I think I need to be sectioned. Please can someone support me

[INeedHelpImDeseperate]

I had a complete melt down last night. Completely lost it. Screamed shouted threw things smashed crockery and was violent towards DH
I have no idea why. It stemmed from some thing trivial. I have been suffering from depression for years I think. I usually 'just get on with things' -I really don't have another choice. I have been to embarrassed to see my GP, have either cancelled appointments or made up a fictional ailment at the last minute I just cant tell anyone how I feel.

Today DH has gone to work as normal. I am numb, I know I need help. I don't know how to get help.
I rang my surgery but they have no appointments left. I want to just walk in and collapse in a heap and ask for someone to please please make me feel normal. I can not cope. I am not coping. I want to curl up and sob and sob and sob. Or just walk out the door and keep walking until I dissapear and become invisible.

I hope you're doing okay and that the medications and crisis team are helping.

Hi INEED, hope you're having an OK weekend, and have managed to get some sleep... I think you've done amazingly well so far and your doctor sounds supportive, which is always such a help. Keep posting on here, there's so much support available at all hours.

Hope things are going ok for you, INeed.

Best wishes.

Go in! this was me a few days ago and yesterday they had no appointments either but I explained and begged to see a nurse - when I went in my doctor was brilliant said I'd done the right being insistent and going in...first step! There are out of hours doctors too, have you tried calling NHS too? So much luck.

Just re-read sorry for crossed wires, sounds like they are being great and you're already in a better place. take care

Thank you to all who posted and helped me.

I have been in a bad place for the last couple of weeks.
I am feeling slightly more human now and wanted to say that I am very grateful for all of your kind words xx
Thank you to all of you lovely posters who probably saved me from self destructing.

I hope to be back soon to re-pay the favour and support you all xx

well don't freak out too much - getting angry is normal, feeling immensely sad is normal, getting really angry when you pride yourself on 'not being like that' (which personally I think is incredibly dangerous) is logically followed by a period of reflection, guilt and shock over why it happened - but don't worry that you are going mental - your body and brain have just kicked back at the stifling crap you have put up with for too long - use that energy to just drop everything, F.O. and do something good, go somewhere you are angry with yourself for never going to, and hang the consequences. You are trying to spread wings that have been locked in a cage - that's traumatic for anyone. Fly for a bit before you ask the authrorities to lock you up - I don't want you five years in a drug induced extra prison - the anger when you realise that too will be ten times worse.