Can you help me write a letter please?

[IAmDoneNow]

I have sent off what needs to be to the ombudsman. I have one set of tests left and I am done. I have kept going for years for the children and for the truth. There is nothing to go on for now.

Can you please help me write some letter for my children please.

I want them to know they are loved and this was not their fault, that I can't go on living anymore.

I have been treated badly my whole life, never been loved or cared for, had little kindness shown to me, been very ill physically and dismissed both myself and for them. I nearly lost them due to domestic abuse and medical and cafcass neglect, the court is now aware and a false accusation of munch by proxy, the court didn't agree and the children were left with me. Court papers out of context were released without court permission and I was witch hunted for years by everyone except social services. We got no help and were treated like sub humans.

I dont' feel safe anymore, I can't trust anyone, I am scared everytime I open post, hear the phone, meet professionals, there is a knock on the door. I feel so alone.

I am physically unwell, there is no cure for most of it, no treatment.

I have nothing to live for.

I am dragging my children down. They will do well with the money I can leave them and the freedom that will give them, there is nothing more I can do for them.

I don't want any help, I want to be left in peace, help is never help it is abuse.

My plan is not to use some medication that keeps me alive once I have had these tests, and to just die that way. I am holding out for the tests as they may help with the children's treatment.

lots of people name change, there is nothing odd about that

giddy, the thing is, some people do name change for nefarious reasons and it does make people suspicious. I don't for one minute doubt anything you have said here but it does arouse suspicion - i am sure she can see it is a misunderstanding now, don't be distracted by it.

Could you possibly tell us what your condition is? or would that be identifying?

Giddy - you have been very evasive about the tests which you are having.

Perhaps, as LEM says, more details might help people to empathise and help. And I haven't driven you away from here as you're clearly still posting - and I hope you continue to do so.

Dumplings, your posts sound so cruel, I want nothing to do with you, I do not like the sound of you, this thread is going, go and fuck up someone else's life.

But what are the tests you're having????

None of your fucking business, go fuck with someone else.

So you'd start a post asking for help to write suicide letters to your children. You want us to explain to them why you're not there for their Prom, their graduation, their wedding etc etc but you can't explain a simple medical test you're undergoing?!?!?!

Please speak to your GP, the Samaritans, a trusted friend, your children's headteacher - you need help and Mumsnetters don't write suicide notes.

www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Suicide/Pages/Getting-help.aspx

Please get it into your head, I want NOTHING to do with YOU or anyone else who has been horrible to me.

I haven't been horrible - I'm asking that you seek help and clarify some issues.

Can you do that???