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[ThatVikRinA22]

My Friends... theres no need to feel down
i said My Friends..Pick yourself off the ground
i said My Friends, cause youre in a new town
theres no need to be unhappy....

Our new thread folks (number 5!!).....i need to dash as im on nights but i will be back!
love to all. xxx

I forgot about the village pub. Lime and lemonade for me

CiQ how was the riding lesson?Was it wonderful? That sounded just like a perfect day :) Im quite although one year for my bday (this was in life before DD) DP took me on a "surprise" riding holiday. I knew he was planning it (and he gave it away when he packed my riding gear!) but it is such a wonderful memory, something i will never ever forget. There is something so calming about horses isn't there.

There isn't a miracle cure in a box of tablets CiQ, that has to come from the inside and you are doing brilliantly, you inspire me and i always look to your posts when i am feeling low, you are so positive despite everything that this bloody illlness throws at you.

Estelle, hello - glad you have come back to the thread and are getting some support.

I'm doing ok, I managed to get my spider stuff done on friday and feel happy i did that. Not heard from my friend but i know he is busy and as scatty as i am so when he wants to pick things up we will be hot to trot as it were. It has boosted my confidence alot. DPs work is up in the air and im making an effort not to melt down about it, i think we need to push the business and feel positive about it - positive as in not allowing myself to be negative. Tooth hasn't given me any shite today - have booked myself a dental appointment (at last!) but coudlnt get anything til next week - i am going to ask doctor for some diazepam as i am nervous about the initial consultation. I tried to explain this to the receptionist but she didn't get it, im not scared of them hurting me, i just am scared of them looking in my mouth and finding something awful wrong

Thanks lem. Surprise riding Hill sounds fab.
Riding was good by the end of half an hour I was making progress with my rising trot, I did enjoy it and was good to get brain working on something different. Doesn't half make your bum sore tho

Glad to hear spider stuff boosted your confidence - try and hold onto that feeling. Diazepam for dentist sounds inspired (I might try and save one of mine for that - haven't been in ages).

But with dh tonight. I made a blind for the bathroom this morn well more a panel but takes the heat out of the sun. Dh went in and didn't notice - and when kids showed him he just laughed. I know it doesn't compare to his high falutin stuff but I was pleased I'd got it done.

yeah, give him a kick in the shin, but then move on, not worth causing bad feeling over - im now very jealous that you can make blinds :)

CIQ yay to the riding lesson

Although - being as I am in reminiscent mode tonight - your post triggered a memory of one of my lessons when I last rode, in 1999. It was a day much like today, and I literally had rivulets of sweat dripping off me by tthe end. I was learning forward seat, and it involved a lot of going up and down steep banks to get my horse into a sort of canter, or picking his way down... In the winter, it's nice that a horse is a hot water bottle warm-blooded animal

Mine's a lovely pint of proper ginger beer shandy, made with a half of proper London bitter :) tankard-->

evening all
ciq I bet the blind looks fab - I too am very in awe of you being able to make a blind!
lem glad tooth is not too bad. I hate dentists too - only go when I absolutely have too which is bad.
snowy hang in there. sounds a pain about taxi etc but at least you got it done.

feeling crap tonight. In many ways wk/end went OK, but things v stressful between me and dh
then had an unexpected run in with manager at work today - who is team manager but not technically my manager as I am managed by someone else...complicated, but it has really upset me and I cant stop dwelling on it although I know its pointles....
going to go to bed and try to read for a bit now...
hugs to all who need them.

silvery X posts. hello. ginger beer sounds good.

(((Hugs)) bobbly

I would just like to set the record straight on the blind front - I have sewed a large rectangle and hung it on a net curtain wire but am still proud of it!

spc that sounds really hard! I was v relieved lesson was under cover as it was warm enough like that!

Wise words lem

Watching Andy Murray cry on tv and thinking good for you! Good prog but think I have to go bed now. Night all x

Good night

CIQ you yourself admitted you had actually done some sewing

ciq riding really helps me - just being around the horses is a tonic. ive not managed to get there last week and this week i have this sodding throat thing going on....i might try to get toward the end of the week.

im going to book my spa break tomorrow - i really cant afford it but sod it - i really really need something to look forward to, and it will be lovely to spend some grown up quality time with DD.

i just feel so incredibly isolated at work. i find myself not joining in with anything anymore. the bullying is just from 3 people but thats half the shift in reality more often than not. ive not said anything to supervision but i think i will - it may shed light on why they keep trying to drop me in it at every opportunity. im not seeking to complain - more just make aware.

im so glad i have some days off now to recover. (mentally and physically - the gp has prescribed antibiotics so will start those tomorrow for the throat thing....)

i tried to engage at work - it just doesnt work. i tried to show them my DDs prom pics, but no one was interested. i really need to stop trying.
i need to feel ok about being alone. its just odd - when i worked locally as a special i used to have such a laugh with them - but they were more enlightened i think - the lad i used to work with most often was fab, his brother was in a same sex relationship, and my sgt was a gay man - it was much more cosmopolitan - which surprises me as i live in a fairly insular back water northern town - where i work is much bigger but the attitudes are much more 1970s.....

its all very weird.

i do have friends - they are just outside of work.

It's too hot to get a nap in today. How's everyone doing?

Hi everyone,

snowy that's no good. I have all my curtains drawn permanently to keep the house cool and it does seem to help - have you tried that? How are you doing today?

Had quick nap on the sofa before school run, which was just as well as DS had a meltdown later when it was time to leave the playground!

vicar interesting what you say about the horses, I did feel a connection to my horse even though she was rather hot and bothered. Need to work out what I can afford... Your colleagues sound so rubbish. Just wondered if there was any chance to change stations? Like you say they sound really archaic, and pretty unpleasant if they can't be bothered to make pleasantries about your beautiful DD. Hope you get a good break and antibiotics hit the spot.

Days been OK. Counselling OK, talked about my paranoia about not wanting to sound like/be seen to be like my mum... and also looking at Sat - and why it was so good - no responsibilities, doing new thing, doing thing I enjoy etc and trying to hold onto some of that the rest of the time.

Then got addicted to looking at holidays to see the Northern Lights!!! DD has been researching it for school, and the stuff she's come across says that its at its best at the solar maximum (once every 11 yrs) which was apparently 2012, so now is a v good time to go.... Really need DH to start earning some money but I am sorely tempted to book something for Feb 2014. Its something I've always wanted to see, and would rather not have to wait another decade (tho kids would be older could have more adventurous outdoory winter holiday..) Mentioned it to DH but he didn't look so keen! I think understandably cos of the £ factor.

Right am going to plant a plant and then I am done for the day. Feeling very tired this week, but at least mood holding up - or maybe I'm tired cos I'm doing more cos moods holding up... who knows, rambling now

Hope everyone's doing OK tonight x

ive slumped again. couldnt get up at all today. ashamed to say it was 2.15 in the afternoon when i managed to drag myself out of bed.

i feel ok in myself, just tired. incredibly tired. and ill. which could account for the tired i suppose.

house a bit of a tip.

im going to go and have a soak in the bath in a bit and let the ratties have a run.

(((hugs))) vicar if you're ill enough to need antibiotics, you're ill enough to rest in bed today. Take it easy and have fun with the ratties!

Well I got up at 7.45 and haven't been back to bed since.

a morning snooze sprawled out on the trampoline with my pillow in the sun doesn't count right??

Vicar you are poorly, you are not slumping you are just not well, rest is the best thing.

I'm not great CiQ, but at least it's nighttime soon. I keep my curtains shut too. Do take care of yourself, vicar, hugs.
I'm sure that doesn't count, Ed!

Sorry to hear that snowy.
Am going to veg with tv then bed again I think!

Blimey vicar of course you are tired...

I managed a nap snowy though it was rather a hot one, but I like that once in a while - and it gives me a tendency to dream what I call "sort-out" dreams.

What level am I at ? Am wearing : my glasses, a bra, a tea shirt and some knickers. Hair tied back with a bobble. Is this technically Level 2, even though I would put some trousers or a skirt on if someone called by? Or 1.5?

Good question SPC, either fits. Enjoy bed, CiQ

I'm moving bedwards too, cpn is coming tomorrow morning instead of today.

thanks everyone - yes im on ABs again for the chest/throat. feeling crap and knackered.

got to get up early tomorrow as i have a facial and pedicure booked.

ive also booked the spa break for myself and DD in august.

i have 2 weeks off in july/aug so DH has planned lots of lovely days out for us too.

when i have the fundoplication surgery i will be signed off for about 3 months again.
i just want to get it done now. it would stop all the chest/throat probs and give me another lovely break from work.

on and typically i was a level 1.5 today too....and has a sodding vistor. typial.

hair not brushed - just tied back in a bobble. no bra. vest and unironed 3/4 trousers....
looked a right sight. house a tip. and had a visitor.

havent posted in here for a while,

but i know if i told some one in RL they would think

had such a bad night sleep, having a bad dream and couldnt wake from it, was like my eyes were glued shut! then when i did wake it was like i was still dreaming. i felt the room was closed in, see a zombie / ghoul. thought some one was in the house... right panicky state, sweating, heart was beating one to a dozen and felt shakey sounds silly but felt like an out of body experience (i know it wasnt only way i could describe it) had no control over it.

then when i tried to get back to sleep i could see same images, then voices started calling... 'mouses' mouses'... i told them to go away. they said they will kill my mice (pets) and my cat

feel so tired. i had a good couple of days and thought when i have my home visit in aug they aint going to think i need helpcos i felt ok'ish.

mouses your experience, though scarey, is a relatively normal one, with a proper name for it (that I can't recall atm) - up to the point of the voices when you tried to get back to sleep. The images are hypnogogic images, the voices might be as well. (I get horrid images as I go off to sleep occasionally) So something to monitor but could be Ok though obv not nice to experience.