Am I going to die :(

[Iwannabelikeyouohh]

My husband has just had a positive LFT.

I’m absolutely petrified. I’m extremely obese with a BMI of 40.

I am fully vaccinated but I have had two different vaccines. 1 AZ and 1 Pfizer.

I feel physically sick with worry. 😓

I have had some form of germaphobia for many years and Covid completely blew it out of all proportion. None of our family even went out for a walk for the first 4 months.

I wouldn't be going for a carvery or even contemplating going on holiday because even double jabbed, I was terrified.

I caught Covid from my DD and had very mild symptoms and now my fear of Covid has all but gone. Maybe the best thing for you now would be to get it. I know that sounds scary but the odds are that you'll be fine and afterwards you could start moving on.

Hi OP, sorry if anyone's mentioned this before but I gather there is some evidence that if a vaccinated person is exposed to Covid & doesn't contract it it not only shows that their acquired immunity to the virus is working well, but gives that established resistance an opportunity to build. Encountering the virus triggers the body to re-multiple the antibodies you have, in essence strengthening your ability to fight it off in future.

I hope this might offer a gleam of comfort & confidence.

You'll do yourself far more damage and the risks of other health problems should be more of a concern because of your debilitating anxiety.

2 different jabs from the research shows you've got a bit more protection than 2 of the same jabs.

Honestly, please try not to worry. Maybe if you do catch covid it might help unclench your feelings a bit because the risk of you dying is 0.01%. It's extremely low, low enough not to even give it a second thought. I have read the full thread but honestly, this will pass soon. Your husband and toddler will get better.

You'll have a covid free household in no time, whether you catch it or not.

Hope you all feel better soon!

How are you doing OP?

@YukoandHiro

Just feeling really anxious :(

My sister in laws Gran has now tested positive.
She saw her last Friday before they knew any of them were positive / had symptoms.

Only a matter of time for me.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@YukoandHiro

Just feeling really anxious :(

My sister in laws Gran has now tested positive.
She saw her last Friday before they knew any of them were positive / had symptoms.

Only a matter of time for me.[/quote]
Ten days from the onset of your DH's symptoms. After that, you can pretty much assume the vaccinations have done the trick.

@NeverDropYourMooncup

I don’t know when my DS started with it.
His 10 days is up next Wednesday. 10 days from the day of his test.

Only a matter of time for me.

It really isn't.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@YukoandHiro

Just feeling really anxious :(

My sister in laws Gran has now tested positive.
She saw her last Friday before they knew any of them were positive / had symptoms.

Only a matter of time for me.[/quote]
Well it isn't though because if your DS got it ten days ago and you haven't got it by now, you're not likely to get it. You're vaccinated. That does mean there's a very good chance you won't get it. I know people get it when they've been vaccinated but also absolutely huge numbers of people don't.

I repeat though, you really really need to address your anxiety more than you are currently doing now. Covid is never going away and you can't live like this, posting day by day on here being as anxious as you are. Like I said , you deserve to have the correct help, and not feel like this

@NeverDropYourMooncup

Exactly. Covid is never going away so how is my anxiety every going to go away.

I just don’t understand it. I don’t worry about flu like this, but then I guess flu isn’t as unpredictable as Covid. It doesn’t kill or hospitalise as many young people.

Relatively few young people are hospitalised let alone dying, unless there are underlying issues or unvaccinated. What did your therapist say? The longer time goes on the less it seems likely you will be ill.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@NeverDropYourMooncup

Exactly. Covid is never going away so how is my anxiety every going to go away.

I just don’t understand it. I don’t worry about flu like this, but then I guess flu isn’t as unpredictable as Covid. It doesn’t kill or hospitalise as many young people.[/quote]
Yes it does
It kills more children than covid does.

@LIZS

Relatively few young people are hospitalised let alone dying, unless there are underlying issues or unvaccinated. What did your therapist say? The longer time goes on the less it seems likely you will be ill.

@LIZS

So why is everything in the news / social media about young people being hospitalised with Covid?

What did your therapist say?

No much really. She just gave me some guided relaxation, an NHS leaflet about dealing with Covid anxiety and then said “I hope you stay safe and don’t become too unwell”…

Wasn’t very reassuring to be honest.

I know it probably won't help, but look, every member of your family has it practically, and none of them are particularly ill, as far as I can tell.

@BlameItOnTheBlackStar

But none of them are obese like I am.

My sister in laws is very overweight, she’s probably a few stone lighter than me.
She’s unvaccinated and she’s feeling better now.

I wish that made me feel a bit better but it doesn’t because she’s 6 years younger than me and also doesn’t have psoriasis or inflammatory arthritis.

Because most of those shown have turned the vaccine down or only had one dose and it supports the vaccine programme to show them as take up in under 30s has not been as good. Don't assume what is on the news reflects the actual demographics. The vast majority who have covid cope at home with a mild illness or no symptoms. Remember more people die of other causes like cancer each day than covid.

Well its only natural to worry. Especially since we have all been fed a diet of continuous scaremongering since the pandemic began. I know this doesn't perhaps make anxiety any less [ I suffer for it for different aspects of my life] but most people are fine.

You have done your best with getting vaccinated. You do what you can to keep yourself safe. Now your ds has it, its not a given that you will catch it from him. I work in a school and so far so good. They say children have less ace receptors so transmit less.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@BlameItOnTheBlackStar

But none of them are obese like I am.

My sister in laws is very overweight, she’s probably a few stone lighter than me.
She’s unvaccinated and she’s feeling better now.

I wish that made me feel a bit better but it doesn’t because she’s 6 years younger than me and also doesn’t have psoriasis or inflammatory arthritis.[/quote]
I know it doesn't help with now but is it possible that you could do something about your weight or work towards it in some way. That may help your anxiety if you can gradually get down to a weight you feel puts you at less risk?
Also taking vitamin D. There has been research that says it can help.
Small steps for the long term. The vitamin D you could start taking today. Although if you are BF check its ok.

So why is everything in the news / social media about young people being hospitalised with Covid?

Because it's good clickbait

Go and find yourself some actual data. Your chance of being hospitalised is tiny.

@neveradullmoment99

I already take a breastfeeding multivitamin they contains Vit D.

[quote Iwannabelikeyouohh]@neveradullmoment99

I already take a breastfeeding multivitamin they contains Vit D.[/quote]
That's great then :)
Positive steps!

OP your literally choosing to ignore anything positive anyone tells you. This MN thread of nearly 500 messages, where you're picking and choosing the negative things only is not helping you.

Every day you come back with a new panic, and you work yourself up more and more.

Social media and sites like this are not alwsys helpful for people who are struggling to pick reality apart from the spiral of anxiety you're in.

Your therapy is not working, you need to go to the GP and you need to ask for more help, and quite likely medication.

It IS possible to feel better, but you need to be the one to break the cycle of only seeing the negative things (which is your anxiety at work there not allowing you to take in any of the positives that people are constantly telling you)... Asking for more help, and medication to calm your anxiety down is the first step you need to take.

You CAN feel better, you just need to ask for more help.

As I say, I suffer from anxiety for different things. My dh is a born non-worrier. I do actually wish I could be like him. He worries about nothing. Seriously! He says its a wasted emotion that does nothing helpful. He is right. Of course I still continue but I know what he is saying is correct. Worrying doesn't change anything. What would happen if you stopped?
Nothing!

@Iwannabelikeyouohh
First to apologise if this repeats anything someone else has posted as I haven't read the whole thread as it is quite long.
I just wanted to let you know that you've been through a lot and you need to be kind to yourself and recognise that you are strong and capable.
Unfortunately anxieties are illogical and can be extreme, and even when we know them to be illogical it is hard to ignore them. You sound like you are working really hard to manage your mental health issues and you should be proud for doing that in itself - many people with poor mental health find it too hard to even seek help and support.
For me my illogical anxiety is that falling (even off something just a few cm high) = death.

Re covid - you may get it, you may not. Try to deal with that when and if it happens. The chances of you being very sick are still low, even with your risk factors.

My boyfriend caught covid two weeks ago and we live together in a small house, single bathroom, single bedroom, etc. We were both at the wedding where we assume he caught it and didn't bother isolating from each other as we believed there was zero change I wouldn't also catch it. I didn't. Zero symptoms, negative LTFs and negative PCRs for me.
I carried on with my normal routine, as was allowed by the guidance. I just ensured I always wore my mask, I kept away from others as much as I could.

I think some people have been unnecessarily harsh on here to you, although it is probably well meaning, doesn't help when someone is going down the catastrophising rabbit hole.

Be kind to yourself, take things one step at a time, and try as best you can to not focus too far in the future.