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I think I’m feeling down because a) January b) ds isn’t day napping much - but silver lining is that he sleeps through the night pretty much
C) I have a lot to do - I’ve got 6 viewings lines up so far this week, packing storage etc. Dh is working long hours as it’s january and year end (it’s always like this in January for him) so he’s not around a lot and I’m taking the brunt of everything.
D) family stuff. I said earlier that I’m the sounding board for everyone else’s issues. I know if I try to speak to someone about my issues (ie my mum) she’ll tell me that we all have problems etc etc.
Blah blah blah.
The drinking is because it’s there. Dh bought me a naice gin for Christmas. And it is lovely. And I have been enjoying it. We usually enjoy a bottle of wine of a Friday evening maybe another on a Saturday/Sunday. I’m having the odd glass because I can. Because it’s there. Because I feel I deserve it after a tough day. In reality it’s not doing me much good. Im tired but not sleeping well partly I suspect because I’m not drinking enough (water that is!!) and I’m not really exercising.
I will speak to someone in a couple of weeks if I’m not feeling any better. I think I need to. I can’t continue like this.
The plan for today and onwards is thus:
- drink more water and stay hydrated - I have a water bottle so will make sure I drink 2 of them a day.
- take multivitamin. I haven’t been and notice the difference.
- gym. Go. To. The. Gym. I’ve been making excuses. But today I’m going. I’m going to pick up Dm in a bit. And take her with me. She will walk ds in his buggy round the track then sit in the cafe and wait for me. I’ll be 30 minutes. It’s not long but as a start it’s enough.
- try and realise that it’s ok if “everything” doesn’t get done.
- stop the “what if” game in my head. We will find somewhere to live. We will not be homeless.
Oh and continue to be frugal etc.
Dh is helping as much as he can but with working long hours it’s tough on him too. I’ve scheduled my gym classes in so while logistically it’ll be a nightmare as I’ll have to get ready get Ds ready drive to dh’s work drop him off then hot foot it to the gym spin/body attack/yoga then come back to pick them up it’s doable. And I’ll feel better for it.
I’m scheduling an acupuncture session.
And am going to go back to practising meditation and mindfulness. Someone is doing a “things I’m grateful for” on instafacetweetbook so May try this. Three things each day.
And am going to try and follow the 52 small changes. Starting with water. More water. Hydration is the key. My brain feels dry and shrivelled. I suspect the fun part of me just needs to be rehydrated.
#stopmoping #ivereallygotnothingtomopeabout #thingscouldbealotworse
Grateful things for yesterday.
- lovely slunch. It was lovely. Aside from the odd conversations. Fil spoke loads with me re horses. He used to be a jockey. Fascinating stuff.
- dh and ds went for a walk yesterday morning. Leaving me Home to enjoy some quiet time.
- daffodils. On their walk they raised the hedgerows and picked me a bunch of daffs. Hoorah. Lovely bright happy yellow flowers to brighten up dull winters days.