Insomnia friends; bye bye 2010 the year of bad sleep, hello 2011 the year of good sleep!

[BeckyBendyLegs]

How about this then everyone?

That's great arcadia I love it when you get moments like that. Are things going better with DP at the moment?

Hmm not that great with DP actually but hoping it will improve once he has heard about his redundancy and once the spring kicks in - he gets really down in winter.
That's partly why it's weird that I've been feeling good but I'm not going to question it too much!
Thought I should share the good as well as the bad .

I'm understanding more now about the hideousness of emetephobia. Urgh, what a night!

At 9:30 last night, heard DD do what sounded like an almightly coughing fit. Ran upstairs and was faced with a scene of total devastation! Sick ABSOLUTELY EVERYWHERE. All over her face, all in her hair, down her pyjamas, all over her bed, pillow all her covers, the bed, headboard, carpet, skirting boards, chair and footstool, landing, bathroom floor, toilet and just about every surface you could think of!

Just didn't know what to do first. It was hideous. Started with DD -- gave her a bath and washed her hair whilst DH tried to make an attempt on the rooms. Arghh it was awful. Sat DD downstairs in front of the TV with a bowl whilst DH and I tried to clear up, put huge pile of washing on etc.

She was sick about another 5 times, inevitably going on her freshly washed hair, clean pyjamas, dressing gown and our sofa. Stayed up with her till 11:30 before she seemed to have stopped being sick. Put her to bed and within a minute she was sick again all over her fresh clean sheets and covers. So started the process all over again. Arrghhh

Finally got to sleep after midnight, but she kept coming into our room and we finally gave in and let her sleep in our bed. At one point she started wretching and I thought she was going to be sick all over me and our bed so I leapt up in a panic. Thankfully she didn't bring anything up. But what a night! Feel shattered now!

Oh GetDown!!!!! It's so horrible when this happens. Poor you and poor your DD. It amazes me where it all comes from?? I hope she feels a bit better today - lots of small sips of luke-cool water and TLC today for both of you (the TLC only for you that is, you can drink more than water!).

Hope things improve quickly now Getdown and that all your washing dries quickly too. Big hug xx

Just had a little cry. DH is at work today and am feeling overwhelmed by all the washing / mess / sicky smell. Trying to motivate myself to go out but weather is not helping. Texted my best friend to see if she was around but she just sent me a very brief message back to say she was out all day.

Hi getdown sorry you had such a nightmare last night and you're feeling a bit down today. Wish I could pop round for a cup of tea and to give you a hand! When will DH be back? Is DD perking up today?

Hey getdown how are you now? xx

thanks so much arcadia and madmouse lovely to have friends on here. I wish you could pop round for a cuppa too! I wouldn't inflict the sick cleaning on you though!! I should have arranged to meet up with someone today, knowing DH was at work, but left it too late. Have had a bit of a lonely day Silly me. Ah well.

DH will be back by 6 so not too bad. Have disinfected the entire bathroom (amazing how it gets everywhere isn't it) and am trying to eradicate the smell in DD's room -not quite succeeded yet.

She is having a monster nap in the pushchair so was obviously very tired after last night.

Hope everyone is ok. madmouse how are you feeling? xxx

Not long til DH gets back then, that's good. i don't like having a day with nothing planned either, especially at weekends. Hope you have a better evening and a better night tonight x

Hey wake up insomniacs!
Hope everyone is sleeping really well and that is why it is quiet on here.
How are you feeling now, Frikadela? Is the fluoxetine kicking in a bit now?

Hi everyone - getdown hope things better this morning ! I really really hate it when someone is sick.

Ive just sneaked in here to hide. Having a difficult few days. Im in the process of reducing my medication a little. i need to because was really struggling with drowsiness on the current dose and my journey to work is a 100 mile round trip most days. Taking it at different times of the day didnt make any difference so needed to reduce.

Anyway - Im trying to go from 50mg to 25mg. Its difficult to get an exact equivalent but 50mg is equivalent to somewhere between 20 & 10mg of prozac/citalopram and 25 mg somewhere between 10 and 5mg of prozac/citalopram.

Most people would just do a straight drop but ive had withdrawal probs in the past. So Ive done 12 days on 45mg, 12 days on 40mg and now on 37.5mg which Im planning to stay on for a couple of weeks.

I'll then stay on 35mg for at least a month before dropping again.

Does this sound vaguely ok to anyone used to ad's?

Im having to 'split' (ie take some out) of the capsules so its a real faff.

45 and 40 were fine but feeling v tense and irritable now - which is usually a sign that im being affected by a change in the nedication. Going to really try and relax next few days.

Also DH has just gone abroad for nearly two weeks which I never like anyway .

And finally (sorry going on so much today) ive been really affected by something happening locally to me. I wont say too much in case I upset anyone. but basically a mum with depression dying in our local shopping centre. Its really really been playing on my mind no matter how much i try and forget about it.

Anyway - sorry this is such a long moan !!!

x

Hi Kizzie good to hear from you. So sorry to hear about that story, sounds very sad :(. I know what you mean about some event, that may not be directly connected to you, affecting you. I was exactly the same when DH's colleague killed himself two years ago. I had never met him but he had been born the day before me (Christmas Eve, same year) and somehow that made me think that he would never get any older and I was lucky to be alive, every day after it happened, sounds weird I know. I was really affected for ages and felt so sad for his family.

Arcadia I'm awake! I'm sleeping ok at the mo although last night woke up at 11pm, just half an hour after falling asleep, and couldn't get back to sleep again for ages! That was so weird. I tried lots of Paul McKenna techniques including counting backwards and eventually I fell asleep again.

GetDown hope your little DD is better and that you are ok too x

hi kizzie don't worry about coming on here for a moan (though it doesn't sound like a moan to me, just that you're dealingwith some difficult things at the moment).That's what we are here for! Glad to hear you are managing to reduce your medication but sounds sensible to take it very slowly as you have been badly effected before.
Becky I was furious to be woken at midnight last night (having been asleep for an hour) by 'noises' next door - sounds like my neighbour had a drunk girl there, lots of giggling then basically shagging (didn't last long, but I was awake by then!) and I wasn't sure whether it was going to be an 'all-nighter' so was lying there angry and worrying about getting back to sleep. Yes the walls are too thin! Took me two hours to get back to sleep, then slept til 7am then a bit more til 8 then managed an hour snooze with DD mid morningso think I've caught up.But really annoying. especially as DD slept really well and I have been sleeping well lately(when I get the chance).

thank you for the messages (and getdown on FB) x

Have done everything needed to do at work today so planning on doing very little this evening .

Hope you all manage to get better nights sleep tonight! x

Hi Kizzie

You are doing so well hun - sending you a big hug xx

Hope everyone else is hanging in there and sleeping? My sleeping is chaotic rather than having lots of time awake. Still shattered though grrr. Work is a bit (too) mad. And the other two members of the support team are off for a week to prepare for exams so it won't get any better right now.

thanks madmouse x

How is everyone?

I'm not sleeping too badly atm, just been awake since 6 but that is fine.

Work is slightly too much right now but i jsut keep breathing and what I can' get done can't get done.

I didn't sleep well last night (letting anxiety about not getting enough sleep get the better of me). I'm sitting here trying to concentrate on my work and I can't and I'm so cross that I can't concentrate.

Becky can I swap that big stick of yours for a cup of herbal tea? Maybe that will stop you beating yourself up?

Shame we can't 'like' on mumsnet!

I can post it on your wall if you like?

Struggled again last night with getting to sleep, then waking early with stomach in knots full of anxiety. I need a big kick up the backside (I know, I should put that stick down - but I can't help it - feel like I am letting everyone down).

I am on my 'week off' on the pill - wonder if it is related to the way I am at the moment. My emotions are completely all over the place - can't stop crying at silly things too and shouted at DS2 about getting dressed (or not as the case was) and then felt absolutely full of guilt. DH missed his train this morning because I was telling him how churned up I was feeling at 6am this morning. I am convinced he's going to get fed up soon :(

Oh Becky:( Big Hug x

Sorry to hear you've been getting the horrible anxiety again. It could be related to the pill. I know when my period is due my anxiety is worse and it is atm. I'm feeling quite anxious as my DD2 is off school with an ear infection and I always start thinking what else is going to happen? Silly I know but I can't seem to help it.

Maybe keep a diary and you might see a pattern with your sleep and anxiety. I never managed to get on with the pill myself. I even tried the Mirena (big mistake). It's not easy is it?

Yes Becky put that stick down

No one is getting fed up of you - that's in your head.

Have a hug instead of a kick.

xxxx