that light at the end of the tunnel isnt a train....stay on track!

[ThatVikRinA22]

thought we had better have a new one - old one nearly full. Think this is our 4th thread now....

linky to old one here

so, here we go....title a little more optimistic than i feel but im sure i will get back on track soon.....not doing bad particularly, just feeling a bit consumed with things....work is so intense. id forgotten.

anyway....nuff of me. over to you guys....
hope everyone manages to find us to say "hi"....welcome old and new.

cheese and beans on toast in the microwave so you don't have to watch it? (not as nice though)

Yum cheese and beans on toast :)

Weetabix? Milky coffee? (my two stand-bys)

Making me hungry! (I try not to eat after 6, trying to lose weight).

Hi everyone - gawd im tired,,had a good weekend, dp has fixed the car so hopefully will pass the retest tomorrow. Glad the sleepover went well Ed, i think you were entitled to the sleepover, am watching father ted, for the 5th time!

Mmmmm cheese and beans on toast - niiice that reminds me though, i cannot stop eating!! I am going to be like a bloody heffer at this rate - its the pills isn't it?

Take care everyone x

Hi everyone ....good to see that some of us have had a good weekend despite this evil illness. Ups and downs but progress .
So pleased .

Cheese on toast or tomato soup is my "must eat something " meal so go for it Ed .

love to all xx

evening, or should i say morning.

my body clock is now knackered again - im exhausted at all the wrong times and wide awake when i shouldnt be (like now)

i bloody hate shift work.

ed hope you managed to eat something. im trying to lose about 10lb healthily so im watching what i eat, ive not bought any wine either (hoping i can resist) but i do have emergency gin and slim line tonic....if i really cant be bothered to cook then i end up on cereal or sandwiches. Ive not taken meds today as eaten at all the wrong times. must must take them tomorrow....darent take my sertraline now or i will have horrible dreams. Im terrible for missing meals but i know that plays havoc with metabolism too....no wonder i cant lose weight these days.

my back is still not right so trying to take it easy before work again. Am going to force myself to bed now, because im a bit of a night owl i find it so hard to get myself off nights and back into the land of the living during the day. DS is home for a few days, and prowls all night so i find it hard to relax.

hope everyone else is doing ok, waves to everyone new and old...

Morning vicar

I ate a microwave pizza some birthday cake and a bar of chocolate.

I was awake and feeling lively at 6.30

I was awake and feeling lively at 8.30

I have been faffing on my phone since

I am now not feeling lively :(

I have brownies tonight and it is stressing me to high heaven....must do the prep. But I need to go to tesco to get printer ink.

I must sort dd3s room back out.

I just want to hide.

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Your priority is clearly to get the printer ink Ed. Well done for browsing on the food sources you had - sounds like a well balanced diet to me

Well...thats debatable.( I don't mean that to sound so harsh...I mean it is genuinely debateable).

The printer ink is for brownie prep.

My #1 priority is my dcs. Therefore I need to do dd3s room (at least put her posters back up and get dtd1s stuff out).

My #2 priority is my own health. Therefore I need to be less stressed...is the brownie prep or my dd3s room going to reduce mg stress more?

What I am actually doing is sorting clean washing in my bedroom...which will make my bedroom look better and help me find my guiding uniform...amd procrastinating over which will make me least stressed...and mnetting which is clearly helping. ..

I've sorted (as in put into piles) all of the clean laundry.

A picture of my poor bed is on my profile :(

Wrong criteria, if I may suggest such in the nature of friendly debate.

Here's how I'd run it. Get printer ink. You now have resources from Brownie prep, but this doesn't mean you have to do that next. Also if t'were me I would have bought something cheap and silly for DD3's room in Tesco's at the same time!

You cannot priotise stress reduction in this way. Action of any kind will take care of reducing stress, the only question is by how much.

However, I am revising the priority task, imho, which is to stop sorting the bedroom, and just find the brownie uniform. This is assembling resources for Brownie's, but it still doesn't mean you have to do that next.

I was planning to catch up with the books for a meeting I'm going to this afternoon. Well, I've prepared for the actual meeting - can pay expenses, and have read paperwork - and find that books can wait, even though today I will be standing down as Treasurer.

afternoon.
ed - is the washing sorting stressing you more or less? i have a similar amount of clean washing, because i am rubbish at ironing it and putting it away....i have to really be in the mood to sort it, and i just chuck it all on the bed, then i have 4 baskets (one for each of us) and i fold it, and sort it into the baskets.
its a pretty pointless task, but then at least i can stack it up somewhere discrete and forget it!

sometimes making more mess can be more stressful though. (it always looks worse before it looks better)

i should also be doing stuff that im not doing.....DH has taken the car to work and is trialing a different shift pattern so wont be home until gone 6pm...its his birthday tomorrow and i havent even got him a card but to go out means i need to shower, find some clothes, iron them, do my hair and put some slap on.....none of which i can be arsed to do.
i also need to go to the pet shop for ratty supplies....

im back to work tomorrow (its comes around so fast) so my plan, i think, is to tidy up the house a bit now, then have a soak in the bath later, dry my hair, sort my uniform for tomorrow.
I will be home before DH tomorrow, so when i get home i think i will nip out then, get ratty supplies and a card for dH, he wants a smart phone for his birthday but hasnt decided which one yet, so i will press gang him into ordering it tomorrow so at least its on the way.

sounds like a plan of sorts.

can you just work out what needs to be done at some point today ed and formulate a similar plan? i have to say, ive just worked all that out while sat here and now i feel a bit better....just having a plan is comforting.

i am missing loads of posts for which i apologise to everyone - but where is helles?? have i missed her or is she awol? i hope she is ok. I could do with her to bully me out of bed on my days off.....ive been a bit rubbish at getting up again....

I did have a plan then the wise silvery adjusted the plan in devour of friendly debate

All the washing is still on my bed....but in people piles so I could just deposit it in the right bedrooms and run...

I have done the Brownie prep - just needs printing.

I am about to go and buy ink and some food so that I have something easy to eat today (I always need easy eats on a Monday or I won't).

Right dressed. Tesco. Printing. Cutting. Posters on DD3s wall. Mustn't forget to take balloons.

Helles is awol :(. She popped in a few days ago to let us know she was still about though.

Since there is talk of losing weight on here, I would just mention that I am in that boat too, and need to lose 2 stone. My new meds (mirtazapine) cause weight gain but I think because of increased appetite. My friend who is on them has put on 1.5 stones and she was already overweight, so I thought I's better do something, as I am only 5'1" and carry weight round my waist (the apple shape) that's very unhealthy. Pear shapes are better apparently. Also I read in the paper yesterday that being overweight (in middle age) I am well beyond that, increases your chances of alzheimers by a staggering 50% - mind they tell us all sort of things don't they.........so pinch of salt I reckon.

Don't want to bore people but I'm doing Slimming World and you actually can eat a lot of food, so long as it's the right sort. I lost 2 stone on it some years ago, but keeping it off is the problem. I know you are trying to lose weight Snowy so you might be interested. I am using my old books, as I cannot and will not go to their meetings and get weighed (yuk) but think I might have to go once to get the new books. You can do it online but it costs a fortune.

Nice to "see" you Vicar and I know you are ultra busy but glad you find time to pop back and see us. Dare I say I am doing well on the mortazapine but don't want to tempt fate.

.Hello to all regulars and those just popping by.

How are you today Snowy

I'm using myfitnesspal to calorie count, 1200 kcal a day. I also bought myself a dress that's just on the small side today - I have blood tests on Mondays, and it's always tempting to buy junk food before/after. I could do with losing2-3 stone, 5'2", 11st 11 lbs at present (put on 7 lbs in hospital, lost 3 of it).

I do find it useful to keep track on my phone app, and it lets me calorie count while out and about.

Hi all can I please join.
Feel a low as possible today so alone with this ;((
iTS like a madness :((
Feel sick, shaky and so very very sad.
Only thing keeping me going is my kids and praying that this will lift. Tell me it will ?((((

Hang in there buggerme snurt at writing that

sorry you are feeling low, please forgive levity. Have you been there before? How did it lift then? Remember, you are allowed to keep the feeding etc of kids v simple at a time like this.

x-posted with my orders advice, and I see you have accomplished much, Ed, will have a look at pic in a bit. Can we have one of you in your Brownie Uniform (are you Tawny?), you can pixelate the face or cut it out for privacy

Was supposed to drop into bank after meeting, but instead re-prioritised and went and had a cup of tea with a friend instead. Meeting went well, too.

buggermewhatnext - of course, you are more than welcome. Have you spoken about what is going on on here? Do you want to talk in this room or you could start a thread in MH if you haven't already.

Waves to everyone - My DP had a day off work today, we had a lovely day together - went to the pet shop and the guy showed me how to handle a tarantula, I was fascinated, but still not ready to get one - i want to be confident enough to handle it and not just leave it to fester in a corner. They move quite quickly but the guy said you just leave them and they tend to stop, which he demonstrated - it did, it ran a bit and then stopped. The car has now passed the MOT after a few bits needed doing, which DP was able to do and saved £££'s. He has also been able to appease the bank which is good.

Have fun at brownies tonight Ed.

hi bugger - are you on any meds?
it does lift - but sometimes needs a push....have you seen your doctor?

Nana im trying to just be really sensible - im 5ft 4 and 10st 8 (or was on saturday) so really would just like to lose about 10 lb to make me feel a bit better. Ive given up on diets, so im just choosing to eat sensibly, lots of fruit/veg and no wine (whoop!!) but i have got a drop of gin and slim line tonic for later, if i feel deprived. (cant give everything up at once can you!)
i also confess i pinched one of DS cigarettes last night (ive not smoked in over 10 years) so am determined not to do that again. So on balance, a small G&T will be allowed...i think i have an addictive personality. i seem to swap one bad habit for another....i need to address that at some point but i think i have given my counsellor enough to work on for now.

what i really cant get my head around is that ive just had 4 days off but only today (now) am i feeling anything like ok....i really need to get my flexi time application in and drop a shift. sod the money. I hate feeling so out of it and tired.

right. DH has just walked in so im going to try to spend some time with him, relaxing before its back to the grind.

love to all. x

5ft 4 and 10st 8 :) I am same height and 13 stone, and deffo would not pass any sort of fitness test that involved running. Of course, I don't do any much exercise . I was last at that weight at age 44 (passing through it on the way up actually, due to comfort eating as unhappy in job).

Just musing, hope you have been able to chillax, as the younger folk say

Hi buggerme welcome. Do you want to tell us a bit more about your situation. Yes it does lift, but sometimes needs help - like anti-depressants and/or counselling. Have you spoken to anyone about how you're feeling? take care.

Hello everyone. Well I will add my weight & height too I think as am also trying to loose half a stone. 5ft 2in, 10 stone. Used to be 9 and a half stone so that's the aim. Can't fit in any of my summer trousers/shorts and some skirts so that's a good incentive!

Vicar I think we all need one treat a day when you're on a diet - whether its a G&T or in my case 6 pieces of Green & Blacks 70% choc. If I can avoid cakes and biscuits and eat smaller portions for the day that's my reward... one pound down, 6 to go...

LEM delighted to hear about your super capable DPs mechanical skills and the £ situation has calmed down. Great to hear you've had a good day

SPC glad to hear meeting went well and coffee with a friend sounds like an excellent re-prioritisation

Hi snowy that mobile app sounds like a great idea - good luck!

Nana I read that thing too... and at last I've found someone smaller than me How are you finding the mirtaz. are you managing to control your appetite? When I started on Trazodone I had major carb cravings for 2 weeks that were soooo hard to resist (I mostly didn't)

Ed how did you get on today? I too have two massive piles of clean washing sitting in my room waiting to be put away...

Well I've had three mostly good but busy days and its caught up with me now. Not surprising and my brain is lasting out longer than it used to. Did school run this morning, supermarket shop and met up with an old friend from work for lunch which was nice. Still find socialising anxiety-making and have to work hard to dismiss paranoid thoughts (she's bored, I'm boring etc etc). Then school run, swimming lesson, cooking dinner and having to do bedtime as DH out. A very long day... hey ho.

Not adding my weight I m going to have to go on a diet aren't i?

((hugs)) LEM you can do it Spring/summer's the best time too cos your body's not trying to hang on to the fat to stay warm!