"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

Hi all may I join u all seem really lovely & supportive :)

I had a mental health breakdown 2 years ago when I started having flashbacks of my childhood abuse (blocked it all until this point) I had been suffering from depression & a bit of anxiety before that. Now I suffer from PTSD, general anxiety disorder & depression. I also hear voices (these have been better since having therapy & meds) and hallucinations sometimes & have a problem with self harm. To top it all off I have physical health problems (fibromyalgia, chronic back pain & arthritis)

I'm dealing with my physical health problems as best I can but the mental health is just not getting any better. I've been hospitalised on 4 occasions in the past year. I'm on 2 anti psychotics, 2 anti depressants & diazepam.

I feel as if I have so much anger inside me but I never let any of feelings out I just let them build up inside me :( I can't talk to even my therapist sometimes as nothing comes out. I feel as if I'm fighting a losing battle. I feel as if by now I should have started to function normally again!!!

Welcome pulledapart this is a lovely supportive thread, feel free to share and support as much or as little as you're able. Sounds like you've had a really difficult couple of years Just wondered if you've explored any physical ways of releasing your anger? I know how damaging it can be....

Hi everyone else

snowy church thing went well thanks, felt better once it was done.

mp hope you're feeling a bit better for a rest.

katkins welcome and hope your assessment is helpful.

vitrix, nana, lem and nethuns thinking of you.

collar massive well done on making it back to work. So your manager hasn't had an easy time, well you've been ill. Keep your chin up.

blossomy really interested to hear about your plans - let us know what you think helps!

I am doing kind of ok. Having to work at not isolating myself and maintaining contact with friends - seems easier to be on my own. Have been thrown by a comment by a dh of a friend who I've shared how things are with my dh. He said my dh is a keeper. Makes me paranoid that they've been talking about me/think I'm making a mountain out of a molehill...

Thanks Lem. The singing flowers were ace :) They are still signing. Quite angelic. They are giving me sertraline and diazepam to control the symptoms; formal diagnosis next Friday. I can pick up my prescription tomorrow.

I hope the meds help, katkins That's quick for a diagnosis!

Thanks Snowy. Hope you are feeling OK. It is, yes. I think they need it to put me on the right meds. What has been suggested now is to control the symptoms, not the cause yet. They want me to slow down a bit first.

Thanks katkins - I'm struggling with not being able to get out at the moment, hopefully I'll be able to again soon. I find diazepam takes the edge off voices, I hope it does for you too.

Glad you got some help katkins

Love to all

Have chest infection :(

Oh dear LEM Have you got anti-biotics?

To be fair snowy its self diagnosed. Feel rubbish though.

Oh dear Sounds like time for tlc?

OK, so I was a tad early for my phone interview, it's tomorrow

I'm now dealing with some wicked pre-interview nerves. Stomach is in knots. It's normal, for me, but it's still not nice.

Goodness the village has been busy today!

Just popping by to say a quick hi to everyone before heading off for an early night. Second day back at work today, am v.tired. Having not being able to sleep for near on the last 3 days due to mega anxiety! I now feel ready to finally get a bit of quality sleep!

Hugs to you all :) I will read back through the days posts tomorrow when I am off.

Feeling tonight. Dh in this eve - unusually and it was all very awkward. He's struggling with what I've said, I'm struggling too. Don't know how we come back from this.

Would you mind if I joined?
Just started my own thread but not had any response yet. Not having a good day

Welcome to new folk. Had a few weepy days but hopefully seem to be picking up.

Welcome feelingdown this is a lovely supportive thread. Sadly lots of us seem to be struggling at the moment. Hope today is ok for you.

Hello all.

Thank you for the welcome ciq & all.

Morning to all & Sorry to read a lot of us are struggling (((hugs to all)))

I've had a terrible night with sleep kept waking up & feeling as if there was a presence in the room. Couldn't shake the feeling off & even woke up with that feeling :( I'm distracting myself with tv right now before my little one wakes up.

Aw, LEM , that's rotten, hope you feel better very soon x

Welcome feelingdown and tornapart.

Hope you get some rest collar! Well done on managing, you deserve a gigantic at on the back.

SIlvery, and hug x

CIQ, that's a shame it's so difficult. Those atmospheres are so uncomfortable. How is it today?

DH and I had a good chat last night about both of us feeling that our home is a very unhappy place at the moment, full of tension and no joy. He needs to get some help too He is a mess. So is ds1. I don't know where to go from here, tbh. But I guess acknowledging it is a start??!? Feels like a horrible place to be.

They've replaced my wheelchair with new mechanics. Touch wood (my head) that this fixes it, not having it hasn't helped with the blip I'm in. I'm wondering if I should ring and say that I've got it now, people from cmht are coming out tomorrow morning to do my blood test because I couldn't go yesterday.

Woohoo! Passed the phone interview, got a face to face one next Monday. As part of it, I have to give a presentation.

Blowing my own trumpet a bit here, but I don't care - I rock at presentations :) Bring it on.

That's brilliant Lollipop

Hello villagers, just checking in really. Still struggling here, food is a real issue for me at the moment

That's great news Lollipop! Sorry you're struggling, victrix

snowy good to hear about new mechanics. Do you want to go out for your blood test? I so fine, if not I'd be tempted to leave it as it is.

lollipop great news and blow away

victrix sorry to hear you're struggling.

nethuns sorry to hear about your home situation - sounds so tough. It is definitely a positive that you can sit down and talk it through with your dh. I can't remember your back story but wondered if any family/individual counselling might be helpful?

I am not good. Cried on friend this morning, cried on counsellor, felt sooo exhausted after counselling fell as asleep on sofa, nearly missed school run and have felt like I've been walking through treacle all afternoon. Think I should probably get an early night. Feeling depressed. Am I depressed because of all the stress re: marriage or is part of that indifference to dh a symptom of the depression re-surfacing. Feeling frustrated - was happy a month or so ago!

Well done lollipop. Hope you feel better colouring in queen.

Thanks CIQ, I've been told to leave it as is. I'll have to make sure I don't sleep through the time though.

Sorry you're struggling, (((( CIQ )))) Counselling can be exhausting. I hope you get a good night.

How are things, everyone else?