I recently had "elective" surgery to reduce my risk of ovarian cancer in the future.
I am also unvaccinated.
My mental gymnastics as I tried to square away this conundrum left me genuinely nauseous. But eventually it came down to the fact that my risk of ovarian cancer is personally provable, while my risk from Covid is not. I had a severe reaction to a measles vaccine as a child, and could only have other vaccines if I took anti-histamines in advance. I wasn't called for the vaccine despite being over 50. My fear of dropping dead from the vaccine due to my personal physiological peculiarities drove me to bury my head in the sand. My fear of dying under anaesthetic lead me to mentioning it to the anaesthetist who immediately ordered me Gabapentin which knocked me out for the few hours I waited for my surgery. I still went under fully expecting not to wake up. When I did I sobbed with relief. I'm not a generally anxious person, and even when I'm genuinely anxious I was brought up not to make a fuss, so I try to muscle through.
I had Covid in the late summer, from a fully vaccinated person. My vaccinated DP did too. Our experience was the same - unpleasant but not even particularly respiratory- more gastric and fatigue.
My surgery consultant told me I had a 37% higher risk of death under anaesthetic if I had Covid. But I had to do a PCR and isolate for three days prior to the op, which would have been cancelled if I'd had Covid.....
For me the whole vaccination issue is immensely personal, and one small thing I currently have control over, and I can't be the only one in the approximately 6 million currently unvaccinated to feel similarly.
I am mask wearing and following all other mitigations.
The difference between the official narrative and personal experience is also part of the problem I think - my very frail end stage dementia MIL has tested positive twice in her care home, both times asymptomatic and the second time after vaccination. Four people at the same gathering as my DP and I caught Covid at, who were 50/50 vaccinated and had the same level if exposure did not catch it.
So Covid is less scary to me than the vaccine and also less scary than the attitudes of people to each other, the division being sown across society and the cavalier attitudes of those in power.