!! I think you are amazing - ha! and you can tell your voices i said so!

Re missing the dose of sertraline i don't think it is major unless you stop abruptly, i think the half life would be long enough that one or maybe two missed doses wouldn't cause you major problems. You also say the consultants want to see how you manage the side affects of your meds, i think that you will find that once you are more settled into taking them they will subside as everyone seems to struggle for the first month or so.

ciq please don't leave, you don't have to not post because you are feeling better. Its brilliant that you are! Of course you don't have to post either, but its nice to read that you are doing well.

I am struggling a bit, DP keeps having digs at me because i don't have a job, this is because this week is tight for money, although he has just finished a job so should be paid soon enough. I hate that he gets so moody when the money is tight - i wonder if i make him unhappy and he would be better off with someone with a bit more "go" in them. I am feeling like a huge failure just now.

Thanks katkins, I hope your meds get sorted out soon, it must be stressful.

(((( LEM ))))) you're not a failure. Is there anything you would like to do?

(Lem) You aren't a falure. We all have weeks when we struggle money-wise (ahem, I mean, use our overdrafts as actual money :D). You are doing the best you can everyday, and that is enough. If it helps, I just phoned my Dad and asked him to loan me some cash. He said it depends on whether I let him come to graduation because I haven't told him the date! You aren't a failure, though, really, it's tough with mh issues, as I'm slowly disovering, and comes with all sorts of hidden costs we don't always think about. Be kind to yourself, we all have to budget sometimes, even really 'well off' people. It's not your fault.

It's hard to find anyone else that has used day services, particularly multiple times. I wonder what their criteria are?

Thanks katkins and snowy - we don't have overdrafts etc as we had debt issues butit will be fine. I think he is worried because its dd's birthday next week but i had amazon vouchers so used them to buy presents and she wants to go to harry potter studios later in the holidays.

Snowy - would it be worth starting a thread on here to see if anyone else has experience of day services?

Congrats on the degree classification Katkins, very well done.

Congratulations katkins that's a fantastic result sounds like you're getting better care now too which is good.

lem (((hugs))) many, many people struggle with money at the moment. Hang in there. (I'm not going anywhere, can't face the world outside the village tbh )

snowy really feel for you - can imagine its hard going to day hospital again. Really hope its helpful though.

mp how was work today - how are you feeling?

Hello pyrrh, lollipop, dd, nethuns, collar, nana and anyone I've missed.

I'm just in from a night out with mums from dd's class. I definitely prefer nights out with mums from ds's class. With dds there are a couple of mums who used to be friends til I got ill.... and now aren't, which isn't easy, and I just don't feel comfortable in that group any more. But I did get chatting to the mum of a new girl who DD wanted to invite round, so that's helpful. Gosh the school mums thing is not easy. I was the first to leave but I don't care. I need to get some drawing/painting done tomorrow.

I sent off my initial sketch to my first commission client this morning. He said he'd come back to me this pm, but nothing. I am not panicking, but it is very hard work not to think that he doesn't like it. I don't have an alternative idea so it would be back to the drawing board (quite literally!) Phew. Have booked myself a massage on Saturday morning which I'm looking forward to though, and elbow is a bit better too basically I need to keep it straight at night and do some exercises in the day...

Yes I have had a glass of but I mean it when I say this is an amazing thread and it has been a lifeline for me this last 18 months. Thanks all. OK. Bed I guess, but I think I need a bit of recovery time first after what was actually a stressful evening.

night all

Brilliant result, katkins :)

It is hard to realise that we need more recovery time than many people. These days even after a nice time (picnic with brass bands the other day, seeing an old friend yesterday) I feel kind of jangly and have to lie down or take things very easy. We have the same amount of time as others - but need more time to do things that others just take for granted.

Am struggling a bit with anxiety-freeze, trying some strategies to get started, but trying not to overdo the trying! I find it is the ineffectual trying that gets to me

I also have no idea how long it should take for me to become fully adjusted to my meds, so am feeling a kind of pressure to "get better".

How was your appointment yesterday, mentalpsychiatrist? I hope it was helpful.

((( silvery ))) I hope adjusting to your meds doesn't take too much longer, it can be frustrating to give things time, can't it?

Fingers crossed for positive feedback, CIQ

Good idea LEM, I shall.

Thanks for the kind words.

Hi CIQ and snowy I'm doing ok. Saw my psych yesterday who gave me the green light to keep working. Still feeling very low but managing to compartmentalise it somewhat. The heat is making me quite crabby today. I work in a shabby old building and the windows in my office have been painted shut so I'm slowly melting. I have an afternoon of paperwork to look forward to so no rest for the wicked. I hope you're all doing ok today.

Transport sent a car (useless), so I don't know if I'll get to the assessment after all.

I hope working helps, mp

I've found an answer about day services, people experiencing an acute
mental health crisis of such severity, that without day services admission would be needed. Maybe I'm appearing more unwell than I think

Hi all,

Hope all are doing ok today (((hugs)))

Can't remember who asked what but I was first on quetiapine, sertraline & zopiclone. Then that changed to duloxitine, aripripazole, promethazine hydrochloride & diazepam. Diazepam was recently replaced with citalopram about 3 weeks ago hence the rubbish side effects I'm having at the moment. I suffer from PTSD, depression, conversion/dissociative disorder (hallucinations and hearing voices) and GAD. Plus I have physical disabilities (use a walking stick pretty much all the time). I've got arthiritis, fibromyalgia, back problems (sciatica/slipped disc) & asthma.

To be honest I feel rubbish all the time but was doing ok until the recent med change. At least I was getting through the day but now I can't even seem to do that.

Thanks to all thinking of me esp lem nana & ciq

Congrats katkins very well done.

Big (((hugs))) to all.

snowy I've been to day hospital twice and found it useful. I think for me personally it helped me get out of my room where I would spent most of my time. My voices would be so bad that they would convince me everyone hated me & I'd be better off dead. Because of this I wasn't really interacting with anyone or even able to concentrate on anything. I do think we can be far worse than we think. Sometimes it does need for someone else to point it out to us. How did your assessment go? Did you get to it? Hope it went ok. If you can try going to the day hospital with an open mind. There will be least one session you will enjoy and that is art therapy.

lem money is always been an issue for me & DH as he only works part time & doesn't earn very much. I've not been in work for the past 4 years (made redundant then MH issues). There have been times where we have argued and said some pretty nasty things to one another but thankfully we have always bounced back. You & DH will work it out sure bit it is very stressful so be kind to urself.

silvery med adjustment can take sometime as I'm finding out yet again. The side effects are horrible but I hope it doesn't last much longer for you.

mp that sounds horrible as it's really hot today. Hope you get through the afternoon. I know I would have blown a fuse by now!

collar good luck with the meeting tomorrow. Hope your stressing about it too much. I'm sure you will get through it fine.

ciq good luck with the commission!

nana hope your feeling better today and are it your DS birthday.

I hope your meds start to help, pulledapart. Thanks for sharing your experiences re: day hospital, I didn't go to the assessment because they sent the wrong sort of transport, so it's been rescheduled to next week.

Tomorrow's supposed to be very hot, the forecast here says 29 C I think I'll be staying inside (I burn easily).

Oh that's rubbish snowy about the transport. It's this kind of oversight that doesn't fill us with much confidence about the service :(

It is really hot today 27 C here and will be 31 C tomorrow I like your idea of hibernating indoors snowy

I don't feel well today. The setraline made me feel so sick last night, and my ex (DD's Dad), hasn't been on the scene for ages, suddenly decides he wants mediation. I've not let him see DD due to violence and alcholol issues- I think he is trying to harras me, because he has heard I'm unwell.

I've e-mailed mediation and said thanks but no thanks, and I'm passing my case onto the social worker. No way should I have to deal with this right now. I thought I was doing well, too. Now this :(

Really feel like doing something stupid, it was such a mean and bullying thing for him to do. He's done it on purpose I know he has. I've told them until it becomes mandatory for me to talk to him (ie at court) , I'm not interested.

(((( katkins )))) I'm sorry that he's hassling you Please don't do anything stupid, is there anyone you could ring and talk to? (or talk on here).

Ive sent an e-mail to mediation saying they haven't researched the case properly, and I won't engage with them, but will let my social worker get in touch. He hasn't been bothered about DD for a long time, so I think he's doing it to get to me.

He wont get very far- I've right on my side here. I'm not a bad Mum, and I'm getting better every day. Cleared nearly all my outstanding debt today, and bought some new things for the house and garden : am about to spend a couple of hours sorting, cleaning and vacuming, because evenings are pretty bad for me and I need distractions.

((( katkins ))) so sorry your having to deal with your ex and your absolutely right to get social services to deal with it. Hope you have managed to distract yourself with household chores & are safe xxx

I',m Ok, thank you. I am safe. The flat is spick and span, so it's not all bad. I wonder if anyone else, maybe Snowy, you could help, voices/ and or feelings get worse at particular times of day? There are certain times (like evenings) when I'm more likely to hear things or see things, or generally experience odd things and believe strange things about the world around me.