"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

Oh god it's years since I had a doughnut - could just eat one now! Feeling marginally better this evening - Collardove don't you find that teenagers are just very self centred, it's all part of the way they develop somehow......thankfully I wasn't hit with the torment of mental illness till my sons had left home long ago and have families of their own. Wish I had a daughter though.

On me too hoping this is a blip for you Snowy but sometimes I think one blip just evaporates (so to speak) and another one emerges. Sigh. Hope you get a good sleep.

See you all tomorrow......I have an appointment at the hospital tomorrow about stress incontinence/partial prolapse but if I'm as bad tomorrow as I've been today I won't be able to go which means that I'll have to wait another month for an appointment.

Thanks, NN Yes, it seems to work like that sometimes. Good luck with your hospital appointment, I hope you can go...

Hi all,

yummmm. I treated the kids to doughnuts on Monday - some days they just can't be beaten.

lem yes it was a long queue.... but not too bad inside considering!
nethuns thanks - we did have a good day. I slept til 9.30 today!!! Kids getting used to getting their own breakfasts (and they slept in til 8.45) Sorry to hear about your ds - you have a lot on your plate at the moment.

Weather really is s**t isn't it. It has rained solidly here for 3 days now.

Sorry people are having a tough day, nana, snowy, collar. dd hope you're hanging in there.

Have v bravely invited some college people back to mine for a drink after college (and see new studio!) and am feeling vvvvv nervous about it. My parents are going to turn up mid way through with the dcs which isn't ideal but can't be helped. Hope it goes ok.

Snowy - sorry to read you are struggling this evening. You were so encouraging to many of us with your posts yesterday. I hope you get a good sleep tonight, and wake up in a better frame of mind tomorrow x

NanaNina - yes my teenage DD can be quite hard work, like a wild horse that needs to be reined in every day!
DS is quite understanding of me and my ups and downs so I am fortunate there. I have missed him in this first year he has been away at uni.
DH gave him some money to go and do a bit of good shopping today. The fine student he is returned with doughnuts, Pringles 3 for 2, a frozen pizza so big it will never fit in the oven! Fanta and bananas!
Hope you will be in a better place tomorrow to make your hospital apt.

Nethuns - How is DH this evening? I hope the apt you have next month for DS goes well.

Hope everyone else is ok? Did any one watch Britain's Got Talent? Those French guys in heels - how great were they? Now that actually brought a smile to my face!

CIQ - you are having a busy few days! Great that you can put yourself out there socially to invite them all around, and I hope it goes well for you.
I cannot remember the last time if felt able to have more then 3/4 people over!
The weather is truly shite, and I wonder how many of us may of felt slightly cheerier had the sun of been shining over the past few days?

I know I need ssome sun!! I like the student menu!

I am feeling really bad. My friend's dh abd ds have nasty flu and I dont want dd to get it. So not walking her dog today. Feel like a shit but someone is taking him tonight at least.

Morning all, thanks for the kind words/hugs

DH a bit calmer today, so I am too!! All the rest of the family have a hellish cold; I DON'T WANT IT thanks!! Feel crap enough, anything else will set me right back, even small things.

Good luck Nana today, LEM collardove sorry things are so rubbish xx

Ugh, dark mood descending now, fee rubbish. Would like to hid under the duvet . I don't want to fee this way.

nethunreject

I'm definitely having a blip. Hope everyone else is doing better?

Having a treacle day - i was thinking about how i was feeling and i remember ciq saying about wading through treacle and this is exactly how i am feeling today. Done nothing with DD :(

In other MUCH better news, my friend has just been told that all the cancer was removed and her lymph nodes were clear, such a relief.

That's great news LEM!

I hope the treacle goes away from you.

Did you hear Clive James reading his wonderful poem (on Radio 4) Sentenced To Life the other morning? It has the great lines:
'...when I walk the mile to town, I show
The right technique for wading through deep clay'

Right, fell off the thread briefly, but I'm back with news :)

1. I've been MUCH better the last few days, and now have a lot of support from friends and family, and we're going to help me build a toolkit to deal with the down days better :)

1. Sort of linked to this, I'm trying to push myself and build my confidence - tonight I made soup, all by myself, using the family food processor. No disasters, and I feel really good because I achieved something :)

1. I've got a job interview on Tuesday - I need to carry that confidence to the interview, and remember that I did well in the mock interview I had the other week. I can do this. I want this job, the hours would fit perfectly with my college studies and allow me to keep volunteering and also skating :)

Argghhhh a horrible horrible bloody day :( :( :(

Got DD hair cut after such a long time today & I've been told her nursery teachers think it's shite!!! It took me 3 months to get the courage to take her out for one. Everyone seems to think I've done a bad job of it... I knew they all thought I wasn't capable & a horrid mother but this is proof they all think I'm a crap mother :( I personally don't think it looks bad but then again what do I know I'm just mental.

Sorry self absorbed rant over!

Thinking of everyone struggling ((( all )))

On another note I've started citalopram (today is day 2) - hoping it will make a difference to my mood :(

You're not a crap Mum. Well done for cutting your DD's hair. How very dare they let on that a child in their care has a less than perfect hair cut. Even if there is anything wrong with it, it'll grow out quicker than their crappy attitudes!

That all sounds good, LollipopViolet! Good luck with the interview, I'll try and remember about it.

DD32 people shouldn't comment like that!

Hi everyone.

I am so so today, struggling with a couple of friends one of whom 'does not get' MH issues, and the other who it appears has completely abandoned me in the past week. I think it has a lot to do with my very low mood over the past few days.

Lem - I am so pleased to hear that great news about your friend, hope you shed the treacle tomorrow and have a better day.

DumDum - I am completely with YeGodsAndLittleFishes. I would like to take the scissors to their hair....

Snowy - how do you feel this evening after your blip today?

LollipopViolet - well done on the forthcoming interview!

Nethuns - good that your DH is better today. I hope your day improved for you.

NanaNina - how are you today? Did you make your hospital apt?

CIQ - when are all these folk coming for drinks?

Hello everyone hope all have had a reasonable day. Not been posting as I've taken the kids on hols. Had meds doubled to max dose but still in tears daily. I'm the only single parent I've come across on the campsite. It's really hard seeing other families and wishing that I was still in one (pointless I know). I just don't know when it's going to end...ex moved out nearly 2 years ago and I feel worse than ever.

Still in a blip unfortunately, thanks for asking collardove. I hope your mood lifts.

NN, did you get to your appointment?

((( fluffy )))) Do you think you need to change meds?

(((( all )))) I'm going to bed, to lie down at least.

Evening all, hugs and thanks for good wishes. Exhausted and sad, feeling very bad about ds1, guilty too as at times I find him hard to be around.
Hope to post more supportive things tomorrow, fellows xx

snowy think I need a new life not new meds! Gp trying increase and is confident things will get sorted somehow as 'we've been here before'. Wish I shared her confidence!

fluffybunnies - your post brought a small chuckle into an otherwise bit of a eeyore gloomy cloud day! 'Think I need a new life not new meds!' I would imagine there would be a few takers on that - me included!

Hi everyone,

(((Hugs))) fluffy for you and your family.

Thanks collar people came round after college today.

It was nice, but seems to have finished me off. Exhausted now. Found college a bit weird, dreamt about a fellow painter and felt embarrassed with him. Felt awkward with tutor after last week. Painting turn out well though.

((nethuns))

snowy hope this blip is a mini one and tomorrow is a bit better.

Hi lem, nana, lollipop anyone I've missed.

Another crap day and I e mailed my CPN and bless her she is coming out tomorrow afternoon. I didn't ask for a visit but told her I was mega anxious.....managed to get to my hospital appointment. Picked up this evening, but dreading tomorrow.

I'm really going to struggle now to remember everyone and what's happening and I don't like posting when I can't "reach out" to others - nethun I know you said you had a dark mood descending around mid-day.....I always wake up with a dark mood, and it lasts as long as it lasts, but do yours come on at any time of day.

Lem glad all is well for your friend.
DumDum the thing about your daughter's hair cut...............how do you know what the nursery thinks - it's shocking that they should say such a thing. Yegods Hi - I can't remember your situation sorry, but I don't think DumDum cut the child's hair herself....but what does it matter, I like your response.
collardove Yes I've been watching BGT - recorded most of it. I loved the 2 little boys that got through tonight but did not like the Lettice person in her knickers!! I'm no prude but I thought she looked ridiculous tonight and she's got so much to say, but she can play the violin!

Sorry I just can't remember anyone else but sending you warm wishes

Oh Snowy how could I forget you...... your still "blipping" by the sound of it.....don't forget if things get bad to put your earphones on and listen to music - it usually brings you a bit of respite. Did I read you were having trouble sleeping (might have got that wrong) as I know the meds make you tired, but maybe tired at the wrong time of day.

I need sleep - I'm rambling - good night all.