I'm sorry if this has been talked about before, I've failed to see anything though, and I started a thread about this but then deleted and though would post here with you swimmers.
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Anyway, I'm a guy in my early 30's and have been going swimming for the past 6+ years to keep myself fit... I say I swim but since last January I've had a membership that's not been used.
I started putting weight on a few years ago, I have turned to food for certain reasons which I now know yet didn't then, and anyway, so in 2015 I started putting weight on which I myself started to notice as I've always had a thin frame, and it put me off going to the pool as I feel really self-conscious. The only person I feel comfortable being around in any state of undress is my wife and even then I'm beginning to see I'm shying away from that.
My wife says she likes me the way I am, but I can see I'm still gaining weight slowly. I'm scared if I carry on letting my fears get the better of me I won't go again and I'll just get fatter.
I'd like to do other forms of exercise but because of health reasons the only one I feel really comfortable doing is swimming. I'm my own worst enemy and I know the longer I wait the harder it will be, nevermind the more money I'll waste.
I have other issues which I'm sure we'll tackle at some point haha but can anyone tell me they've been in the same position? It sounds like a small problem but I won't even tell any family or friends, for some reason it's really bothering me, hugely actually. I know plenty of people that go to the local baths, or did, and I'd feel awful having everyone see me.
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I'm fat and don't want people seeing me at the pool.
Hope I haven't bored anyone. In a way I don't really know what I'm asking, as I guess I just have to get up and go anyway...