roll up for the village fete! move to our village if your 'fete' is to be happy!

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6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

I'll keep popping in to check on you snowy - i have to go and do stuff for my mum as she is struggling with her tummy today.

Do you want to ring them snowy? You can do it - better than watching the time drag by. If you want to pm me the number and vague details, i'll do it for you x

What about distraction - could you do some online games?

I'll try some solitaire, thanks for the suggestion. Thanks for the offer, but I need to keep in control of this as much as I can. Good luck with all your tasks, and thanks.

Solitaire has been a good friend to me through thick and thin, snowy. I do Klondyke Vegas ie the old Windows freebie, keeping track of my winnings/ losses - I have an old computer especially for this purpose, and play every day. It helps my Asperger transitions that's my excuse anyway I have made $1000 a few times, and even, once, $2000!

Ah, i like solitaire - i can get quite obessional with that vegas scoring system :) I never get in the black though!! I also like escape the room games, there are some quite absorbing ones online - just google escape the room games, oh and hidden objects (can you tell how i distract myself!!) I might have a game of solitaire myself! Hang on in there - and you are right about the control thing, you are doing well xx

I'm listening to Stephen Fry reading Harry Potter, it's soothing. I'm doing spider solitaire with one suit, makes it easier to win. The vegas one is addictive, I remember playing it.

2-3 hours to go.

ooh, spider solitaire i became an expert at that when i was doing my degree - it was great for distraction!!

I love stephen fry and have done ever since he said it was ok to say fuck :)

LEM so did I when I was doing my MA over 10 years ago. I could get it out every time! I don't know how I did it, but I could. A lost skill now, though.

My DGM taught me many solitaires (or Patience, as I prefer) and I used to have a nice Patience double pack with small cards. But I am shit at shuffling.

My name is TheSilverySoothsayer and I am a Patience Addict [mutual hugs!]

arrrgghhh - i forgot how hard spider solitaire actually is!!!

I'm all over the place today. head is buzzing with crappy images! So with myself for being like this I wish it would all just disappear :(

1-2 hours to go.

Sorry you're having a rough day, DD32, anything you can do to distract yourself?

Ring samaritans or CT?

I'm just about to ring the samaritans!

Good move dum-dum.

Gosh, im tired - we took my mums dog out, but not before she nearly got the bloody dog killed She has no patience and we were longer than anticipated as i was waiting on DP and DD. The dog saw me and she couldnt hold him, he nearly went under a car Why couldn't she just wait!!

Anyway, have avoided having to do bike ride with DD as i have her and DP making roman games out of cardboard - im so sly

How is the solitaire going snowy? I am trying two suits but can't get any where near winning - i am sure i used to be able to do two.

I couldn't talk to CT. I'm sticking to one suit with solitaire.

I sounded like I was boasting, but them's the facts. I am amazed at my younger self. But it helped with depression, and gave me lots of trivial-seeming decisions to make, which I found soothing - perhaps something like the soothing sound of Stephen.

Hang on in there all.

(((SnowyMouse)))

Thanks mama and silvery, much needed. They are phoning me in 1-2 hours on top of seeing me earlier.

hey all,

so I managed to get through the night without any self harm but have woken up to DD being covered with bites. turns out we have bed bugs :( absolutely freaking out. have asked my brother if we can go & stay with him for a couple of days whilst the place gets fumegated. will have to travel double the time to drop DD to nursery- thinking of keeping her off. at least DD don't seem like she's in any pain.

I could just scream out loud

thinking of u all x

DD32 well done. As to the bed-bugs - well, it gives you something else to think about, I suppose (pathetic attempt at re-framing

How do you know it's bed-bugs? (These seem to have made a reappearance recently for some reason, can't remember them being around in my childhood, although we obviously knew of them)

Hope that everyone is having a good day today.

How are you today Snowy ? Good idea about the phone games, I love solitaire too, but I really love a silly game called buttons and scissors, it's free, and very simple, and really helps when I want to switch my brain off. Also appeals if you are a bit crafty.

Gosh DD, might it be skin itchiness from meds? I get this all the time with sertraline, and had a really bad time when the chemist gave me zoltoft (?)

(((hugs))) to all

here it is!

hoochy & silvery - no they r definitely bed bugs as my dad n brothers sprayed the bed n mattress & in the process killed like a zillion of them! I'm taking DD to my brothers for a couple of night's until the place is properly fumegated.

tbh I could have done without this complication but in a way ur right silvery it's something else to concentrate on :(

Hugs all, sorry to hear about the bedbugs

evening everyone.

snowy - is there a reason you couldnt talk to CT? could you write stuff down? or are you scared of what they will do? I think its vitally important that you convey the stuff thats in your head to a professional - its hard to know what to do - it seems that the intrusion is upsetting you but the thoughts you are having really do need to be out in the open.

feeling so sorry that you are still feeling so bad.

ed - i am incredibly tired too - i am having real trouble getting out of bed but im letting myself off a bit, half my problem is the shifts so i cant just get into any kind of regular pattern.

ive got my surgeons appointment next week. I am starting with a cough and a sore throat - i need the surgery but am worried about money.

on the plus side work is going well - i have lost my fear. ive also lost the ability to give a rats arse about what anyone else thinks.

i feel much more stable. not sure i ever want to ditch the sertraline. i prefer myself on it.