A sweary thread about anxiety. You have been warned.

[ChickensHaveNoLips]

Fuck off anxiety. Take your shitty, twatting blown-out-of-all-proportion circling thoughts with you. Stop making my poor ole brain fixate and obsess over ridiculous things that raise my heart rate and make me want to run. Stop making me bore myself with this arsing, ridiculous, shitting arseholery.

My name is Chickens, and today I am cripplingly anxious because my dog has got a bit arsey with other dogs trying to take his ball. Yep, it's that twatting trivial. I hate you, brain.

[YommyMommy]

May I join this wonderful fucking thread???

Going through a really awful time right now and my anxiety is horrible :(

I need to smile and this thread is making me do that at least!!

Hoping you are all having and anxiety free or reduced day! x

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

Welcome, Yommy. Does it help to share your anxiety hooks? Sometimes it feels good just to get it out there, iyswim. Of course, only do so if you want to :)

[YommyMommy]

Hi Chickens, I wrote another big thread this morning about why I'm going through such a rough time at the moment. Please have a read if you can b bothered/have the time.

Thank you for your welcome...it's just a massive help at times to know you are not alone! X x

[IAmNotAFuckingBastardCunt]

TallHotBlonde - Fuck the fuck off anxiety you absolute bastard. Take your friend paranoia with you. I can't remember the person I used to be before I had children and started worrying constantly about them and every bloody thing else. I'm sure my life used to be fun!

You made me cry [thank you]! So bloody true.

[Charleebird]

Anxiety i fucking hate you. I want to smash you and crush you into a million pieces!

Wanker!

[Charleebird]

Anyone else feel a constant nervous feeling? Scared feeling? Feeling like your not you anymore and your going insane? Just want to cry but whats that guna do. I wake up feeling like shot every morning and just feel constantly on edge like something bad will happen.
Fuck this shit.

[Valdeeves]

Oh I like this - I thought it was just me obsessing. I am like this with relationships - sometimes I get so stressed I feel like I'm going to faint.

[Bunnygotwhacked]

I would like to join in by saying fuck the fuck off panic attacks i have had loads these past 2 weeks fuck knows whats causing it it has got so bad now i can't leave the house without having at least one usually more can't go on the bus am leaving it till last minute to do pick ups from school/clubs so i can just rush there and back again. I can't have conversations with people without one starting always think i'm going to faint or be sick I have a life i have stuff i need to do feel so fucking trapped how dare this try and take over my life i feel so fucking angry with myself

[recall]

Anxiety you are a cunting bullying bastard.

Moles

Meningitis

E coli

Septicemia

They rule my fucking head.....all day until I self medicate on wine.

Don't know what to do, my life is blighted, its just pure misery
Only since I had the children

My son had infected eczema last week and I was in such a state that he would get septicaemia and die >

[recall]

The irony that the fear of dying is so bad that I occasionally consider suicide

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

Oh recall, that sounds bloody exhausting. Anxiety is such an energy zapper. My anxiety makes me want to get rid of its source, so I understand what you're saying. There's almost a sense of 'FFS, let's just get it over with!'. Of course, there is no logic in that. I hope you're ok?

[recall]

Yes, thanks chicken Just been to nurse with yet another mole to be checked. She said it was fine - of course - I am seeing the GP on Thursday and going to ask her to refer me to a private psychiatrist/clinical psychologist. I have tried hypnotherapy twice, CBT, will just keep pushing until I get some relief.

I wouldn't say I was suicidal, just have an urge to get away from it which of course I can't.

As I got home from the Nurse, I trotted in all relieved and slammed the kitten in the door - now I'm fretting about her, although she seems ok

FUCKWANKINGBASTARDINGSNOTGOBBLINGANXIETY....

ahhhhhh.....thats better

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

Oh, I empathise with just wanting to lay the burden down. Because it is a fucking burden, carrying all these worries and fears around all the time. I'd love to just...feck it off in to the garden, for example, and skip about eating Nutella from the jar and not sodding worrying for a bit. Unfortunately, when I shut the dog in the garden he just barks to be let back in

[recall]

I'll have your dog if you have my mole ....?

[recall]

I remember my Dog licking wet varnish once.....that fucked me right up for two days

[recall]

and another one fell in the river Exe....nearly died trying to rescue her

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

Mine's just a bastard with other dogs sometimes. All easily pre-empted and possible to deal with, but my arseholing brain wants to make it in to a disaster on a Biblical scale. Today, I shall eat cake and listen to cheesy '80's pop and not give a fuck

[recall]

and the one who fell in the river also ran into a field and started eating a big smelly yellow toadstool

[recall]

My varnish licker was a bastard with other dogs, and sometimes blokes. I was going over some stepping stones with her once and a child was coming the other way, I saw a look of horror on the child's face and when I looked, she was curling her lip and baring her teeth, all sneaky and quietly. Had to get a muzzle in the end, so I could relax. (It stopped her licking varnish too )

[sweetkitty]

Fuck off anxiety if it weren't for you I could have bundled the DC in the car took them down the coast for chips and an ice cream, instead I'm stuck in here as I'm too fucking scared to go out. Too scared of driving them anywhere in case I have an accident and something happens to them.

[FreelanceMama]

Fuck off anxiety. Fuck off "But what if...". How dare you come into my home. I will break your fucking arms off and use them to beat your skull in, Anxiety, before you touch my baby boy and contaminate him with your cruel, selfish, evil ways.

The only time you can't touch me is when I am living life at my son's pace - he lives in the present moment and is fascinated with life and so quick to be happy. Being with him and focusing on him is like meditating.

So fuck off you bastard and get the hell away from my family.

(Anyone see the Dementors in HP films and find them oddly familiar...?)

[recall]

yes freelance I recognised them straight away.

Anxiety you are a bully ! A nasty fucked up life sucking sinister bastard.

[recall]

Fuck off and let me stop cutting up grapes into four
Fuck off and stop me pouring boiling water over our chicken's eggs
Fuck off and let me stop using too much hand gel
Fuck off and let me stop pouring boiling water over chopping boards
Fuck off and let me stop throwing good food away
Fuck off and let me stop googling images of malignant melanomas
Fuck off and let me stop googling symptoms of meningitis
Fuck off and let me stop checking my neck for lumps
Fuck off and let me wash my boobs in the shower without feeling sick
Fuck off and let me drive in the ice
Fuck off and let me stop checking my turds for blood
Fuck off and let me stop checking my children aren't dead every morning
Fuck off and let me stop repeatedly walking back to the car to check the handbrake is on
Fuck off and let me stop feeling sick when the phone rings
Fuck off and let me stop feeling sick when I receive mail
Fuck off and let me stop expecting to see blue flashing lights at my house when I come home

Fuck off and let me love my children in peace !!

[recall]

That told the bastard !

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

I've just made a date with a dog behaviourist. This will either make me feel more confident in handling my bastard dog, or cripple me with a whole load of new anxieties. Bollocking hell