Oh, i feel like such a shit :(
Awful situation at DDs school - we have been preparing a display/float/contraption thing for a local festival. To be fair it has been fun, but equally a bit of a nightmare - the nightmare being that the woman who took over the design went totally OTT and wouldn't be reined in, but equally has been unreliable about providing stuff etc. Anyway, the whole contraption that the display was to be carried out was a heath robinson affair to rival Heath robinson himself. This person has hurt her back and so i stepped in on her last minute putting the construction together, we are talking some pretty serious amateur engineering here! Anway, three of us, all day - finally gets it together, still worried about how the kids would move it (its huge, cumbersome and heavy) but it worked, um, until we moved it - then, twang, crash wallop, the tension is too much and part of it comes to bits - im like, ok, no worries lets get some bigger screws and screw it back down, but it just became apparent that the whole thing was going to be a nightmare and likely to collape mid parade :( I tried to look for ways to make it work but honestly, couldnt see any, still trying to be positive. The other two had decided by this time that it was just not going to work (and in fairness they are probably right) and that we should go with a contingency plan, which is very scaled down and doesn't use the impressive (but practically useless) contraption - I tried to argue the case a little bit but essentially agreed with them. Its not going to work and the festival is this weekend The teachers in charge put their foot down and made a final decision that it wasn't to be used.
Here comes the shitty bit - it is blatantly obvious to me that the woman who designed this thing has some severe mental health issues, alcoholism being one of them :( We called her up to tell her and let her say, you know what - lets go with plan b but as predicted she got shitty on the phone with my friend (i chickened out) and then another friend tried to placate her and got a load of ear bashing. Then cue my phone texted to death with how i didn't trust her etc etc, getting really quite shitty, i have ignored apart from sending texts in order to try and make her feel better, that we are still using the main design that she put together and it is still going to be bloody amazing. This woman is a brilliant artist but blatantly not so great as an engineer! I am gutted for her and said that i felt really upset for her, was worried about her as she has obvious mental health issues and i was quite upset really about how unsympathetic they were. No excuse etc etc :( These are nice people, but clearly have no idea about MH issues whatsoever. I am so worried about this person but am not going to be able to help her because, as i was the one who was in charge of things today, she has blamed me and got really quite nasty. Apparently she sounded drunk on the phone - was on some heavy duty pain killers but whenever i see her she stinks of booze.
Fuck - sorry, thats long but i only felt i could share this on this thread, a because it may "out" me and b, because i don't feel other people will understand my take on it. I know that this is going to be a major kick in the teeth for this poor woman and i feel partly responsible.
I am dreading tomorrow at the school as we have not choice really but to press on with plan B, i am up against it time wise as its my DDs birthday tomorrow with a beach party (please God let it be sunny) on Wednesday.
Oh, arse biscuits - how come i feel so bloody guilty when everyone else has gone "oh well its her own fault for designing something that was OTT, she should have been here today and not left everything til the last minute" she could barely stand she was in so much pain with her back, poor cow. They are not bad people but i feel sad and guilty