HELP my binge eating is spiralling out of control

[yumyummymummy]

I have always had a 'bad relationship' with food and over the years have gone through periods of binging. I put on 3 stone with 2 pregnancies just a year apart and then lost it all plus another 1/2 stone took up excercise and got my body to the best shape its probably ever been. Now 2 years on i am about 10lbs maybe more (!) heavier and i am out of control eating on mainly sugary stuff. I am disgusted with myself i just stuff myself till i feel physically ill, all i do is think about food, i have no will power and i feel bloody awful. can anyone relate to to this? I know realistically i am not fat yet but if i carry on like this i will be and my knickers have got tight on me now and most of my wardrobe just looks or feels terrible. What can i do to break this cycle? Can anyone else eat as much as me - i've never met anyone who admitted to it?

mistressmiggins wish I could just wave a big majic wand and make it all better for you but I can't but we are all here to listen. If you ever want to chat on msn give us a shout and i'll give you my msn thingy. How's the counselling going? I know she has let you down in the past, maybe you need to find a new one. One day you will feel better honey, and maybe you need to let some of those people close to you in real life in a bit closer to be able to lift you up. Thinking of you loads.

Ipod - btw sorry if I seemed at all standoffish when we meant in plymouth - wasn't having a good day, was feeling very down - so nothing personal!