Insomnia friends - I will sleep well tonight because I have told my unconscious I will- Part II

[madmouse]

Help we left it too late the old thread is full!!! Hope we all find this one!!!

Hi everyone

Glad today went well arcadia:)

I've had a nice day today tromping round Bedgebury pinetum in Kent with DH and dds. It was lovely and sunny and I think we walked about four miles so now feel pleasantly tired:)

GetDown I remember being hungry all the time too. Have you had any cravings yet?

Terrible night for me

Don?t think I got much more than 1 or 2 hours over all. I just don?t understand it, it?s so unfair! I have been soooo tired, yet I just couldn?t sleep! DH gave me a cuddle about 1am and we read our books for a while. But I was still awake till 4am ? then woke again about 5 Had a really sore tummy and feeling very sick.

The nausea is so much worse after a bad night too. Could barely face breakfast and kept wretching.

Have come into work, but going to struggle to get through today.

Oh Getdown sorry hun - remember it can be a bit like that in the early weeks with raging hormones and feeling uncomfortable. Well done making it into work, hopefully it will stop you overthinking things! Try not to get anxious - this was just a bad night and tonight like previous nights will be better.

Arcadia glad it went well

Hi Orangflutie

I'm doing ok, we had a fab weekend away despite none of us getting enough sleep - I strugged with the heavy duvet and the room being warm, dh was restless then from 3-5 ds was awake singing and chatting and dancing in his bed so dh took him in with us for a bit to stop him disturbing other guests. But we had two fab days - photos on fb!

Yesterday I realised that I am very well again but can still overdo things (revised at home for my exam and after each hour revising I did some chores, then cooking, then band practice...) so today I'm flat despite decent sleep and need to watch things. Good thing Tuesday is our slow day.

GetDown poor you:( Sorry you had such a bad night. Try and take it easy today. Do ginger biscuits take the edge of your sickness at all? I remember I was constantly going around with a packet in my handbag. So long as I kept nibbling I felt better. Hopefully you'll have a better night tonight.

Madmouse glad you had a good time at the weekend despite lack of sleep. It's always difficult in a strange place isn't it? and your ds in with you too. I know what you mean about feeling well but then doing a bit too much, I do this too. In fact I'm not good at being still and need to work on it! At least you recognise when you need to rest. I'm trying to have a quieter day today too, despite dds being on half term. I'm hoping they're quite worn out from yesterday and don't mind staying in a bit today. The weather's not good here today anyway so perfect excuse to stay in.

Hi GetDown Hope you are OK. you will be fine it is a massive adjustment mentally and physically when you are first pregnant. Well done for getting yourself into work, it's hard when you're not telling people yet as well isn't it? I remember when I was about ten weeks pregnant and work got really really stressful but I didn't want to tell anyone there that I was pregnant.
Hope you get through the day OK. Sounds like your DH was lovely to you in the night! .

Hi GetDown I've just tried a cup of that Rooibos Vanilla tea. Yummy:)

Hope you've been OK at work today x

home from work now.

Sooooo tired.

I hate nights like that where I hardly sleep at all and there is no obvious explanation

I'm going to go and change the bed sheets now in the hope that nice fresh sheets will be easier to sleep in

orangeflutie - yes that tea is great. I've been having it with milk as a replacement to normal tea. Really like it!

arcadia how has work been? How many days a week are you doing?

madmouse glad you had a good time away

I love sleeping in a freshly made bed - i did it last night and it so helped me to drop off. If I'm ever rich I will pay someone to change my bed every day!

oh good madmouse Also quite fancy a bath, but am I being neurotic that baths in early pregnancy are not a good idea?

So I woke up this morning feeling surprisingly normal? no sickness or anything really. Just thought it was because I?d had a better night sleep-wise.

But thought I?d reassure myself by doing another test. It was negative

Waited and waited for that second line to appear but it didn?t.

Felt a bit shocked, thought maybe it was faulty. Came back 15 mins later and there was the faintest of faintest of faintest lines, barely visible. Not the kind of line you?d expect at 5 weeks pregnant anyway.

Went to the loo before I left and there was blood

Am at work, sitting at my desk trying not to cry.

oh sweetheart - i was scared this would be it when I saw your facebook status

big warm tight hugs and thinking of you

xx

Oh GetDown I've just come in from work and read your post. You poor thing:(

So sorry:( xx

Get down im so sorry . You poor thing.

Thinking of you x

thanks

was coping ok, kind of.

But went to the loo and there are lots of horrible clots For some reason that has just tipped me over the edge.

Just feels like all my hopes and dreams were there in the bottom of the toilet and I am having to flush them away.

I can't stop crying.

Of course you are crying - a miscarriage is just horrible

Have you been able to talk to your dh?

I told him about the negative test this morning.

He doesn't know about the blood.

He is on jury service so I can't call him.

Oh no what bad timing

Thinking about you both...

Poor you GetDown, I'm in tears for you here. I haven't been able to log on as I've been at work all day. I feel for you so much. Thinking about you. xxx

thanks arcadia

think it's fair to say it's not been a great day for me

Oh Getdown I'm so very sorry

I usually only lurk on this thread but had to come on to give you a big hug. Be kind to yourself. Are you able to take a couple of days off work? Hope you are ok

:(

sending you virtual hugs getdown
i've only just caught up on the thread since last week.

can you take tomorrow off work? are they understanding enough that you could tell them the real reason?

thanks bluejeans and countrylover i am grateful for you all that I can share my loss with you.

thankfully I only work mon-wed countrylover so don't need to be in work today or tomorrow. I did struggle in yesterday but only do 3 hrs on a wed anyway. I just hid at the photocopier most of the time.

Feeling a bit flat. Not crying anymore which is good. The lack of nausea is nice, but also a bit... well.... sad.

I didn't mean to kill the thread

I think I might need to step away for a while.

Spent too long on MN yesterday posting on the MC thread and then getting all hurt and upset because I was ignored (they seem quite a close knit cliquey group). It just made me feel worse rather than better, and then I thought, this is ridiculous, I need to have a reality check and get a life

sorry guys. Hope you are all sleeping well x

Getdown you are being a silly sausage factory and you certainly haven't killed the thread you nutter!!

Don't you go anywhere, it is lonely enough on here without Becky

I've not posted on here a lot because I've had a lot on my mind and it just hasn't happened (been struggling a bit)

When's Becky back?

Hi GetDown you've definitely not killed this thread . I've been thinking about you a lot and how life can be so unfair:( Don't feel you can't talk on here, you were very kind when I needed it.

Speaking for myself I didn't come on here yesterday because I didn't think I had anything particularly interesting to write and I've been sleeping fairly well lately. Having said this I've had a couple of disturbed nights this week due to my youngest dd having bad dreams and seeing witches etc in her room. This is largely my fault as I hadn't managed to change the lightbulb in her nightlight. I have done now, amazing what a couple of disturbed nights will do:)

As you can't speak to your DH at the moment is there anyone else you can talk to? It's comforting to know you're not alone in your feelings and you're right in thinking that you might need more RL comfort and may be feeling far too vulnerable for cliquey threads on here at the moment as it's still early days. I have to admit when I was feeling very low a couple of weeks ago I looked at a big bereavement thread and felt that was too cliquey for me too.

Thinking of you today x