Insomnia friends; bye bye 2010 the year of bad sleep, hello 2011 the year of good sleep!

[BeckyBendyLegs]

How about this then everyone?

GetDown you are doing such a great job, the first few weeks are a tumble of hormones and emotions and it sounds to me as if that is what you are going through. I cried every day for the first 2-3 weeks and they were happy, sad, tired, exhausted tears all rolled into one.

Arcadia I think the CBT has helped hugely. I still get stressed but it has helped me realise that I am stressed about whatever it is, deal with it, and turn the negative thoughts into something a bit more positive. I don't think a year ago I could have gone out until 2/3am (like I did this saturday) and not go into total panic mode about sleep and how I'd cope on Sunday.

Boo everyone! How is everyone?

Hi all, missed your last post becky, sorry. Where is everyone?! Sleeping well, I hope.
Feeling a bit weird as one of my good friends has just had her first baby and it looks like she was out of hospital and home practically the same day and seems really happy. It still stirs up difficult feelings for me ,as I go back over how it was for me and how horrific those first few days and weeks were. I wonder how things could have gone differently and how it would have been. I know there is no point thinking like that, but I still do. Also I am of course happy for her and want her to be OK.
Sleep still better but still taking low dose pills (though managed three nights without them last week). Am trying homeopathy next week, as I can get it through health insurance with my new job, to see if I can stop taking the pills altogether.I get to talk about myself for an hour in a half, which I know I'll enjoy!

p.s. getdown I just want to say I had no mixed feelings at all about your lovely birth story - so happy that it went so well for you this time round! Hope you're still enjoying it. The photos are beautiful.

Arcadia I found homeopathy really useful, it really helped me. I can't remember what I took but it got me from herbal tablets to nothing so it could help you too I'm sure.

I've just come to the conclusion that I just don't 'do' the baby stage very well, after three babies, and if I'm honest I really did not cope very well with the first 6 weeks, even 12 weeks, and only started to feel better at about 4 months onwards and even then I still found it hard until they were one. Some people are just very lucky and have lovely experiences and lovely first few months, some don't and it's not fair but that's just how it is I think. Now Mr Toes is nearly two and he chatters away about anything and everything, he asks for cuddles which is so sweet, he takes upsy daisy with him everywhere, and a muslin square, and he asks me if he can watch 'CBBCD' as he calls Cbeebies. And as they grow and develop and change so this parenting lark does. I love the fact that I can talk to DS1 about lots of things now he's nearly eight, and DS2 is at that lovely five-year-old giggly cuddly stage. I feel so lucky to have these lovely boys.