lonely do stick with it - i can't help but wonder if you are experiencing "side effects" for an extended period (it is citalopram you are taking isn't it?) because you are breast feeding. Citalopram works on the seratonin in your brain, as do most of the ADs being discussed here. Seratonin is involved in the let down reflex of breast feeding. I remember a very "sad" feeling coming over me during let down and then feeling quite calm during the feed (we are talking seven years ago now though). Give the meds time to work - i think it takes about a month to six weeks before you start to see any real changes in the anxiety/depression. I got worse before I got better, but the citalopram works for me. I overslept this morning and we were late for school - before i would have been screaming at DD to hurry up etc and getting in a real state, today i was sharp and hurried her up but i realised when i was walking home from school that i didn't shout. That is definately due to the drug! It helpe that DD managed to sort herself out and co-operate for once!
I can't say that i am feeling better today really - but the "I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT" feeling I have turned around - i think i am very much at a stage where i either roll over and let this thing destroy me or i start to fight back. I am hoping to make a bloody good fight of it, I have had enough, i want a life - and fuck it, im going to bloody well have one!! Fuck you depression!!! I have to do something, even if its just wash up, every day now, its not going to beat me.
Snowy, when i watched the BBC program i thought about you - you are so brave, this is a bastard bloody illness that i wish people understood more, most of all the medics, sometimes i feel they just don't know what to do, hopefully as psychiatry progresses there will be more specific treatments available and a blood test that someone can take - just like looking at liver function etc. So person a has an iron deficiency, lets give them some iron and folic acid. In psychiatry they need to be at a stage where they know enough about neurotransmitters to be able to assess people to see where the deficiencies are. Lately it all seems to be about seratonin, but there other hormones which regulate mood and anxiety, it all seems a bit vague. It will take someone far cleverer than me to work it out, but hopefully, one day, they will.
Waves to everyone - basset, bobbly, CiQ, Ed, vicar, nana, silvery, glabella, hoochy, zombie - (where is she?), notso - everyone!