roll up for the village fete! move to our village if your 'fete' is to be happy!

[ThatVikRinA22]

6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

[DumDum32]

LEM not sure about Harvey though (had a Mate named that & we didnt quite get on) I was thinking maybe call it peaches!

I've took my sleeping tablet about 3 hours ago & no effect till now. I'm seeing my new consultant tomorrow morning (hoping to get him to change the meds - fingers crossed) I'm a bit apprehensive about the meeting maybe thats y I can't sleep

Ed - u needed that sleep after working so hard :) hope u''ve managed to dose off again. sweet dreams.

hugs to all & sweet dreams xxx

[ThatVikRinA22]

take it easy ed....going back is a shock to the system.

i was late off nights this morning (we had a murder....) and then had to go and do the shopping.....then the cleaning.....then the washing.
consequently ive not slept since lunch time yesterday. i should get to bed soon....but i feel past tired.

a big hello to all....

[DumDum32]

oh vicar.... a murder hope ur ok hun - big hug & for u & some ......

[DumDum32]

oh just found a bag of terry's orange segment it's not terry!s it's mine anyone fancy some.

[ThatVikRinA22]

thanks dumdum - i hate to say it but i am used to it now. this isnt the first ive been to.
god knows whats happened where i work lately, weve had murders, rapes, firearms, all in the space of a few days.

defo up for some of that terrys choc orange.....god i love that stuff! i may have to go and get myself one tomorrow.....

i stopped smoking this week. (i gave up 11 years ago....started again for 2 months but stopped again this week.....so far so good!) so i reckon i deserve a bit of choc....

i dont count the wine

[DumDum32]

oh gosh that is terrible stuff :(

well done for not picking up a cigarettes either (stay strong) & u definitely deserve the choc :) :) :)

[Mantella]

Hello. Can I join? I'm a bit shy. I'm just struggling a bit at the moment. I went off medication a while ago (several months ago, can't even remember exactly) and I've been fine for so long, happy even. Now this crash. It's been quite bad for several days now and this has come right when I need to be strong (family coming to visit tomorrow & and many other commitments). I'm so stupid. Why do I always take myself off them? Why don't I ever realise this crash will come eventually? I've been doing this for years and years. I should know not to do this by now surely. What an idiot I am. I've been trying to be upbeat and coping but it's exhausting. I don't mean to bring everybody down. Sorry. So tired and I'm getting a cold too now. I can feel it. What a whinger I am. I'm sure everyone is asleep now anyway.

[Mantella]

Will try to sleep. for all on this thread who are struggling and for those that aren't.

[Mantella]

Sorry I gatecrashed your thread last night. I'm feeling a bit better this morning. I'm going to make an appointment with my GP for next week for another prescription.

[LEMisdisappointed]

Hi there mantella. Sorry no one was around last night. You are more than welcome to share here. Havevyou ever had any counselling to help? Could this crash be blip? Glad you are feeling better x

[Mantella]

Thanks LEMisdissapointed. I have had several types of counselling over the years (CBT and more traditional). One counseller even used to fall asleep on me . I'm all talked out I think now. Meds are the way to go for me I think. I just need to remember not to take myself off them.x

[LEMisdisappointed]

I know what you mean about the counselling. Round in circles! My counsellor keeps looking at her watch. I am resigned to long term ad use.makes me so tired though. This is a great thread response isnt always immediate but usually a couple of us around. Posting everything from major meltdowns to just saying hello and general chat.

[Mantella]

Thanks for being so kind and welcoming LEM. I'm resigned to long term ad use too. The strange thing is I don't even mind. I just seem to go through several repeat prescriptions and then after a while, when I'm running low, I put off going back to the GP. I convince myself that I'm fine which is easy to do because I feel fine. Deep down I don't want to go through the explanations and discussions with the GP so that I can have more ADs. Then I leave it for so long that I'm embarrased to go back again. Sooner or later the big D comes back to get me and I'm back to square one

[Mantella]

That's awful having a counsellor who looks at their watch when you're speaking. Way to make a depressed person feel better .

[TheSilverySoothsayer]

I'm on long-term ADs too mantella just to keep me right - low dose (20mg) paraxatine. (Divorce cured most of my depression, though, but that's another story). Even when I was still married, they did work some of the time - so well that I would forget to take them. Nowadays I notice after a few days if I've forgotten to take them, just a slight dipping, nothing too bad.

I'm on a repeat prescription though, is there some reason your GP won't do this?

[TheSilverySoothsayer]

Der... I see you do have repeat scrips. Is it the reviews you put off then?

[SnowyMouse]

I'm in hospital. No computer access. Hugs to alll

[DumDum32]

snowy will be thinking of u & big hugs.

Mantella - welcome to the thread. we all hope to support each other as much as we can & great advise from sometimes even from me

so I met my new consultant today. my italian stallion is gone & replaced with a Spanish hunk well according to my voices in the head anyway. I personally didn't but how can I argue with my one head pleasant enough guy & listened to what I had to say. changed my meds as he agreed the current anti-psychotic not really working as it should plug I explained the weight gain problem. he has thankfully put me on a weight neutral anti psychotic. I'll no longest be able to blame my over eating on my meds but on a serious note I can now concentrate on eating better & hopefully loose a few lbs in the process.

anyone taking aripripazole/duloxtine? any weight gain. I only ask as this is my combo of meds from today.

[LEMisdisappointed]

Snowy i was worried that you would be in hospital, although if that is where you need to be then it is what is best for you - I hope you see this message and know that i think about you often, you are a kind and lovely person who can reach out to others despite being in such a difficult place yourself - you have made a difference to me for one! I hope you feel better soon xx

[Mantella]

SnowyMouse, I don't know you but . I sincerely hope this is the beginning of recovery for you. xxx

TheSilvery, I can't actually give you a rational reason why I take myself off them but it's something I've stupidly done repeatedly throughout my life. If I'm tempted to do it again I'm going to come back and read this.

[Mantella]

DumDum, I'm on fluoxetine so any weight gain is my own doing unfortunately. I like the sound of your consultants

[TheSilveryPussycat]

snowy hope things go OK with you, lovely.

[ThatVikRinA22]

snowy - i know you didnt want that, but i hope you feel better very soon.
x

[ThatVikRinA22]

hows everyone?

we need a new thread i think.....any suggestions? its been a bit quiet so i hope everyone is doing ok.

snowy i know you cant post at min, hope you can read - still thinking of you. x

im a little in limbo waiting for my surgery date - im worried its going to be right before christmas....im working nights xmas eve but have xmas day off so it would be nice to enjoy it.

[LEMisdisappointed]

Hi vicar - yep it certainly has been quiet, hope thats a good thing and folk are ok. In terms of names, Maybe its time we organsed the village christmas fayre? Bazzar? I can't actually think of a name though.