The Cybergarden - Late Summer Edition

[madmouse]

Sorry been unfaithful, lots going on. But making myself useful - here's your new thread x

Ignore this if it's naff or useless, but in case it helps, here's a little meditation. (I find I can only meditate when someone else is leading.)

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You're coming out of the flat into the cybergarden.

Brrr. It's a bit chilly. You can smell honeysuckle on the night air.

You're on the terrace. The moorish fountain is tinkling.

There's a lamp by the fountain. The light is warm, and glistens in the running water.

It makes patterns. They run and flicker, changing, moving, always there.

The water picks up colours: now the yellow flame; now the blue tiles; now dazzling white light; back to yellow.

It's very, very peaceful in the garden.

The trees rustle in the breeze; the fountain gurgles softly.

The colours dance endlessly in the water. They weave and change.

It's safe here.

A nightingale begins to sing from the tree. It's a beautiful, clear song.

You can talk back to the nightingale. You can say anything you want. There's no one to overhear you.

It's always safe in the garden.

A huge, bright moon illuminates the terrace. You can see all round you. Nothing's hiding.

The nightingale sings.

Thanks for the Tianc, and hope it helps upward to feel better.
We're all hoping you'll soon get over the blip, including the team who keep phoning you. Do you think it might help if you were to write down what you want to tell them, so at the next call you're not distracted by any emotional feelings and can simply read out what you want to communicate to them?
It does sound a difficult situation, if you're being upset by phone calls in your own home. Is there any one person you'd prefer to talk with at present?

That was a lovely meditation, Tianc, and thankyou. Sorry to post at the wrong time, and I do hope it helps to make upward feel more relaxed.

I'm going to have to leave it.

Hope everyone has a good night.

Thanks TIANC , that's a lovely visualisation :)

shodatin , I don't mind who I talk to - just need to work out the best way - maybe tomorrow I'll try and be outside at tea time anyway.

Good luck for tomorrow.

Hope you get some decent rest tonight. x

Hello all - you won't know me (though am known to Kizzzie and Madmouse) but I have lurked on this long standing thread now and then and remember it was started for Snowmash. Was just wondering if any of you know how she is. If you are reading this Snowmash, would like to know how you are.

Glad you have had shodatin & TIANC "with" you tonight , upward ,- can't think of better companions . So sorry to have been absent but we had to nip over to see a relative .

Incredibly glad you're talking to us & hope we can support you through this blip . You ' ve expressed the siyuation really clearly , which I'm sure is a good sign for a quicker recovery .
So admire your efforts to keep calm through this & am sure it's " the dark before the dawn " .

< prayers & thoughts for swift recovery >.

Hi NanaNina - sorry , you don't know me but I hope don't mind if I PM you re : your question . I remember you often helped snowmash & it's good to see you again - please come back as often as you can . lemon balm

That was a deeply calming scene , Tianc , & I hope upward is drifting into a peaceful sleep now .

I don't think you caused offence as such , Tianc - just fleeting nausea that the poor unlovely slugs could be any more horrid . Am thrilled at thought of your neighbours' cat actually presenting her staff with fuschias . ( I 'd be very pleased with a gift of live frog too ) .

Many thanks shodatin for your very innovative tip to use cardboard , which I'll definitely use . I "sent" dh out earlier to the pumpkin with a paintbrush & a puzzled expression .

News of my auntie's fledgling sparrow ... she took it back outdoors to try again to see if she would emerge , & bird became very excited . The moment the door was opened , she flew straight into the hedge where the other sparrows live and has been accepted by them , despite being reared by humans . Not only that , but the bird comes to my aunt every day & sits on her finger for her tweezerfull of mealworms

Thank you both for your sterling work tonight & hope we can all sleep , not exactly free of worrying for upward , but in the knowledge that she's made herself share things even during low times , which hopefully means help / recovery arrive faster .

Oh hob that's so exciting! Wow!

Gosh, I do hope the sparrow continues to settle in to its wild environment, and learns out to feed itself as well as get treats from its humans.

Didn't realise I'd been away from laptop so long, and sorry I missed saying a goodnight to upward, who is hopefully having a healing sleep. I sometimes wake up in the morning with a solution available to a problem, and I hope it happens for you.
We do have some really good news this evening; I'm thinking of the rescued sparrow able to find companions at last, and yet returning to "Mum" for meals, and the fuchsias donated by the thoughtful cat.
Thanks hob for making excuses for my squeamishness with slug death description, and to Tianc, please just ignore my comment.
Will say "goodnight" now - sleep well all, including NanaNina and usual suspects.

And thank you for still promising the blue thistle seedlings, after I'd made your day icky, shodatin. Hope it improved from there...

Never heard of the bran trick - must try that, as would love to leave bird-friendly slugburgers. (At the moment I put the pellets under saucers, so at least the birds don't get the poisoned corpses.)

Sorry, seem to be slug obsessed today. NONE in the cybergarden tho!

Bed time here after very busy day. Hope we all sleep well and have good days tomorrow.

Afternoon all & hope everyone is having a peaceful day . Thinking of you upward - hope you can talk to staff about this miserable feeling you get indoors , but I imagine you're worried about doing so You really need trained support through it .

It sounds as if you've talked to someone at the day hospital about it & they've suggested imagining the unpleasant hovering feeling is in front of you , & speaking to it / telling it to go away - is that right ? I've heard of that technique & staff should know about it / be able to find books about it for you , but they will probably be more concerned about why you're getting this sensation , & how to help it leave you through more conventional techniques .

I know you can't face even more side effects from a dosage increase but there is hopefully a way of helping this blip which won't leave you feeling as awful physically as the side effects often do , but helps you recommence your recovery .

at slugburgers , Tianc . Very cconscientious of you to take care the birds don't eat pellety ones , & thanks to you & shodatin for endlessly patient garden tips .

shodatin , I owe you an apology from earlier in the week , as I completely forgot you don't text, & didn't mean to depress you by reminding you about security bleeper .. Brilliant that your good friends live opposite & would notice a signal if you were up to placing one .

Thank you & Tianc for interest in young sparrow , & I promise you my auntie is very wary of it relying on her now so is leaving it to its own devices as it learns to forage . It amazes me that bird went from hatching to fledging in 3 & a half weeks . Around here we do sometimes see "teenage" birds who've left the nest , following a parent around & pestering for extra rations - very funny to see as the parent looks so fed up .

Hope the bank holiday gives all lovely thread people a nice break from normal routine . Sun has come out
Lots of love to you upward

Really appreciate news of young sparrow, hob, and so pleased that your auntie knows how it should be raised and is doing all the right things for it. Have previously seen "teenagers" asking humans for food, and guessed they had a foster-parent at some time in their short lives. Maybe my blackbird had a similar human nanny, as it seems unafraid.

Hope today's a better day for you, upward, and that at least one of the professionals is being understanding and helpful at this difficult time. Am personally glad that *hob" knows something about how to deal with this, and wish I could be half as helpful and understanding.

Hob, no apology due at all, and I should really make the effort to learn texting. Had a visit from opposite neighbour this a.m. who left card with details of their proposed seven-week Australian trip - glad they're due back before
Thai friend leaves for Christmas/New Year (being selfish about their visits).

This holiday has just flown past, and apart from usual phone/Skype chats I've really only done some furniture re-arranging and garden clearing. Hope everyone else enjoyed the extra day, without getting wet.

Everyone's helpful on this thread, shodatin They haven't talked techniques, hob - but I can ask if when I go in tomorrow.

I'm glad you had a productive sounding day, shodatin, and hob that your bank holiday went well. madmouse and family, that you had some time to yourselves, and TIANC that you're getting back into your routines - I hope you're not needing to recover.

I'm going to wish everyone a good night now, I really need to just get through til tomorrow now.

Goodnight upward, and thankyou for making the effort to post while you're not in a good place - hope you'll feel better for a rest and that tomorrow will be a better day.

Goodnight from me too , upward & you are absolutely lovely to take an interest in our days when you're having a horrible one . Thanks for answering that you could ask about that type of technique if you like .

So hope you find the strength to go in tomorrow & get support . No one wants you to feel this stressed .

< hands upward some of shodatin's lavender & Tianc's jasmine >

< Pussycat curls up with upward for the night >

Thank you for brilliant post earlier , shodatin , & I 'll say goodnight now in case you're off to bed before I "answer" . Peaceful night to all , with stars .

Hope today passed as well as possible, Upward, and you've managed to "switch off" and get to sleep OK.

Thank you so much for the kind thoughts - yes, getting back into my rut routine now. But invigorated by the possibility of change; when I'm stuck indoors the days can flow into each other frighteningly.

shodatin rearranging and clearing sound tiring but very satisfying! Very glad to know you won't be left without visitors while your friends gad about. ( at the gadding, even tho I've had such a lovely hol.)

hob your family seem so very gifted with animals, domestic and wild. Hope your long weekend has been good.

And here's to a good night's sleep for us all.

Thinking about upward loads today & really hoping she doesn't have to carry on feeling that she can't disclose full extent of current problem . She so deserves support & understanding .

Wow at bank holiday achievemnts , shodatin - at first there I thought you meant the whole summer You will really miss your good friends opposite for that length of time but we'll happily join you in chatter if you're bored , heh heh .

Ah Tianc , massively good wishes for possible changes to routine . It's a grim feeling you describe and the frustration must be torture to one as with such a hungry active mind & active spirit .
Thank you , b h weekend was a good chance to see ILs etc but it's been a rotten week for dh , whose mum has been seriously ill for ages . To top it all , concert tickets he bought last year as a big treat for me have gone missing ( no chance of getting in without actual tickets ) & he's hurt his back out of the blue just before his only family history trips ... perhaps it will improve but I don't think he should undertake hours of driving . Feel rotten for him but he refuses to grumble .

On a happy note , our dear friend has fixed a wedding date - it's in only a month so I hope all goes smoothly .

Thank you for indulging me with my wildlife stories . My neighbour is incredible at saving birds from the jaws of cats Tianc , & each year helps the latest local foxes by feeding them ( I know there are strong arguments against this ) .. Her Felinity sometimes goes with her to investigate , & has been observed to nuzzle noses affectionately with fox cubs .

apologies for typos ( couple of "actives" for you Tianc )

Loved hearing about adolescent birds asking humans for food , shodatin - had no idea that happens

Ive been away for a few days visiting family - lovely to see them all.

Im so sorry about your blip upward. Bloody things Blips . Be very very kind and gentle till it eases. Thinking of you x

Hi everyone else

< waves > hi kizzie ! Lovely to see you & glad you enjoyed family visit .

upward will be pleased to see you after what will probably have been a hard day whether or not she felt ablle to go to the day services

for her & all of us when we can drop in

Thanks for the

I think tomorrow they decide if I continue day services or not (already been 2 weeks). Not sure when I'll see psych. I am thinking of everyone, just a little hard to be me at present