My 6 month old ds is crying upstairs. He is getting so distressed and I can't help him, even though I feel so horribly guilty and sad. I just don't have it in me to comfort him when I feel so crap myself. I feel like shaking him when he cries and cries, so i leave him in his cot and just come downstaris and thing about what a bad mother i am. Why can't I help him? I have a 2 1/2 year dd who i was so much nicer to. i would never let her cry like this.
I feel so hopeless, like my life is over. i have not a econd to myself all day and i can't go anywhere/do anything as ds wants to bf all dy and night. things with dh are a real struggle as we are both tired and angry.
ds not sleeping through - never has.
everything is just getting on top of me, and little things pile up and overwhelm me - things which would not normally upset me. today it was dd whinging, a delivery came and it was not what i ordered, ds crying, the house beig a mess...see, its nothing big, but why can't i cope?
so do i ave pnd?
And if so, what do I do?
I really need some encouragement...this is not the mum i want to be.