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fireflylanegirls · 2021-04-08T13:05:12+00:00

I feel like my life is over. I literally couldn’t get out of bed this morning, the way I feel is just too bad. I spent over a year worrying about Covid, not just worrying, obsessing. Panic attacks, sleepless nights, I couldn’t focus on my family life, couldn’t concentrate because of the worry. I was finally vaccinated and although initially I didn’t feel any better, within a few weeks i started to feel so much happier. Then the shit news comes about the clots from the vaccine. I feel absolutely numb. I’ve spent the last 24hours just crying. I wish I’d never had the vaccine now. It’s been 4 weeks and I’m such a nervous wreck. My husband has had to drop our son at my mother in laws today because I’m in no fit state to look after him. I’ve called my GP and have been told to increase my Sertraline to 100mg. I absolutely hate living with this fear. I knew this vaccine was too good to be true 😩

Rubyrecka · 09/04/2021 17:35

learn.mytherapist.ie/p/overcoming-health-anxiety-using-cbt-and-neuroscience

This Dr does online courses if you can't afford to get private help.

They are informative and help during the time anxiety has a hold.

riromay · 09/04/2021 17:38

Are things like gofundme ok to post here? IF op wants to make one, I would like to contribute so she can get a private therapist.

LIZS · 09/04/2021 17:40

There is a Sertraline support thread under Mental Health where you may find others who have experienced similar and are further along than you currently are.

UCOinaUCG · 09/04/2021 17:42

@riromay

Are things like gofundme ok to post here? IF op wants to make one, I would like to contribute so she can get a private therapist.

I would absolutely not recommend this. I don't think MNHQ would allow this anyway.

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fireflylanegirls · 09/04/2021 17:45

@riromay

Are things like gofundme ok to post here? IF op wants to make one, I would like to contribute so she can get a private therapist.

@riromay

I do not want to make one.

That’s nice of you, but I really do not want anything like that.

I’m sure there are other therapist available for lower than £60 p/h.

I don’t own a credit card (never seen the point in them) but if it comes to it, I would have to get one to fund private therapy.

I’m seeing a mental health nurse on Thursday (just called the surgery to ask who my appointment was with as I really didn’t Fancy seeing the Dr I’ve just spoken to)

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stressbandit · 09/04/2021 17:46

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Boomchicka · 09/04/2021 17:48

Well done for speaking to the GP, OP.

Onjnmoeiejducwoapy · 09/04/2021 17:52

Good job! Get yourself a credit card, I got one recently and it’s scary at first but you should get no interest for 2 years or something like that. This is a crucial investment in your family, remember that. This is money spent on your kid’s future, so you can be there for them. You’re doing so good at pushing now for the help you need, keep on it and get your husband onboard

riromay · 09/04/2021 17:52

Oh, ok OP - did not mean to offend. I'm glad to hear you have other options to pay for a therapist or get a cheaper one etc.

I really hope you get better soon ❤️

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fireflylanegirls · 09/04/2021 17:53

@riromay

Oh, ok OP - did not mean to offend. I'm glad to hear you have other options to pay for a therapist or get a cheaper one etc.

I really hope you get better soon ❤️

@riromay

Thanks.

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fireflylanegirls · 09/04/2021 17:55

@stressbandit

I'm starting to think this is just a troll post now I'm sorry but people have tried so hard to rationalise these thoughts for you and I honestly think this thread is just not helping anymore, she's not going to listen to any one on here what is the point. It's just feeding into it even more.

@stressbandit

You’re right. (Not about the troll part)

I can’t listen. I’m not rational. Everyone is wrong and I’m right.

I’m an anxious mess.

My husband isn’t talking to me now, he’s spent all day telling me I’m my headache is a tension headache and is frustrated and pissed off.

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Peachee · 09/04/2021 18:00

I don’t think you need to be sectioned I would contact your local crisis team.. tell them what you have said on here.. you can google your crisis teams number.. they won’t section you. I really hope you get this sorted xx

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fireflylanegirls · 09/04/2021 18:03

@Peachee

I don’t think you need to be sectioned I would contact your local crisis team.. tell them what you have said on here.. you can google your crisis teams number.. they won’t section you. I really hope you get this sorted xx

@Peachee

I already did last night.

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fireflylanegirls · 09/04/2021 18:04

I’m logging out now.

You’ve all been so so helpful, I don’t want to drive you all crazier than I already have.

Will update next week after my GP appointment.
(If the blood clot hasn’t taken me by then)

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Peachee · 09/04/2021 18:05

Makes me laugh that people over the Internet think they are going to rationalise someone’s thoughts and make them miraculously see their point of view when they have a mental health condition. You can’t reassure an anxious mind it makes things worse!

yankeedoodlecandy · 09/04/2021 18:05

I get why your husband may be annoyed, it must be frustrating for him but Please speak to him, you really need him onside just now, you need someone to help fight your corner.

TiredoutMum93 · 09/04/2021 18:07

Sounds like your with me on the horrific anxiety front. We all have mega bad days with this shit show in our brain. I’ve taken up gardening spending a fortune on plants flowers trellis paint etc to keep my brain occupied. Distraction is the best from panic attacks. Until you stop and think wow I have no anxiety! one day in a few months you’ll look back at how far you’ve come. I’ve had to completely retrain my brain. Negative to positive. It can be done. Just tell your bad thoughts to do one and don’t give them any power. Shrug them off. Any thought is weird but don’t acknowledge it. Also get some fresh air!

whataballbag · 09/04/2021 18:14

OP I feel just awful for you. I'm in exactly the same situation as you and it's mentally exhausting.

Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

HANameChange · 09/04/2021 18:18

OP, I feel so bad for you as I used to suffer really badly with health anxiety, but there truly can be light at the end of the tunnel if you keep pursuing treatment.

In my case, the thing I was scared of was appendicitis, and I was CONVINCED that I was about to be struck down by it at any second, and would die in agony or have awful complications. There was nothing anyone could say to make me feel better, because it really COULD have just come on at any moment, and it's not even that uncommon. It got to the point where I would avoid going places that seemed even slightly out-of-the-way in case I had to be rushed to hospital, and I even ended up having abdominal pains which I'm sure were psychosomatic. They gave me an ultrasound scan in case it was ovarian cysts, but it was nothing. I even asked my GP to refer me to have my appendix taken out, as I genuinely couldn't see a way forward with this constant terror hanging over me.

In the end, I started on some antidepressants and after a while the fear just... went away. It's now almost 20 years later, my appendix is still in situ, and I don't think about appendicitis from one year to the next. If you'd told me this when I was going through it, I would NEVER have believed you. My fear felt completely real, and completely all-consuming.

I hope your appointment goes well, and that the increased dose starts to kick in and helps. Just sharing my story because I really recognise that feeling of being so convinced, and not thinking that the fear could possibly go away. Best of luck to you.

waterlego · 09/04/2021 18:27

OP, well done for speaking to the Dr and for finding out about next week’s appointment. These are all good steps on your road to recovery.

For all those shouting in capital letters/urging OP to try and get sectioned etc... I’m not sure that is helpful. We can all see that the OP is suffering from severe anxiety, and she is on her way to accepting that herself (or at least she is going through the motions of seeking further help, which is really positive).

The OP has stated that she is not suicidal, thankfully, and her child does not appear to be at risk. Yes, she is really struggling at the moment, but she has only been on the Sertraline for 6 weeks- that’s not very long in terms of these types of drugs. There’s a good chance they will help her, especially if she increases the dose which is what the GP has advised.

What good what being sectioned do for the OP? (Leaving aside the fact that it is very unlikely she would be sectioned anyway). I know it’s alarming but this is what severe anxiety looks like. Many of us have been there and lived to tell the tale.

janlevinson · 09/04/2021 19:06

@waterlego

OP, well done for speaking to the Dr and for finding out about next week’s appointment. These are all good steps on your road to recovery.

For all those shouting in capital letters/urging OP to try and get sectioned etc... I’m not sure that is helpful. We can all see that the OP is suffering from severe anxiety, and she is on her way to accepting that herself (or at least she is going through the motions of seeking further help, which is really positive).

The OP has stated that she is not suicidal, thankfully, and her child does not appear to be at risk. Yes, she is really struggling at the moment, but she has only been on the Sertraline for 6 weeks- that’s not very long in terms of these types of drugs. There’s a good chance they will help her, especially if she increases the dose which is what the GP has advised.

What good what being sectioned do for the OP? (Leaving aside the fact that it is very unlikely she would be sectioned anyway). I know it’s alarming but this is what severe anxiety looks like. Many of us have been there and lived to tell the tale.

Absolutely this. People who think that you can be sectioned for this level of health anxiety obviously have no idea of mental health services in the uk. I'll be honest and say that I've been this worked up about health issues many times in the past. Always due to strange but very real symptoms that no-one could get to the bottom of. Both my own and my childrens'. I've begged for help from the GP but there isn't a lot they can do. I think distraction is key while you get some help and wait for it to work OP.

OpheliasCrayon · 09/04/2021 19:11

People on MN really like to suggest people should be sectioned. As others have said I don't think they have the first clue what being sectioned a) involves or b) why it happens. I can tell those of you who are suggesting it that as OP has a young child even if she had much much more serious mental health issues than she does (not downplaying the severity of her anxiety though) sectioning her would still be an absolute last resort as they do not remove mother's from their children unless there really is no other option. So I would suggest to some PPs unless you know what you're talking about, which you clearly don't, suggesting that the OP should be sectioned is alarmist and not helpful

LIZS · 09/04/2021 19:15

@fireflylanegirls

I’m logging out now.

You’ve all been so so helpful, I don’t want to drive you all crazier than I already have.

Will update next week after my GP appointment.
(If the blood clot hasn’t taken me by then)

I think that is really sensible. Take a day or ideally longer off social media and focus on your lo. Good luck

userxx · 09/04/2021 20:32

@Peachee

Makes me laugh that people over the Internet think they are going to rationalise someone’s thoughts and make them miraculously see their point of view when they have a mental health condition. You can’t reassure an anxious mind it makes things worse!

I disagree, I found it a help when my thoughts were spiralling.

dappledsunshine · 09/04/2021 21:05

@OpheliasCrayon

People on MN really like to suggest people should be sectioned. As others have said I don't think they have the first clue what being sectioned a) involves or b) why it happens. I can tell those of you who are suggesting it that as OP has a young child even if she had much much more serious mental health issues than she does (not downplaying the severity of her anxiety though) sectioning her would still be an absolute last resort as they do not remove mother's from their children unless there really is no other option. So I would suggest to some PPs unless you know what you're talking about, which you clearly don't, suggesting that the OP should be sectioned is alarmist and not helpful

Completely agree with this. Words like this could really scare some-one into not seeking help if they think they may be sectioned. IMO those posts were incredibly unhelpful.