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6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

Evening all.

Ive been lurking.

On the whole I have been functioning well.

I start back on teaching practice on Monday. I had intended to have sorted out the house...oh well.

I have to say that it is exactly a year (give or take a few days) since I had my meltdown. I haven't even unpacked my bag from my last day. I hope there is no packed lunch in there.

I had planned on having a 'get everything sorted today' day so that I could relax completed tomorrow but that hasn't happened.

Oh well. I am off downstairs in a mo to unpack that bag, find and stock my pencil case...find some reward stickers. ..eek...

Oh...and I've put on about 2 dress sizes since being on Venlafaxine so I have a slight wardrobe problem too...

Very best of luck for monday ed you're going to be fine - one day at a time. Font forget to reward yourself you have done do bloody brilliantly!

Dumdum it sounds like you have alot on your plate which anyone woild struggle with. To havr to cope with your illness too on top of that is too much so you need to give yourself a break and a pat on the back. Mental illness is hard for everyone anf frustrating enough ourselves we just want to be normal. To have normal hopes and fears like everyone else we have to go that extra mile and thay mskes us pretty bloody amazing if you ask me.

Silvery you always give good advice snowy you are doing great

love to all xx

Oh Ed I understand the wardrobe problem. Mine is slightly different though. The stuff I earmarked to begin work with/go to something slightly dressy looks fine till I put it on. Then it looks just as shabby as everything else

OTOH it does sometimes force me to wear clothes I had relegated (sometimes unworn) and find out they aren't too bad. (I ended up loving my pink work blouse from M&S after having to wear it as nothing else available)

George at Asda is your friend for cheap work clothes. As I write you have 2 and a half hours before they close...

I have a couple of things I bought for meeting mentor last week, but I have to control what I'm eating so I can wear more.

I now have a beauty problem...I waxed my upper lip last night and it is a raging raw red patch.

Jeeze im going to look stunning. ...

Right bag unpacking and repacking time....

I may once have shaved instead of waxing moustache upper lip - and cut myself

Hope your lip improves by tomorrow. If not, feign the end of a streaming cold?

oh gosh dress sizes increases just go with the teritory of having mental health issues. I've gone up 4 dress sizes & basically will be telling my consultant if he doesn't change the meds to something that will help control my weight I'm not taking the meditation anymore! I'm sick of the weight just increasing amongst other things. the meds are currently not working anyway so need them changed anyway.

thank u all for the kind words earlier :)

Ed - u will look stunning no doubt :)

LEM - ur right we don't give ourselves enough credit we are all fabulous

Snowy -

Silvery - ur right I also love Asda George. not just for me but my little one too. just bought her some fabulous winter boots by her have peppa pig :)

hope everyone else is doing well and big hugs to all.

oh god forgot to say got a horrible cold (spent all night sneezing & blowing nose which now looks like Rudolph :( )

I've put on weight recently too.

somebody just kill me roll on the dramatics I've not stopped coughing since last night. no sleep,fever,headache & chest pain. I can deal with voices but this is just driving me potty

Sending sympathy dumdum. Am just getting over horrible stomach bug. In early part of week, didn't stop me socialising a bit (thought it was meds reaction I get from time to time). On Saturday all I could do was MN and watch Strictly.

Note the absence of housework for the past week. Have a bit of catching up to do...

ahhh silvery I feel ur pain

I'll be just MN'ing today & maybe watch strictly on bbc iplayer & sipping on loads of lemsips... instead of

I had the chesty cough last week.

Well I survived day 1.

And I did brownies on my own (my last one before christmas)

I am absolutely stupendously exhausted.

I'm going to bed.

Night.

night ED :)

I'm afraid it looks as if it's another night of no sleep for me so I'm off to pop a sleeping pill. I can't do another restless night.

hope all are having a good weekend!

just realised I said weekend* yesterday I must have been over tired. mind u I'm still tired

so I was thinking maybe I should have name for my hallucination that I see everyday at night. I might feel.less starred of it that way. I was thinking something stupid like bunny! it'll at least change the image from a dark disturbing thing to a cute bunny. what do u all think??? I know I'm probably sounding crazier then ever

just realised I said weekend* yesterday I must have been over tired. mind u I'm still tired

so I was thinking maybe I should have name for my hallucination that I see everyday at night. I might feel.less starred of it that way. I was thinking something stupid like bunny! it'll at least change the image from a dark disturbing thing to a cute bunny. what do u all think??? I know I'm probably sounding crazier then ever

oops sorry posted twice

I definitely think it's worth a try, DumDum. I get hypnogogic imagery sometimes while getting off to sleep, can be scary, I find opening my eyes (even though that is a bit scary too) makes it go away. Usually yellow and black images on the inside of my retina, sort of. It's quite a common (and normal!) phenomenon, are yours v different?

I just see a nice black figure almost alien like trying to come close to me. it feels as if it's here to take my life. a bit dramatic I know I've just been making sure I'm not alone esp at night as that's when it gets really scary. so today randomly I thought maybe I can train my brain to see it as something else like a bunny & name it. I'm probably barking up the wrong tree here.

Oo-er...yes, a friendly bunny just keeping you safe. Name of?

hi all, on phone so just a quickie. ...im at work too. ....just wanted to say well.done to ed on your first day back.....
hi to everyone else. x

Just popping by - im so tired, not sure if tht is my medication but my anxiety is quite high too. My counsellor is leaving this week, its my last session, after that im on my own

Dumdum, you are funny :) I like the idea of the rabbit though, call him harvey!

I hope you are doing ok there snowy xx

Another quickie.

2 days done now. I was off today and I'm not back in school for a couple of weeks because of half term.

Boy I am shattered though. I dropped dcs off this morning and went back to bed. I was asleep by 9am. Next thing I know its 2.45 and my emergency school run alarm was going off. I had slept solidly for nearly 6hrs after a good night's sleep . But it wasn't like my depression sleeping. It was pure over-doing-it exhaustion. Mental and physical.

Anyways. I am back in bed. Ready to sleep again.

Hugs to all.