Not Driving Away!

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P1 splashing in the paddling pool and P2 having a nap. So pleased to be back and they are so pleased to be with each other again.

Can't believe we got to 1000 posts! You need to change your nn now too don't you wylye ?!

I am so pleased you have realised how good the recording was for you!

My DS is nearly 33 - I've been reading that poem for many a year & it took me many readings to really take in the sense of it.

The sunshine here has been wonderful & this spring seems, to me, to be one of the best ever - might just have something to do with what a shite winter it's been

Had a phone call with cbt man today and he seemed genuinely speechless at how different I was feeling due to the recording! So much so that I haven't got any phone calls booked until our next face to dace session at the end if may. I can phone if I need but I actually feel positive at 'going it alone'.

Must dash as supposed to be packing....not packing, house in chaos and been out all day so far....

In laws tomo too-sure that will be a delight....

Happy Friday

So pleased with this positive feeling. Will there be more opportunities to record stuff?

Packing eh? Hope you've got most of it done now.

I'm writing a list f stuff to take camping while DH assembles the roof bars. I have got tent, poles, pegs and sleeping bags so far. Could be a late night.....

Hope the Pumbles enjoy their visitors tomorrow.

A beautiful sunny morning here-hope it is with you.

Mr P and. I went out for a quick drink last night and realised it was the first time we had gone out just us since P1 was born.... It was lovely and think we should do it more. (Although I was amazed how prices had increased-how sad am I?!!!)

In laws were ok although they told us P2 was definitely still a work in progress with lots of work still to do..... I was not impressed!

Happy Sunday

Just nod politely at in laws & let it wash over you! (easier said than done, I know).

Very important tha you & Mr P get out together more often. Believe it or not, one day the Pumblettes wil leave home (on their world band tour ) & it will be just you two together. It is vital to spend time being asults & not just Mummy & Daddy!

Waving hello

Exhausting week emptying the family holiday home with my parents. The pumblettes had been great but equally exhausted and a little unsettled.

Happy Easter.

Kick up the bottom required please! Off back home tomo night and feeling fearful of it just being the pumblettes and me again whilst mr P at work and the loneliness that brings. I know it's pathetic hence the need for that kick!!

It is not pathetic. The P's will need to adapt to being back at home and being in the normal routine. Mine take a couple of days to get back to the right bedtimes and stuff. So, I plan, if I think a tough day is ahead, I try and get a play date, or get a day out sorted with or without friends. it doesn't have to cost money. For me, days out take away some of the trigger points for moans or whinges.

Can you get a play date set up, or get some craft activities planned, especially for the first day back so that you feel good at the end of the day?

Try not to be fearful and take each moment as it comes.

Keep posting.

Good advice from row. A bit of adult company always helps.

And I second the 'keep posting'.

We spent the day with friends today which was good but p1 not well . I thought she wasn't right earlier and by tea time she was still not eating and fell asleep on mr p at tea whilst I was out teaching (new pupil though which is good ). Raging temperature and not at all right-I'm hoping life will be better in the morning. Haven't any plans tomo because of p1 but fingers crossed all will be well.

Have you been camping yet row?

Ah, get well soon P1. Hope your night isn't too tiring. Glad you spent the day with friends. A lazy day of tv/ books/ craft/dolls tea party/just being might be in order tomorrow then.

Camping was a success, in that we are all happy to go again! We managed to put the tent up and down again without falling out, which we were both impressed with (we often have different views on methods remember), and the girls loved it. Sleeping was fine, campsite friendly, and we felt like we had a break. It was very cold at night, but we soon learnt to wrap up.

Hope P1 is better tomorrow. Hopefully raging temp wil have burnt things out.

HOORAY for new pupil - sounds like you are getting a bit of outside life back!

So pleased your camping went well - it's a long time since I slept under canvas (thank the lord!).

How was the rest of your week Pumble?

Hi. We had a good week in the end. A friend came to stay which was nice and broke up the week nicely!

Having that Sunday evening feeling now but know deep down we will be ok. Wish I could work out how we could make some new friends though...

Realised it's only four weeks until my sponsored run for meningitis. It's only 10km so know it will be fine but will be emotional thinking back to how life was immediately post meningitis.

Mr P and Ihave decided we need a night away and so are going to leave the pumblettes with my mum and dad who they love love love! And the best bit-I actually want to. Not in a running away thing but just because I want to if that makes sense?!

Hope you have had good weekends

Ps apologies if there is a negative post from me tomorrow morning looking at the week ahead....!

Hope this week is also good.

Good news But a good last week, and a night away to look forward to. Marvellous!

The run is not a bad distance at all. It must have been really traumatic going through meningitis. I remember one of the Ps beng poorly a while back.

Wondering how to make friends? Here are some ways I have found my friends in the last few years
Hobby - craft nights
Mother and baby group that was very friendly, though I did have to g a few times, as I am shy until I know people. I also find it easier if I see people in more than one group, so music classes and toddler groups. Gives me something to talk about.
Running buddy, though I can't talk for the first 20 minutes!!
Pre school / school run - wang at the gates.

Dot forget your old friends though!

Good luck with the run.

Just in case it all goes awry a at bedtime I just want to say the pumblettes and I have had a really lovely day just the three of us .

I think it's good to have it written down so I don't forget it!!!

Hope you are good too

Hooray for lovely days!

And there is no reason why it should go awry at bedtime - think positive.

I am well, still swimming & frantically out in the garden whenever I can. It's not big but I love pottering round. I worked in nurseries (plant type) for 6/7 years & am never happier than when mucking around with plants.

Weather lovely, but a real gale blowing - talk about" rough winds shaking the darling buds of may" - it looks as if there have been 20+ weddings, all with confetti over my front garden, from all the hawthorn blossom that's flying around.

When are you & Mr P off for your romantic w/e??

Hellooo

How are you? Feeling so much more like my old self which is great and finding I am waking up looking forward not full of dread most days (although the mornings when I've had minimal sleep due to insomnia the old feeling is there but I'm beginning to realise that's due to insomnia not other things).

Penultimate session with cbt man today... Oddly burst into tears about friends I've lost through pnd which I wasn't expecting. He suggested I explain to people why I went AWOL... Not sure I'm strong enough for that....

We have been loving the good weather-so great to see the girls enjoying the sun and I've loved enjoying them

Hello! Lovely to hear you are looking forward.

To me, friendship is about the long haul. Some of my friendships go through fits and starts, where I don't see as much of them as I used to. I know they still think of me, and that they know I still think of them. We come together and drift away in cycles.

Don't mourn the loss of friendships if you want to keep some of them. You're AWOL period is small in the scheme of things. You can explain as much as you are comfortable with. Just say things have been tough, but you hope you can pick the friendship up again. Take action to rekindle them.

I always think we are so busy our own lives, it is hard to notice when someone has stuff going on, and then you leave it a while, and then think it has been too long. In reality, it isn't too long, and the other person is pleased to hear from you. See how the conversations go as to how much you you want to say.

If you were a real life friend of mine, I'd be relieved to hear from you, would be happy to carry on, and would welcome you back. Reach out, and believe in yourself.

Very wise words row

I have one friend who I am most confident about them being ok so I guess I start there....

Row speaks good sense.

Start with the one friend & see how it goes.

I am SO happy to hear that you feel like your old self again - that's wonderful.

Am not surprised you feel low after insomnia - lack of sleep always brings my anxiety problems back - but, as you say, you know that's the reason so you can cope with it better.

Are you still running? I've stuck yo my NY's resolution of swimming twice a week & in fact am now doing 1K 3 times a week. I don't weigh myself (no scales) but I have dropped a size in clothes!!!!!!!!!!! I am very chuffed (to put it mildly).

And your singing? Still getting out? Not feeling guilty? I've replied to your new thread in chat !

Good. Start there.

Have you enjoyed the day is sunshine again today? I'm hoping the world hasn't been too shocked by my day glow white legs!

My legs are also day glo white & would have been scarey hairy if I hadn't got the razor out!

Magi, fantastic that you are still swimming, and its made such an impact on you.

I managed to have some quiet time in the park by leaving early to pick up my youngest. It was so nice to sit on a bench and watch the world go by for a few minutes.

I just need to scream!! I'm fine but mr p is just winding me up-not his fault I'm just on edge I think!!

That's great about the swimming magi-v jealous! Yes, still running a lot-race in London on Sunday (obviously I will beat mo farah who us also running!!!) and doing ripped or shred every morning. The pumblettes are getting v good at it and use skittles for weights!!!!

It must have been lovely to watch the world go last in the sunshine row. We picnicked in the sun which was lovely.

Day glo white legs here too but not so hairy as I have this fear that if I fall/injure myself whilst running in shorts I don't want anyone to see my hairy legs!!!