Thank you Very. They look really nice. I think I'd like them. I do like very spicy and chilli things. Even more so on this diet. I need the spice because else I get bored so easily.
On tuesday, I went to morrisons (rare) before having my eyes diabetically screened (photographed with horrible stingy drops), for retinopathy. I bought a small pot of pistachios and same small pot of garlic and chilli green broad beans but they were vile, so I threw them away. Wished I'd had some of your chilli munchy seeds.
Right. I had a disaster yesterday. On my first day of being strict.
Dh and I had a HUGE argument Friday. Our worst ever. We only have one once a year or so. But this was bad. It started with talking about how both of us, having lost weight, had put it back on, and need to get back on it. Dh is very sensitive about the issue of weight, because he is very big. I thought I was helping and being supportive. But he doesn't see it that way. Then it progressed onto everything else, under the sun! Then it turned into every personal trait we hated about eachother, and every gripe we had. and ending up me really really shouting and swearing at him.
we haven't spoken since. Barely.
So he's off looking after the kids. fro most of 1/2 term. does loads of cleaning, shopping cooking. I come home to dinner. (I normally do 90% of this all), so I was very pleased.
Apart from the fact that I hadn't actually told him that Id started back on this woe, very strictly.
I'd eaten nothing for breakfast. Only water. Tea at work.
Lunch, leftover frozen home made meal of courgetti with meatballs, with lots of sainsbury's chipotle chilli flakes, that I grind, (keep a pot at work - works brilliantly - note what I said before about needing the curry/chili/hot taste even more these days) - 337 calories. Total for the day , so far.
So I return home feeling really virtuous.
But I'm greeted by dinner of farfalle pasta, carbonara, with peas, bacon and mushroom.
And I feel obliged to eat it.
And Dh announces , in the shopping that day, he's bought me a carrot cake and also a coffee and walnut cake.
And later, after dinner, because I've had to eat the carbs, I miscalculated my insulin, so now I'm hypo.
I have to drink some lucozade. And I offer to make dh a cup of tea. And we have a slice of said carrot cake. Which is normally lovely and moist. But this one is dry and tasteless.
And so now I've eaten 454 calories for the pasta.
and 425 for cake.
Total 1215 for the day.
I am so cross with myself.
This morning Dh offers me the pasta, to take to work, and I say thank for making it, I'm very sorry, I cant eat it, I'm trying to go strict, low carb.
Ie I'm hinting,. laying the foundations.
But I have to skirt round it, because of how delicate we are, post Friday argument.
What a mess.
In the freezer I have 12, takeaway silver containers of leftover meals, roasted peppers, etc. This was one of Dh's criticism in the argument from friday!!
I took one yesterday.
Today I've taken another, cauliflower curry. Which is very hot and spicy. Should do the trick at least re my tastebuds.
The solution to Dh and I. And sticking to the programme. Generally. I fear. Are going to be trickier...... 