that light at the end of the tunnel isnt a train....stay on track!

[ThatVikRinA22]

thought we had better have a new one - old one nearly full. Think this is our 4th thread now....

linky to old one here

so, here we go....title a little more optimistic than i feel but im sure i will get back on track soon.....not doing bad particularly, just feeling a bit consumed with things....work is so intense. id forgotten.

anyway....nuff of me. over to you guys....
hope everyone manages to find us to say "hi"....welcome old and new.

Right...I'm getting up...I'm feeling motivated. The problem is that my motivation centres around the least important room

Best get this whirlwind into action...

Go Ed !!!

Hi LEM how are you getting on today?

Turns out I'm ill awful sore throat, headache, feel like I should be in bed. That explains the ridiculous exhaustion this week. Hope I don't get as poorly as DH, I have nieces baptism tomorrow in Sussex (can't miss) and teaching communion class on Sunday (again can't miss), so am trying to do minimum in the hope I can keep plodding along! Hey ho. Its funny tho, being physically ill feels like a walk in the park compared to being mentally ill...

Sun has just popped out.

Hope everyone's getting on OK, esp UA and snowy.
Hi to nana SPC Basset* Vicar Hoochy Glabella* x

Im still in bed.

But ive decided if downstairs is done before we go tesco we will stop at macdonnslds for tea (so I dont mess my kitchen up of course!)

Great idea. Always worth adding in an incentive (esp if its food ) into the mix x

Spinning around from the whirlwind that is Ed blitzing her house - looking at mine and thinking, i'll do it in a minute

CiQ I am sorry that you are poorly - we call that having grollies in this house!!! So if i say to my DP "ive got grollies" it means im poorly sick, if i say "i don't feel well" he knows i mean in my head. Its funny, sometimes when i "don't feel well" i sometimes almost wish for a bout of flu, tht would mean I could take to my bed and not feel guilty about it. Daft eh!

Snowy - how are you today?

How is everyone today? Glabella, have you come to any decisions regarding your course?

I am having a tough day, its because DP has to grovel to the mortgage company today and the car is due for MOT tomorrow, am so hoping his repairs after the accident were enough - we couldnt get a new wing so he just had to bend the old one out the best he can to accomodate the light unit. Ironically, thats not what im worried about, im worried about the catalytic converter, there seems to be a rattle and i wonder if one of the ceramic bits (i assume there is some sort of ceramic thing going on, i visualise balls!) worked loose, DP thinks tht will be a fail but i think only if it affects the emmisions - i cannot STAND ifs and buts, this is what really messes with my head, not knowing - i need to have things sorted NOW, i think if i wasn't on meds, the whole car thing wold have sent me into meltdown.

Wishing everyone a good weekend

Wondering how Vicar is getting on?? Couldnt find another thread anywhere else, but didnt want her to think i was not being supportive.

Ahhh, cross posts Ed. that is some sound thinking right there!! The chicago special at Mc Ds is pretty good just now - sigh - its not tuesday and i have chops defrosting in the fridge.

Arrggghhh...dtds had the louisianna a few days ago...prefer the legend with salsa myself.

Waitig for the new york classic week5....minus mayo and mustard tho ;)

Snowy are you there - can you come and say hello.

Ed what's happening this weekend. Did you say something about going to Bournville - in Birmingham? Cadbury World? sorry if I'm on wrong track but I am fairly near there. Anyway hope it all goes ok.

Oh Lem I remember those days so well many years ago when we were struggling for money because I was a SAHM and the MOT was the "appointment with fear" and yes we had to grovel to the bank too, but somehow we got through it all and so will you, but it's tough at the time. I remember we needed a new engine and the re-conditioned one was £100 and we couldn't afford it, but can't remember how we got by bit we did! Things changed when I started my social work course in 1979 and I got a bursary of £200 per month from the Home Office (I was meant to go into Probation) and it was like a fortune had landed in our laps!!

Hope the car gets through the MOT and the grovelling works. Is there anyone who would loan you money, until you are well enough to work? I've bailed out my adult son and dil on more than one occasion!

Sorry to hear you are ill CiQ presumably same sort of thing as DH has/had. Look if you can't get to the baptism then you can't - it's no good pushing yourself when you feel so ill, but yes it's such a relief to be physically ill rather than mentally.

I am just going to meet a lovely friend who I haven't seen for a long time. She and her DH suffer from intermittent depression and so she perfectly understands......think it was Ed who said that only people who have experience of MI understand when we say we can't get out of bed. I can recall a time watching my DP get out of bed and say he was off to get showered and I was wondering how the hell he could do that........oh mental illness sucks BIG time.

Glabella surely there must be a way to postpone your final placement - you can't just throw 6 years down the pan. I watched the Junior Doctors series on TV and the first years were very stressed - main problem seemed to be getting the canula in....wondered whythey weren't taught this before letting them loose on the wards. Having said that I know only too well how we all "learn our trade" on the job as opposed to the academic side of things, but I guess for medicine it is a combination of both. When I was doing my sw course back along, they kept going on about "linking theory and practice" but I never used anything I had learned in college - it was all "on the job" learning. In college we had one session on welfare rights towards the end of the 2 year course, and that was one of the things that most service users needed (we used to call them clients in our day!)

Love to all

I'm having a very rough day. Not taking meds. Hope everyone else is doing better.

Snowy - whats happening with you? Can you maybe take your meds now? I need to get off my arse and take mine before the school run.........

hugs snowy sounds rubbish. Any ideas what you might do this pm?

Nana thanks yes I think same as DH. Hoping I won't be as bad... Hope you have a lovely time with your friend. I know what you mean about people understanding - I can have good conversations with my brother who's also suffered from depression.

Hope you're getting on ok Ed

LEM have fingers crossed for the MOT result. Those things aren't fun anytime but proper stressful for you at the mo. I liked the "grollies" and sounds like a good strategy to differentiate between mental and physical health..

School run in 10 mins then back to the sofa...

UA emergency doctor asap! You need some medical help. DH sounds really supportive but you need proff help. Get help girl!

Sorry that lots of people are ill, love and cuddles to CiQ, get better soon

Glabella you are on my mind- your health comes first and the PGCE will always be there, can you delay placement for a few months? Give yourself a bit of space to get better, but don't chuck it in, you sound like you'll be a great teacher. I loved teaching for 23 years ( only last few years with a bullying head was horrible), I'm a bit hit and miss on this current placement, but I was told that I could delay it for a few months if it all got too much. Talk to uni, take someone along if you can't describe how you feel.

I had this observation today in work and I was fine, even though shaking with fear.
The GP was good also, she's keeping me on 100mg sertraline, and said that it takes 4-6 weeks to really act all I should have now are glimmers of feeling better, which is about right. I was so scared it wasn't working.

Shattered tonight- me and DH are going down the chippie later. Can't be bothered to cook.

Loads of love to LEM Snowy , take your meds,Nana lots of thanks for the encouragement for today, Ed, your making me hungry!

And to anyone I've missed!

Thanks hoochy feeling rough. Well done on surviving your observation. I think yr gp is right about weeks on a decent dose. It will come x.

ua so sorry to hear you're feeling worse. It's a tough time. Hope you've been to the doc.

Hello to all

UA - there is little surprise you are feeling so bad, maybe you need some additional meds to get you through? Please see a doctor as soon as you can - suicidal thoughts are scary and horrible :(

I hope you get some help UA, please take care of yourself
Thinking of everyone...

Oops, sorry glabella got your course wrong, silly me

Hugs all round...

My nightly appraisal.

I'm knackered. I just have to change the towwels. Put the hoover away. Go into the loft and have a shower in the morning. All before 9am...

Soery can't respond personally. I am so tired tge words a blurring in front of me.

I may regret this tomorrow.

Night all.

evening everyone - i feel awful that im not keeping up any more

UA - ireally hope you have made an appt for the gp lovely.

snowy - you have just reminded me that i have missed my meds today too....i hope you have taken yours. i will take mine now. (and get ready for the dreams, if i take it early i get away with them, take them late and i could write a film script)

anyway. just popping in to say hi and touch base with everyone. first day off today but have hurt my back and couldnt follow my plans for the stables through as im doubled up...

tomorrow i need to take dd shopping. (oh joy! not)

i am trying so hard to hang on to my counsellors words of wisdom and stop feeling so stupidly inadequate when there is really no need.

will pop back when i can. hope everyone else is managing ok and hugs to all.
my heads in a fug - i bloody hate coming off nights....apologies if ive missed anything.

UA I had the same with my mum and slept by her bed, it was a precious time. Love and hugs to you. XXX

UA xxxxx

UA more hugs...

vicar you can't feel guilty that your thread(s) are so successful!