Not Driving Away!

[Pumble]

P1 splashing in the paddling pool and P2 having a nap. So pleased to be back and they are so pleased to be with each other again.

Can't believe we got to 1000 posts! You need to change your nn now too don't you wylye ?!

DH's have a great habit of being the No 1 winder-uppers. Mine can still do that after nearly 30 years - but I do try (& don't always succeed) to let it wash over me. They are a different species, for sure!

Running a race that Mo farah is in!!!!!! Respect!! You must be speedy, as well as non hairy

It is amazing how they know just what to do to wind you up isn't it?!

Certainly not speedy....they let any tom, dick or Harry do it!!

P1 is so excited about coming to watch on a train and shouting 'run faster mummy run faster'!

Mind you - I can wind mine up quicker than he can me - but I am so wise & 'groan' up (DS's phrase) that I don't - often.

Run like the wind, Pumble - I'll be cyber shouting for you!

Run, Pumble, run!

There must be something in the air. It winds you up and grinds you down. Today and through the long weekend I am going to try to do what Magi does and let it go. And not growl. I'm very good at growling. Grrrrrrrrr.

I had forgotten it was a long weekend.....more scope for winding up then!!!

I just arranged to take the pumblettes to someone's house who we met at a group-v proud of myself! It may not be for a while but at least the date is in the diary!

Rejoining this thread if that's ok, I'd lost it.

Feel like my MH is having a real 'flare up' at the moment for no reason. The kids aren't sleeping well but it's more than that. I just feel overloaded when the boys are about at the moment & just want to be by myself. I haven't even got dressed today yet. I'm supposed to go to band practice tonight, which I normally love, but I just can't summon up any enthusiasm.

All welcome here mygastisflabbered (but can we have a clue on name change?!)

Did you make it to band or have any time to yourself? I definitely find the fact the lows can just appear frustrating-how long has it been a low?

In other news-run completed on Sunday and desperate for another to beat my time (competitive, moi?!)! Dud have a day off yesterday but back on it today.

How was the bank holiday weekend? Did we all manage to not get too wound up by other halves ?

Sorry, forgot about name change! Was MrsHelsBels.

I made it to band & it was great. Think I'm just really tired, boys are waking up really early at the moment.

I thought it was you but thought I had better not make the assumption!

Crikey-based on the time of your post they are waking early. Hope you're managing early nights yourself.

Glad you made it to band. As I am beginning to realise (after too long!) it's rather good to get out and can make all the difference to mood.

Raining here again-deep joy!

Having a shitty day. Supposed to be going out tonight with friends but can't think of much worse at the moment. I just want to curl in a ball and cry instead. Can I cancel and do that instead?

I went. I almost cried but managed not to. Found out their opinions of the pumblettes which was an eye opener....

On the plus side both pumblettes had a nap earlier-unheard of!!

This insomnia is killing me. Always makes me so low first thing in the morning

I know how you feel Pumble, I'm exhausted too, I don't trust my feelings any more.

Hey Pumble. How are you? I'm glad you went out with your friends, but I hope it was a success, it sounds interesting. How's the insomnia now? Make sure you rest and have good breakfasts. I've visited my daughters pre school this morning, part of their rhyme is 'each day is different, every day is new'.

I'm looking forward to the next new day, hopefully one without rain.

Hi all. Feeling a bit funny-pumblette2 didn't have her bedtime breast feed this evening-she just snuggled up on the cushion fir cuddles and stories. I'm not sure if she will want it again on Sunday (away singing tomorrow evening) or if it's the end. I feel a bit lost which I know is silly. I just hadn't considered last night would be the last time....

Trying to look at each day as a new day... It's sort of working but insomnia still hard work!

Oh, I remember that feeling so well. I was so sad when I stopped with DD1. With DD2, it was a little bit different, as I was making it into this big thing, which was making me sad about it. I think it ended up being the last feed without it seeming so at the time. I Look back at that time with fond memories (though the fist few weeks with DD1 were not easy at all, I must have been determined to carry on!)

See how Sunday goes, your milk isn't going to disappear so you can feed if she wants it, and you want to keep going, and maybe she just didn't fancy it tonight, it has been a warm night.

I think that the fact it was so hard to start with (horrific mastitis etc) it became such a special thing with p2 that I persevered it's almost harder if that makes sense.

Glad it's not just me who finds it hard though row

I think I understand! I took it feed by feed by DD1 for the first six weeks, every feed was painful, I am scarred for life, but maybe because I also persevered, I enjoyed feeding so much after that, and I was really sad to let it go. It seems a lifetime ago now, and I'm glad I did it.

I did also enjoy the flexibility in the evenings when I finally dropped that feed, I didn't feel bad about missing out on either an event I wanted to go to (like a comedy night I skipped) or feel bad because the feed was missed that night. I sense of freedom in terms not having to be available at certain time slots.

Hope you are sleeping now.

I bumped into a neighbour today (who I only know to say hello to) and she has recently had her second child with a similar age gap to mine. She asked how I was always so together etc and made it look so easy....! How do I give people this perception?!! I did tell her it got easier and to yell if she wants anything etc. but I am amazed she thinks this when we all know this isn't the case!!

I'm just going to curl into a ball and stay there if that's ok. Today has been crap and I just want to hide. Sitting here with tears streaming down my face.

Oh Pumble, big hugs for you. Wish I could say something useful but I've got nothing right now x

Oh dear Pumble. Your last post was lovely with your neighbours compliments. You must be doing a lot of things right.
How are you feeling today? Have you had a better day?

Sorry to hear yesterday was crap. Hope today is better . If you look back to your very original post (other thread) you'll see how far you have come, lovely Pumble.

Thank you. I know it was just a blip but it came so out of the blue I wasn't expecting it. The really good thing is that I did manage to find some positives in the day when I looked back on it which is something I would never have managed before so that is good.

We are back to pootling along now but it's a funny few weeks coming up so fingers crossed we all get through unscathed...!

Hope you are all ok. Are you getting anymore sleep mygastisflabbered?

Glad to read your last post.

I've had a rubbish day, so I'm going to watch the Notebook. As I'm already over the edge today, I may as well watch something to get it out of my system!