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[ThatVikRinA22]

My Friends... theres no need to feel down
i said My Friends..Pick yourself off the ground
i said My Friends, cause youre in a new town
theres no need to be unhappy....


Our new thread folks (number 5!!).....i need to dash as im on nights but i will be back!
love to all. xxx

[ThatVikRinA22]

im ok today nana but thank you.

normally, in those circs we let someone sober up and then get the crisis team out.

re court - unfortunately i cant leave as its my case. ill be ok, and yep, i am getting 2 more rats next week to keep rescue boy company! lol!

[LEMisdisappointed]

Nana - I had a little wry smile there about the throat cancer - when my health anxiety was first picked up, it was because i had gone to the doctors in absolutely hysterics because i thought my tonsils were tumours. Can I just comment on what you have said about the bleeding thing? Its just that, the spot on your skin was bleeding, you knocked off the scab and it bled? In your comment you mentioned bleeding IN the skin, so like a blood blister or bruising under the skin? Doesn't sound like what you re describing. To be honest, and i worry about skin cancer ALL the time - this wouldn't concern me unless it kept happening at the same spot. I don't think your elbows are connected at all - for one thing, you wouldn't develop cancers in more than one area like that. I get really dry skin on my elbows and it looks a bit like psoraisis, which a friend of mine gets (his is worse than mine and it often bleeds) could this be what is happening with your elbows? If you are still worried - and if you are anything like me you'll let this grow out of proportion until you are seen, could you go to see the nurse practitioner? They are often more thorough than the docs anyway - put your mind at rest? I hope that doesn't sound dismissive because I know how HA can be - just bloody horrible.

[NanaNina]

Thanks Lem I appreciate your concern, and what you are saying is what DP is saying. I have calmed down a bit now - afraid I have been consulting Dr Google again (I wish he wasn't available) because the old medical books just used to give you a para about any illness, but bloody Google takes us "all the way" - I'm sure GPs must be fed up of "googling" patients! No I wondered about skin cancer showing in 3 different places. The elbow thing is very strange, but the one was bleeding when I woke and I definitely hadn't scraped it. I am going to see what happens over the next day or so. I just brushed my leg this morning and the scab fell off. Thing is I every time I google bleeding or scabs, all the cancer sites come up. Of course you don't sound dismissive Lem - and you're right HA is a bloody pain -ha! When I was in my early 30s I convinced myself I had MS and insisted on seeing a neurologist and even when he told me that I didn't have it, I didn't believe him!

How is everyone else?

[LEMisdisappointed]

oh dear, ive had "MS" as well I suspect many folk withhealth anxiety have had it too as anxiety symptoms would bring up MS if you googled. I simply NEVER google these days, i just wont allow myself, but its hard.

[Notsoblonde]

hi all, I was too anxious the other day to think about the village my leg still sore but its moved and def think its coming from my back.

I have health anxiety and all I see in my job tends to make me worse when I am down, I was speaking to my dm the other day and said maybe if I did something else it would go, but in reality I think it would manifest in some other day. nana its so hard not to google I have spent nearly the whole weekend googling dvt, sciatica and torn muscle its completely ruined my weekend. I have a few big moles on my back and get them checked now and again. I hope you manage to relax a bit until your appointment.

dh has just come home after working away for a month, the relief when he came in was amazing, I miss him so much when he is away, he is worried about me and doesnt know why all this has come from again. I was crying and said to him I completely understand if he wants to leave me it was so hard for him the last time. he just laughed and said we will get through it.

am just on my phone and it apparently doesn't capitalize and I cant scroll back, I just wanted to say to nana, lem and bassett how awful health anxiety is. charging my tablet and will return once dc are in bed.

love to all

[bassetfeet]

The trouble with health anxiety is no amount of reassurance helps .
The thought just festers and festers . Even when the doctor tells us we are fine our minds find something else to torment us .

Guess health is one thing we dont have control over apart from the obvious prevention stuff. Wish I knew the answer.

Helloooooo Nana lovely to see your name pop up xx

[HellesBelles396]

I went to the doctors once because I had become so fat that my periods had stopped. I had increased from a size fourteen to a size sixteen. He suggested a pregnancy test, and the test came back positive. I was permanently cured of health anxiety.

[EdwiniasRevenge]

Whilst we are talking about health anxiety etc.

I don't thonk I have health anxiety, but I do seem to be constantly ill or injured at the moment. ..injured neck...damaged coccyx. ..parvovirus and now these bloody bruises.

I have pictures on my profile. Everyone I have shown them totoday has told me to go straight to the ddrs . My dr is going to be so glad to see me again.

I feel very very shaky. Very very nauseous. Very exhausted.

I'm just falling to pieces. Waiting for dtd1 to get in from guides and then I'm going to bed because I can't keep my eyes open. And I slept until 1pm today...

[ColouringInQueen]

(((hugs))) Ed

helles

LEM I'm with you on the MS tingling and pins and needles in hands and feet being a key symptom of mine [hmmm] It is so hard isn't it. I work hard to keep telling myself that if it was something serious I'd soon know. Last weird one was going to GP with strange moley thing on my leg and this guy (who is v smart but not the best bedside manner) said well its always worth coming in with these - its either nothing at all, or its very serious!!! In my case it was a wart

hello basset, nana, notso

Just in from End of Year show at college - 4 of my paintings up and they look good . Am knackered. Met up with a friend today and shared some of what has been going on. She was nice, but it upset me. Her and her DH are setting up a small charitable foundation and have asked me to be a trustee! Counsellor tomorrow.

love to all x

[NanaNina]

Made me smile Lem that you've had MS too! Am envious of your ability to keep away from google. I think I'm doing it to re-assure myself, but then it scares me.

Notso hello - don't think we've met! Think you came on while I was having a break from the thread. What is dvt? Sorry I just can't think what it could be. Do you mind saying what your job is - some kind of HCP maybe? I too wish I could keep away from Google, it's just too easy isn't it to tap something in and then out comes a load of info. So glad you are feeling better now your DH is home. It helps so much to offload doesn't it. My DP was out walking all day yesterday and I was so relieved when he came in and I could blurt it all out. Do you have mental health problems too?

Ed I did mention once before that you seemed to have a lot of illnesses and accidents. Those bruises on your arm look pretty awful. Any idea how you got them - do you bruise easily? Do you think the nausea and shaking is related to mental or physical illness, or can't you tell. I think you should see your GP and book a double appointment, and don't forget GPs choose to do that work and they are extremely well paid. SO I reckon you should make an appt. tomorrow. Think you have been complaining about being exhausted for a while too. Make a list and hand it over to GP and see where you go from there.

Glabella remembered that you were going to Spain - hope you have a lovely time. Incidentally do you think you could have PTSD (as you say you are thinking a lot about your ex and they are not good thoughts, to say the least)

Hello Basset always nice to see you too - and I think I'd like to live next door to you in the "village" (see I'm trying to embrace this virtual village!) What was your job Bassett as you once said "so many of us are/were working with people" or something like that.

Snowy where are you? Please pop by just to say hello and let us know how you are.

[EdwiniasRevenge]

I am in bed now.

I am freezing.

I was assuming that shaking is mental. Ive had it pretty much all along.

I was tested for thyroid etc. Feb time.

I do bruise fairly easily (and I think it is also a potential side effect of fluoxetine). But I can usually work out where they come from. But how the hell did I get over 20 bruises overnight and have no recollection of it???

The only thing I can think of is that I repeatedly bashed my arm on my bedside cabinet as I had a very restless night...but 20+ times??? Surely I would have some awareness of it.

I've been looking at dr google...and spontaneous bruising can be the result of aplastic anemia. Aplastic anemia can be the result of parvovirus. Parvovirus is a likely cause of my flu like Ilness over half term...

. I was assuming that the nausea and exhaustion were mental health related due to the increased shaking...but guess what. Common symptoms of aplastic anemia incluse nausea and tiredness...

I dunno. I'm a scientist. I over analyse. Im sure it does me no good...

[LEMisdisappointed]

Those bruises look like finger marks ed could you have been dreaming gripping your arms? I agree with nana drs for you make 8 o vlock lottery booking in the morning get some bloods run anaemia can make you depressed

[bobblypop]

Hello all, can I join you?
you all sound so supportive and i love the sound of your village! I have suffered with depression and anxiety for years. Im currently on citalopram and not doing too bad at the moment - but it's always up and down...you know how it goes. I'm trying to do a lot of positive self talking at the moment and keep my motivation going...
Sorry for those having a rough patch just now, hope things soon piock up for you.x

[EdwiniasRevenge]

Dreaming??? I'm not sure I was asleep long enough to dream....

I shall reassess in morning.

I will ring at 8am (no lottery here...nice automated queue so once you don't have to keep redialing).

I'm not sure whether to go for my usual gp who sees me for depression and anxiety and saw me with parvo (though she diagnosed as flu like virus...I didn't know I had been in contact with parvo at the time)...or whether to see the gp that wilk whip out the tourniquet and needles there and then rather than waiting to get bloods taken...

[LEMisdisappointed]

Bobblypop welcome xxx

ciq glad you had a better day today

bloody weather pants again today yet london 50 miles away sunny thats whT i get for living by the sea

[ColouringInQueen]

Hi Bobblypop welcome to probably the nicest village in the world. Good to hear you're doing ok at the mo and the self talking is a great idea. I've been dep/anx since new year after a serious tough prev 18mths... but doing better now than in Jan/Feb. Take care.

Thanks lem yes freezing cloudy here today too. Sun came out at DC bedtime

[EdwiniasRevenge]

Hi bobbly.

I'm awake for the third time tonight alreafy.

I'm worrying about my arms :(

[EdwiniasRevenge]

Morning all.

Sorry to dominate again last night.

I just don't know what feels healthy these days :(

I've been to the drs. She wasn't overly concerned about bruises...then suggested blood tests to check clotting and anaemia. ..then pointed out there were appointments today. So I've just been back and had bloods taken. Clotting results back tomorrow. Rest will be a week.

I had an awfully restless night again. I'm going to nap now

Sorry I'm not up to date on what everyones up to. Struggling to concentrate on anything.

[TheSilveryPussycat]

Ed sending hugs. It's the fact that it seems trivial but there is no apparent cause... so blood tests sound like a good idea. I don't suffer from HA but have learned the hard way that as I get older, physical symptoms repay prompt attention (my feet and knees in my case).

[LEMisdisappointed]

crap day today - done bugger all, cross with self :( slept badly

Hugs to ed - glad the doc wasn't too concerned re bruising, maybe you can get a nights sleep tonight.

[ColouringInQueen]

((((hugs)))) to ed, lem
Ed glad you had your bloods done, hopefully that will give you some clarity.
LEM you've got loads done recently from reading back your posts - try and accept today as a recharge day, ready for the second half of the week.

right school run......... (need [yawn] smiley!)

[SnowyMouse]

Sorry to see your bruises Ed, hope they get the cause sorted soon. Sorry you're having a rough day LEM.

[ColouringInQueen]

Hope everyone's doing OK this eve.

Interesting chat with counsellor today about DH and I. It's hard to know how much of my negative thinking re: him is the depression and how much is actually he can be v irritating to live with at the mo! But I do know I need to find a way to express the things that bug me most as keeping it all bottled up is making my dep/anx worse. I have felt worse since he said he would be taking August off...

So am just using this post to clarify main things I do need to raise at a favourable moment...

1. It's difficult to know how much progress he's making on his ultimate consultancy goal.
   
2. I sometimes feel he is spending a large amount of time organising his tasks etc rather than doing.
   
3. One of the measurements in my eyes is how he's progressing projects at home which he has been keen to do. None of which have made any progress really. (So - is the work stuff the same, or is he doing more work stuff and that's why home stuff isn't happening - in which case stop making promises that you can't fulfil).
   

Need some diplomatic language really. I think it also stresses me out as my dad was self-employed til I was about 20 something and he was very stressed by it and money was tight, and his stress impacted on the whole family. Food for thought.

take care everyone x

[TheSilveryPussycat]

Oh dear, CIQ, is your husband like me - finds it hard to get started (but then often persists till job nearly finished)? Or like my Ex, who was a lazy bastard (hope not!)

I sometimes wish I had had words with him about his work plans, but at the time had an uneasay feeling that he would have just done nothing because I had mentioned it anyway (can you tell he was a FuckWit?)

[ColouringInQueen]

Oh that sounds rubbish SPC . No he's not lazy. He's a slower worker than me. More plodding and less efficient in my humble opinion! So not sure that's ideal if you're self-employed...