"putting the SPRING back in our step - village support for depression and anxiety"

[LEMmingaround]

Heres the new thread guys. What is this, thread 9?

This is a thread that is situated in a virtual village of support for those suffering from mental health issues, or just those struggling with what life throws at them.

Please feel free to join in.

[SnowyMouse]

I hope your appointment goes well, Bluburd

[DumDum32]

Head monster is back today :(

[SnowyMouse]

(((( DD32 ))))

[SnowyMouse]

Do you want to talk about it?

[DumDum32]

Thanks snowy Just a lot of flashbacks of childhood abuse :( :( :(

I've tried using the mindfulness technique not working nor the breathing exercises I usually do. Feel a mess today!

[SnowyMouse]

Can you try distracting activity instead?

[DumDum32]

I've put the tv on but I can't seem to concentrate on anything on :(

[SnowyMouse]

How about music, it needs less concentration?

[DumDum32]

Tried that too snowy nothing is working :( I just want to take my meds & go to bed. My head is spinning!

[SnowyMouse]

Can you get through 10 minutes at a time? Poor you, how long do you have til you can go to bed?

[DumDum32]

Still a couple of hours :( brother just got home so has taken DD off me thankfully. Just laying in bed to help it stop spinning.

Hw r u tonight snowy ? Sorry haven't even asked you :(

[LollipopViolet]

Hello all.

I've been alright recently, however my eating habits are so very bad right now - back into overeating mode. I think it was due to time of the month last week, weighed in on Wednesday and have still been bad since. However, today I did make some good choices. So as of now, I'm back on the Slimming World bus :)

I have a little friend at placement - one of the little boys has taken a shine to me, follows me a lot and wants me to play with him. He refused to be picked up by the lady running the session to look at a bin lorry - wanted me to do it. It's actually really sweet, and makes me feel good, helping me realise I've made the right choice of college course and that I am OK at this working with small children business.

Oh, and my mother is awesome - she offered to take me to see the final Dancing on Ice Tour!! I love that show, and saw the tour back in 2010, but with someone I'm no longer friends with, so will be nice to make some fab memories of it, with my mum. Booked the tickets earlier, can't wait!

[SnowyMouse]

((( DD32 ))) You sound in a bad place. I'm soso, tired too, not sure when I will get to bed.

That sounds like a lovely placement, Violet I empathise, I've overeaten for months, 3 days in a row at 1200 kcal for me so far, very hard not to order takeaway (or resist the tinned fruit salad, trying to drink water when I feel hungry).

[SnowyMouse]

Welcome needaholidaynow Everyone's welcome here.

[DumDum32]

snowy hope u have a good night sleep. I sympathise with the over eating I've been doing that today too!

voilet that sounds like a lovely placement :) the show sounds fun too with ur mum.

Welcome needaholidaynow

[ColouringInQueen]

welcome needaholiday feel free to share as much or as little as you like. Sorry to hear you're having such a tough time. Are you taking any meds/having any counselling to help?

dd hope you can rest now and recover a bit from the day

snowy that's amazing on the calorie front!

Have managed today. Paced myself and bought two old chimney pots for the garden . Pretty zonked now, but the sunshine was fab

hello to everyone else.

[SnowyMouse]

Yes, I was shocked to feel overheated when I went out in coat and beanie earlier. Glad you had a good time, CIQ

[DumDum32]

Glad u enjoyed the sunshine ciq

I've had some rest but DD is still awake which is making me really angry & agitated but at least my family are around so it's not so bad. I think I'm just exhausted today both mentally & physically. Hopefully DD will sleep soon & I can take my meds too then!

[BluBurd]

Evening everyone :)

Dumdum, sorry you haven't had so great a day today :( i have flash backs too, but in terms of the feelings I had at the time of my trauma. It's horrendous and I am sad you have to go through them too. I hope tomorrow will be better for you.

I had my appointment with the psychiatrist but wasn't best amused. Sertraline has been increased to 100mg which scares me a bit as I had horrendous side effects and genuinely wanted to kill myself. I don't want to go through that again.

The psychiatrist also seemed to think the fact that mornings are terrible and evenings are great means there might be something else other than depression and anxiety but wouldn't elaborate as it's early days and my anxiety is high enough as it is. Basically he wouldn't tell me what he was thinking which pissed me off and I told him as much.

I then spent most of the afternoon in a terrible state. However I finally got to speak to my own doctor who told me she agrees with me, that I am basically in shock after the trauma, the depression and anxiety is normal, it's pretty normal to feel bad in the morning and good at night and it's also normal to feel disconnected and find it hard to slot back into normal life after a trauma. I felt so much better after speaking to her and am now back to my normal self.

Tomorrow night I will start the new dose. I so hope it won't affect me like it did last time.

[Anniecarrieson]

Hi. Feeling totally wiped out after week 2 of phased retun to work. Just want my bed, but here in bed am wide awake.
Back to normal duties next week. This week has taken it's toll, hoping to scrape through next week to a week of leave after that.
Had 2 pieces of really, really great news this week - brilliant news but just can't get excited about it.
Pissed off.

[Queenofknickers]

Hi everyone - please may I come back to the pub? The short version is I've had depression for 20 years, had 3 nervous breakdowns. This one has been the worse - am on 2 ADs and now psychiatrist has given me lithium as well (not bipolar but it can make ADs work better). The lithium had given me the side effect of making me wee blood (puts the feeling sick into perspective) psych has also said he doesn't think I should ever go back to the profession I trained for and worked in for 20 years as it keeps making me ill. I'm panicking about how we will survive financially and then DSs teacher tells me today that DS who is 8 has been crying at school because mummy is so sad all the time. I feel like a total failure in every area of my life. Sorry, rant over.

[BluBurd]

You are not a failure QoK. You are unwell, same as me. My daughter asks me not to cry so much too, but that doesn't make me a failure. It makes me a good mum that is having a hard time of it just now, same as you.

Also, the job, finances, none of that is important. Your health is the most important thing you can give your family. Try not to worry about anything and focus on getting well.

[BluBurd]

Morning everyone. I am bad this morning. As soon as I get up I start googling, I can't help it. I'm scared to face the day and am tearful already. I miss the person I was so badly.

My exhusband asked me what I would like to do today. I have no idea. Nothing interests me.

I can't stand feeling this way, it's no life.

[DumDum32]

((( QoK & bluburd )))

I've also had a crappy start to the day. Breakfast was comfort eating & have just taken a diazepam to calm me down. bluburd I can totally relate to the crying I've been doing the same for weeks now. Just burst in to tears over nothing it's so