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[ThatVikRinA22]

6th thread folks....

keep talking/posting.

is it to do with my post on the woodpecker identification thread?

:)

i think i worked on 12 count aida.....cant remember though. i gave all my cross stitch to dsis to wash and never got it back.

i loved it. but our little craft shop shut down ages ago....no idea where to buy now.
i used to work from pattern books.

I worked a lot with kits. Sewansew.co.uk is very good.

oh (((( vicar and all ))))

y'ok, snowy?

Not really, been struggling to not go down to the river. I'm thinking about taking some diazepam

snowy - down to the river no, no, no take diazepam (it is a sleeping pill right?). Sorry ive heatd of it but dont know what it does! Im here if u wanna talk about things. Anything just to distract u!

I think im personally going nuts myself i've spent the whole morning making phone calls that i had been avoiding all week and even checked my email & signed up to a PTTLS course for which i have an assesment this Friday at a local college! Absolutelt crazy i know as y'day i just wantes to die & spent the whole day more or less crying. Today all ive done is laugh i really think my head is messed up but ive just done things without even stopping to think about it

Hw r others doing today :)

snowy hugs, and think of all the help you've been to others facing similar, on this thread and others we've 'met' on, plus other threads I don't know about I imagine. I am taking the liberty of sending hugs and strength on their behalf as well as my own. Distraction - telly, shower, food, tea, magazine or something?

Snowy - u ok? pls come on & talk to us. Hopefully this means u have distracted urself with something. Sending u Big hugs & positive thoughts xxx

Freaking hell the happy phase didnt last long :( I feel so like im going to explode. I need something sweet maybe a bit of

DD32 do you have a diagnosis (and do you agree with it?) You do sound like you are all over the place. Are you sleeping at night? Are you eating and drinking? It can be that for some people when they hit a good day they can overdo it because they don't know how long they'll feel that way - but this can lead to burnout.

What sort of cake have you got?

I took the diazepam, it helped a little. I'm listening to an audiobook now, for distraction purposes, thanks silvery and DD32.

CPN is coming tomorrow.

Ooh what book? (sorry if I'm being distracting from your distraction)

You're not distracting from the distraction. I'm listening to the first Harry Potter (easy to listen too from Stephen Fry).

Snowy - glad to hear u doin ok :)

Silvery - in the last 30 mins i've had a blow up at my mum. Chocked on my food & DD decided to have a melt down! i just screamed & slammed the door on my room. I feel like more of a child then my DD & she is only 3! I do think the diagnosis needs revisiting as i do feel all over the place :( plus no cake in tbe house :(

What's your diagnosis currently, DD32? I have schizoaffective disorder.

No cake? In such circumstances I have been known to bake a batch of cheese scones or date rock buns all for my little self.

Something triggering this, DD? Overload of some kind?

Welcome dumdum and hugs to snowy hope the Harry Potter helped. Hi everyone esp vicar, ed, silvery, lem, hoochy - I'm back from hols...

Just been trying to catch up on the thread... something lem wrote really struck home re: seeking validation and feeling you have no role in life - this is exactly how I feel a lot of the time. I'm also seeking praise a lot of the time. It's hard to break free from tho.

Well holiday was good. Lots of sun, lovely food and beaches. Enjoyed beefing up my French. But I am now exhausted and about 4 days in to the holiday brain was overwhelmed and had a tough couple of days re: anxiety (which was up most of the time really) - so much so that my gastritis is back despite being on a prescription antacid. Tough one. Glad we went, and everyone enjoyed the break and it was lovely watching the kids play on the beach, but its a bit of a double-edge sword iykwim.

Very pleased to discover one of my favourite food types!

Snowy - official diagnosis is depression woth psychosis, PTSD & GAD. The thing that annoys me is every time we talk about hallucination/voices or anything psychotic my Psychiatrist will say they are not real hallucinations. They feel God damn real to me! I said that to him at my last visit i got so mad at the time.

Silvery - not a cook/baker at all so ive treated myseld to rowntree & a can of 7up :) i do feel better after that & ofcourse had a little cry to let out my emotions out. Not sure anything has trigerred it I have just besn feeling Off of that makea sense.

Thanks for the welcome Colour. Glad you had a nice break. I think thats what I need :)

Waves to all.

Huge hugs to all.

Been busy here (my bedroom floor has been cleared todat :) )

Also back to school tomorrow so been a bit hectic.

I have had such a good holidays. I have bearly had an afternoon nap.i have been energetic on the whole. I haven't had a crash day. I have got a bit run down after a run of busy day but I haven't actually crashed after half a day shopping like I used to. I need to keep the momentum going.

I just want to say to those relative newcomers on the thread back in October I literally got out of bed to take my kids to school and then collect them. I slept all day. When they were xps I would stay in bed from Friday afternoon too Monday afternoon. I would get up to go to the loo and grab a packet of biscuits once a day. I couldn't manage a coherent sentence let alone conversation. I literally didn't know the names of close friends. If my friends didnt ask me to take them to the shops I wouldn't leave the house.. My older DTDs were cooking and cleaning. My children just about had clean clothes.

But I am an immensley different person now. I am not there yet ignores the pile of mail dating back to May. But I would never have understood the real challenges of those suffering from depression and anxiety before I was ill. Yes medically ill myself.

I just want those that are currently where I was last October to see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

And I want to pass thw HUGEST thanks to all of those that have walked this journery with me.:)

Hello guys - too tired to post much, just read through - snowy, you re so much of a comfort to me on this thread, always looking out for everyone and just a few words make such a difference.

CiQ glad you had a good holiday, i think we are almost twins :)

Vicar - you need to toughen up on that lad of yours, you know this - but for now, enjoy the spa xxx

Hugs for everyone xx

Sorry, but you've got to laugh at a psychiatrist distinguishing between real and non-real hallucinations

Maybe you are having hallucinations of hallucinations?

Or perhaps you having insight into the fact that they are hallucinations is how he/she is differentiating them? To be fair, I have had hallucinations with and without insight into what they were...

Hi everyone, sorry I've not posted in a while, this thread vanished from my 'active' list! Will put it in watched now.

So I've managed to mess up my Marhs level 2 and restart it again with very positive results, I've had two big dramas (car related) which I have dealt with calmly which is a big improvement.

Really positive that the sertraline is having a positive affect..

Lots going on and then starting uni ( I hope) on the 23rd sept.

You'll get there filee - i was so impressed with how you handled that thread about the maths thing and then stuck your head down and sorted the false start, you should be really proud x