Oh I'm stupid, I was looking at the old thread and wondering why no one had posted! I've read through all the posts but of course can't remember who said what! To be honest I don't do well with these "virtual" things but I will try my best since you all like the idea, and yes the cottage is fine Basset
I'm a bit pre-occupied with health anxiety. Yesterday was horrendous with the "worry tape" grinding around my head. This is different from headmonster stuff (meaning crap days of depression/anxiety). Mind if I tell you? A couple of weeks ago I was out walking with DP and a lot of DIL's family and I noticed something on the front of my leg (small spot) and brushed it off but it started to bleed and someone had a plaster that I put on - didn't think much more about it, thought I might have been bitten. Then a scab formed over the spot. Yesterday morning I woke with blood on the sheet and there was an area on my elbow that was bleeding. That has now scabbed over. Strangely a similar thing on my other elbow - I have no memory of scraping or banging elbows.
Of course I consulted Dr Google and am thinking skin cancer (most common place for skin cancer in woman is lower leg - panic! Says any incidence of bleeding in the skin that is not the cause of scraping, bumping etc is of significant concern and need to see GP. My practice is awful for getting an appt (it's the phone at 8.00 am thing) and the phone is always engaged and when you get through there are no appts left, so made one on line with GP for 19th June (first one available with GP I trust) but don't know if I can wait that long now. DP is sympathetic but is convinced I have scraped both my elbows and haven't noticed, and the thing on my leg is a bite, and that's really not the case. He has been showing me tiny marks on his arms that he's had for ages.......aaargh! Sorry to be so self indulgent when others are struggling.
Basset I think you mentioned HA. I have had it a few times in the past. Once convinced myself I had throat cancer and other stuff.
I've lost track of the new people on the thread, but hello to you all. I'm not usually so self indulgent to take up so much space moaning about my HA. Phew trying to remember stuff .
Vicar you are so not suited to police work (as if you needed me to tell you!) I think you do have to "grow a second skin" to work in caring professions (I am NOT including the police here!!) because if you are so emotionally affected, you cannot help others. But you are so recently recovered from depression and so got plugged into this woman's emotional distress. I suppose the police are just working within their boundaries and to be honest it doesn't surprise me at all that once the woman was sober they would just release her. I'm not sure who they could have contacted.
I just remember when I was a social worker and there were so many things that we really couldn't do very much about. People living on the margins of society with financial problems, high rise flats, no family support, few friends, alcohol and drug abuse and domestic violence in the mix usually. We could remove the children if they were suffering significant harm, but had no resources to do anything for the parents. I often felt some young mothers needed to be fostered themselves. Children trying to bring up children......a huge gap between their emotional age and their chronological age. So we just "papered over the cracks" and once the child/ren would be moved, more would be on the way. During my time in SSD I saw 3 generations of families who were stuck in this cycle of deprivation and no-one has any idea how to break into it.
I know a lot of people advise going to A & E when feeling suicidal, but ime that is no good, as I did that when my last major episode in 2010 got so bad I had stopped eating and drinking. I waited 3 hours for the "crisis team" by which time my anxiety had subsided a fair bit and then saw a CPN and DR and they sent me home with diazepam! They did make a referral to the psychiatrist but I think this was just normal procedure for anyone they see "out of hours" - I was admitted to hospital 3 days after the A & E visit, and the DR came on the ward one day and expressed great surprise that I had been admitted.
I know you are anxious about the court case this week Vicar but once you have given your evidence (remember kISS - keep it short, keep it simple) you can leave the court and go and get yourself a treat, a big one, though not another rat.......please!
So sorry I can't remember anything else. Snowy how are you - any advance on a 2?
I am trying to keep occupied today to stop the "worry tape" - it's weird really because over the past 3 years I have wished so often that I would get something, so that I could die of natural causes, so that my loved ones don't have to cope with my suicide, and yet at the first sign of this I'm in a panic.