Anyone struggling mentally?

[AlandAnna]

I am.

Yep 😔
Feels never ending… it is never ending. Nothing has changed and it’s hard to know what to think any more. I’m double jabbed but unsure on booster now… just don’t trust this anymore. Husband unvaccinated… I am also not sure how I feel about this but his choice. Constant worry about one of us being seriously poorly, keeping my DS home from childcare because nursery is rife but also struggling to entertain him, upset we may not see family at Xmas… dreading January blues which will feel worse than usual! Oh it’s really tough!!!

[quote Fendidntdrake]**@AlandAnna* and @nojudgementhere*
Thank you so much. I have flagged my fears and concerns up with the organisation that supports me and they are looking for someone to cover New Year's Eve which is the worst day.[/quote]
That is great news - well done. Stay well
I will be sending thoughts your way. Remember spring and it’s soon the longest night x

@Fendidntdrake - I'm really happy to hear that there are people looking out for you. Sending lots of positive thoughts too. 💐

Yes I feel like we are going to be stuck like this forever I feel very very low

@AlandAnna and @nojudgementhere thank you again. I really appreciate your kindness.

to everyone who is struggling with it all

@Fendidntdrake

I'm in Wales and over the Christmas period of two weeks my therapist is away, my supported activity groups close and my hours with support workers are greatly reduced. I live alone and will spend a few hours with my mum on Christmas day but then there are three more days with no public transport so I can't see anyone and no support. Then new year and the same thing so I lose my support hours from the Monday. None of my needs change, bit everything shuts down. I struggle with suicidal.ideation every year in the week between Christmas and New year, and the thought of lockdown/greater restrictions in January (am in wales) is pushing me close to the edge. I am very scared

I’ve always hated how everything closes down for the end of the year show. Services that vulnerable people rely on often shut down for a good two weeks. Not everyone can play happy families with lots of Ho Ho Ho-ing While I’ve never been on my own at Christmas I always spare a thought for those that are and those that need their usual support services.

I wish it was a much shorter holiday.

Not sure there is anyone I know who isn't struggling. My group of friends all did ok up to this point. I think this is a step too far and its really affecting people now.

It will get better, I promise. All pandemic viruses turn endemic eventually.

[quote Schulte]@NothingIsWrong so sorry I recognise the husband with no emotional intelligence, I have one too and he has said the same things to me. It’s so hard. Do you have friends you can talk to?

I have a mental health assessment on Thursday and I can’t wait, I desperately need some support. Mostly because of DD.[/quote]
I have friends. They think I should divorce him. It's easier to stay put right now for the kids

I’m actually more “scared” of the potential for another lockdown or schools closing than I actually am of catching the virus.

I just had a big old cry in the Tesco car park. I realise it's because everything feels out of my control - as others say, it's not getting Covid that's become the issue, it's all the uncertainty around it, kids in and out of school, cancelled plans, uncertainty about seeing people and then for me I'm separated, going through divorce, house sale, fell very disconnected, lonely, overwhelmed.

I had to give myself a talking to in the car park. I need a list of practical things I need to do, I reminded myself of the good things that happened today and what will happen tomorrow.

Your thread, whilst I'm sad we're all feeling like this, has given me some comfort. Thanks.

Sorry you're all struggling. It's just shit at the moment. I was looking forward to a family get together on Christmas day but am now very anxious that DD's mates at uni are all coming down with covid, so I don't even know if she will get home. I miss her so much, really want her home. Think I've hit a new low today, it's just never ending.

I'm feeling so fed up with it all. Can't see it ending at all. This time last year when they rolled out the vaccines I actually had hope and positivity, but now, even with them we seem to be stuck on a treadmill of never-ending doom. I hate the uncertainty, I'm fearful for my job (again) if there is another lockdown. I'm also waiting for some screening for a condition I've recently been diagnosed with and can't see that happening for ages now. The whole thing is just shit.

Yes, I was chatting through it with a friend recently who made a throwaway comment "if there's nothing else you can do, feed the spirit." So that's what I'm focusing on.. Music, connection - everything comes back to connection, nature, meditation.

@Carinattheliqorstore1

I’m actually more “scared” of the potential for another lockdown or schools closing than I actually am of catching the virus.

Same. Schools closing again is my worst nightmare as DD’s mental health suffered so badly last time.

Yes. Extended family all overseas and haven’t seen them for two years, was supposed to be visiting in March but pretty sure it won’t be possible now. Normally get through UK Christmas by doing lots of fun family outings but now that doesn’t feel possible. Sick of the dark.

Yes a bit. I got married in September and it was amazing. So grateful to have been able to have had the day we wished for. Since then though I've been on a downer and now feel like we're going backwards. Trying to stay positive and get on with it though.

@Buzzinwithbez

Yes, I was chatting through it with a friend recently who made a throwaway comment "if there's nothing else you can do, feed the spirit." So that's what I'm focusing on.. Music, connection - everything comes back to connection, nature, meditation.

I really like that. Thank you for sharing. It has helped more than you know.

Me too. Live alone. Have ADHD. Find I cannot be motivated to do anything at all, deep despair at state generally of the nation, seems to be horrendous murders and incompetence and lies, every day. Hate the winter anyway and in particular another Xmas alone, but this feels like a very hard time ahead with Covid back on the menu

I just shake my head and think twat when I remember "Freedom Day" on the 19th July and Boris quote "on July 19th to say that really is the terminus and we can go back to life as it was before Covid".

Plus all the MN posts saying if only we lock down for long enough and hard enough we can get rid of Covid once and for all.

The reality is that the genie is out of the bottle, Covid is here to stay, the only question is how we react or deal with it going forward.

@awesomekilick

I can relate the general despair too. We try not to watch too much news. It's not at all helpful!

Sorry to hear you are finding things tough. x

@Buzzinwithbez

Yes, I was chatting through it with a friend recently who made a throwaway comment "if there's nothing else you can do, feed the spirit." So that's what I'm focusing on.. Music, connection - everything comes back to connection, nature, meditation.

Thank you, this really helped me to read, I will remember it.

Struggling a lot. The few plans I make in order to have things to look forward to keep getting blown up by Covid. It's so wearing. Latest my fragile Christmas plans have bitten the dust.

Drinking too much. Though have actually managed not to tonight.