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[ThatVikRinA22]

My Friends... theres no need to feel down
i said My Friends..Pick yourself off the ground
i said My Friends, cause youre in a new town
theres no need to be unhappy....

Our new thread folks (number 5!!).....i need to dash as im on nights but i will be back!
love to all. xxx

I'm low, nearly through another day. I find I should not watch a screen straight before bed either, tempting as it is to have a tv in the bedroom.

Thinking of everyone.

Well done snowy, you are doing well - maybe consider going for a walk tomorrow?

cross posts with bobblypops, i am the queen of the pre-school run blitz, i tend to do houseworky type stuff in bursts just before we go out - im pretty efficient once i get going but today just couldn't co-ordinate my brain :/ I hope you enjoyed the nap. I am hoping for an early night with my book, although i accidentally bought a scary book on my kindle, its gripping and easy to read, but i think i dreamt about it last night. I don't need to add fuel to my citalopram induced dreams i can tell you!

Hi snowy me too - tv not too bad from a distance, but laptop on lap gives me insomnia - its to do with the brightness apparently.

boobly I think if you slept for 2 and a half hours you must have needed it. Ovaltine and book sounds great.

I am knackered now. Went to bed at normal time last night - 10.30ish (pat on back, first time in a while) and feel like I could sleep now! I hope its just getting back into better sleeping pattern...

Hi lem, hoochy, ed, spc, vicar, nana, glabella, notso, ua, helles, basset

Wow CIQ that was clever of you to remember everyone - you must have a good memory! I used to have a really good memory but now am crap though put that down to my great age! I do remember your post about worrying about your DH or DP (sorry don't remember) but what struck me was that you are not really communicating. I understand your reluctance because of the "irritation factor" (same here sometimes) but I usually find it's best to say what you are feeling/thinking, rather than bottle it up, as that causes stress. It may end in a row, but I think you might feel better. IF you can, is it possible to talk about how things are going workwise for your DH, you know, without being critical.

Welcome boobly and hello Hoochy are you finding your own mental health is worsening things for you in this placement. Sorry that sounds like a silly question but I just can't remember where you were in terms of your own mental health. You should be finished soon shouldn't you?

Snowy am worried you are so low. This has been going on for quite a few days hasn't it. Is your CPN back next week?

UA I'm glad you were able to tell your DH about trauma in childhood. There is a therapy that people speak highly of for PTSD related to childhood abuse - called EMDR (you could google) apparently you don't have to go through all the details as you do in more conventional therapies, and by all accounts it is very effective. Sorry if this is not something that you want to think about, but just thought I would give it a mention. I have been surprised at how many people on this thread have experienced traumas, though I don't know why I should be.

Hello to everyone else - how is the court case going Vicar though you might be too busy to post.

nana no memory is lousy, spent a lot of time scrolling so as to try not to miss anyone out!

Yes you are prob right re: communicating. Its so hard to start the conversation!

My CPN is away next week . I'll be ok, I'll take temazepam if my sleep is disrupted.

Night all. Have to go to bed, soooo tired. Did manage to tell DH that after months of no progress on house projects, starting one next week in run up to DD first communion on sat was noy good timing (like obviously? )

Wishing you all a good nights sleep.

evening
lem thanks - ive just been so busy.

was in court all day today - good result for me - i MUST start to trust my own judgement. I MUST stop listening to other people and trust myself because i am usually right in what my gut instinct says - today proved it.
my case was won.
by me. Because i didnt listen to those saying ditch it - i knew what the job was and i knew it should go to court.
and i was right.

im tired but ok. came home late, have had the ratty boy and girls out for a run and cuddle. I finished my book last night so started another today, and court is now a much less scary experience for me. In fact one of the barristers popped his head through the door to ask what i was reading and then we had a lovely discussion about books....i was fine. I had a lovely enlightening talk to some very experienced CID cops and im pretty sure thats where i want to be in future....

if i survive long enough in response that is before i blow up at my inept supervision....thats another story and one i wont bore you with.

anyway. im yet again losing the thread because it moves on at such pace - which is great but i must apologise for my apparent lack of awareness of what others are doing at the min....sorry for not catching up properly.

x

?Your mind knows only some things. Your inner voice, your instinct, knows everything. If you listen to what you know instinctively, it will always lead you down the right path.?

Am so delighted that today went well Vicar . You are so inspirational to us all .

The Jewel sisters and the Blues Brothers rats sound so lovely .

Love to all

my router is playing up so have to type quick before it goes poof yet again . .

Phew, I'm glad it went well vicar

Yay go vicar!!

Yay! We have our feisty confident knows what she wants and knows how to get it vicar back

Hugd to everyone else

Blood tests all came back clear so my bruises remain a complete mystery

I slept all morning. Went to tesco which exhausted me.

Sorry I haven't kept up with thread.

Hugs to all. Night all.

Brilliant vicar Yes to trusting your instinct and great you had a positive chat with CID.
Hi Basset hope your router sorts itself out.
Ed mystery bruises! Maybe a very intense moment in a dream when you grabbed your arms?! Hope they calm down soon.

Extra thick treacle day here + big headache and a bit of dizziness. Excellent . Am due to meet fellow painter to supervise exhibition for 2 hours this morning. Hoping I can do that - should just be sitting down for 2 hours with biscuits and coffee, but think I will be going back to bed after. Seriously frustrating.

love to all x

Vicar now you have something to drive you forward so glad yesterday was positive and even sounded like you enjoyed it well done!!!

Im in bits today my little Brown rescue dog has pulled up lame its probably nothing but I lost my previous dog to bone cancer have been sobbing in phone to dp dog has wet fur ftom my tears stupid. No vets yet see how it goes there is a mark on his pad im 90% sure its that but it just took me right back to my poor boy dp offered to come home but no need x

Oh bless LEM what a lovely dp you have. [hugs] I know that worry from when DCat been ill.

(((hugs))) and a pat on the back to your DP. Like you say most likely thing is him having caught something sharp/thorn. Lots of cuddles needed... x

Home early. Wiped and splitting headache. About to go back to bed...

((((hugs))) for Lem specifically, but anyone else who needs them x

How is everyone ? I feel like i have fallen out of the tired tree and hit every branch on the way down - just bloody shattered! Busy day today and i didn't like it - i didn't like not having any time to myself - not sure how that bodes re me getting job.

I think its the weather CiQ its really close and stormy here. Although its been cloudy all day, the sun has just come out! Dog is on my lap, leg seems to be better but im watching him like a hawk and am worried his knee seems loose, am hoping he hasn't damaged his cruciate. He has just noticed his reflection in the log burner and is say on my lap, hackles up, shaking like a leaf, growling at himself - stupid animal!

Ed - hope you are feeling less bruised today!

Nana - are you ok? you were having a bit of a hard time last time you were on, hope you are feeling better.

Hugs to all - god im so knackered, I have to perform the miracle of the arborio rice and left over chicken soon!

Oooh, Lem poor doggy, hope it's better soon, I bet paws are so sensitive.

((( Snowy ))) I just want to get a big fluffy blanket and wrap you up.

Tiredness is so awful, I'm supposed to meet up with friends tonight but I feel so knackered.

So proud of Vicar

((( Nana ))) Yes, it is having an effect on my mental health. But, it's more fulfilling than anything I've ever done. I think you know what I mean. I went with two C&F SW's yesterday for a review meeting where foster parents were adopting these two damaged, lovely little boys. So moving.

Love to CiQ , knitted, silvery, spc, glabella, notso, ua, helles, basset -sorry if I've missed anyone

Ed hope the bruises are better X

A virtual blanket is always good :) Much needed, thanks, today hasn't been good.

Thursday tired club anyone? Or something more expressive using knackered!

lem cute image of yr dog and his reflection
hoochy must be great to have a role thats so satisfying

Slept 1.30 -3.30 only woke cos I set an alarm managed to do 2 thank you letters with ds and teach dd correct layout format etc for writing a letter and env. Now back to staggering round house holding onto stuff...

((((Hugs in blanket))) snowy

We used to have Thursday hysteria club at work - come thursday afternoon tea break we would often just be giggling like school girls (even the men!) over no reason whatsoever - it got to the point where we would turn up in the tea room and start to laugh - i so miss that side of working. Definately something about thursdays!

Dog is fine - chasing around after a ball and beating up his big brother.

Virtual blankets for all (I need to work out how to wash my actual sofa blanket that now smells like a dog blanket, its non wash, i dont mind risking it, but it think all the pile will come out and kill the washing machine)

Wash it inside a duvet cover. That should stop the fluff killig your machine.

And if the fluff does kill your machine I know how to unkill it...

evening all
survived my course...just! another day tomorrow...stressing over all the bits I need to complete after the course...

Feeling quite fed of always being the one to juggle a million things at once when it comes to family/work....sigh...
irritation levels very high, and ridiculous anxiety type restlessness setting in for the evening...arrrrggghhh, need to find some strategies to get through till bedtime....

will come back later for proper catch up....
hugs and fluffy blankets to all those in need today.