How do you feel a year on?

[User133847]

A year ago today our office closed due to Covid - and I think it was the last night the pubs were allowed open - so we're about to pass the 12 month mark since lockdown.

How are you actually feeling at the moment? Dejected, demoralised, depressed etc, or more excited that there's a clear roadmap out of lockdown and a successful vaccination roll out? Or just a constant mix of both?

@Lentillover1900

Bit bored But as long as my children happy and healthy (they are) then I will never ever ever feel hopeless, depressed, what’s the point.

Overall - pretty content actually

You don't get to choose whether you are depressed or not, it happens and there's fuck all you can do about it.

Exactly @en0la it’s not a choice ! It happens and there is nothing you can do ...no one choices it ...jeez! Some ignorant people here

Grateful that we haven't lost any close friends or family

Having been unemployed for a year much less stressed now that I have a new job.

Reasonably optimistic about the year ahead which won't be 'normal' but better than last year

Extremely grateful to have had my first vaccine

Very much looking forward to seeing friends and family outside in less than 2 weeks!

I haven't worked for a year today. Been furloughed with lots of uncertainty. The industry I work in has been on its knees and I'm not sure it will recover properly. (Travel)

There are some glimmers of hope about returning to work but the promise changes every day.

I sadly lost my dear Dad at the beginning of the first lockdown. Most of my year has been spent grieving and for the first 8 weeks of the lockdown I was focused on my Dad in a hospice and not COVID.

I'm sorry for your loss LEM and for all posters who have lost family members and friends on here

I have benefited from wfh and would be happy to continue. The vaccine rollout has been a success so far in the UK, I feel.

What I am missing is travel, and the arts/theatre. The one thing where my opinion has not changed is the belief that Mr Johnson is the worst Prime Minister we could have had, and that several of his colleagues if PM would have acted much quicker especially in March and September.

Grateful we haven’t lost anyone we care about, and none of us have lost jobs.

But utterly miserable. I am feeling so fed up this weekend. So sick of living this way. In fact, it’s not really living, it’s existing.

My DH had to drag me out for a walk at lunchtime to get us all out of the house. I’m fed up and miserable, sick of being in the house but can’t muster any enthusiasm to do anything. I just want to hide under the duvet.

I started off feeling positive, but now I feel really apathetic and despondent. I cry a lot, have panic attacks and just feel very low. I was on a high during the first lockdown, as started study, working out and really just got on with it. As time has gone on, I feel totally ground down and actually vaguely suicidal a lot of the time.

Completely over it. Sick of not seeing any colleagues and hardly ever seeing friends. I used to see my friends all the time, in small groups in the week and bigger groups. Now I may meet up with one on a Sat or Sun, or not. No point meeting in the week when there's nothing to do. Plus we are all dotted about wfh rather than being in central London offices Monday to Friday. I want to go on holiday, abroad. Not in the U.K. I have realised just how important time away is for me. So much so that me and husband are starting to look into moving abroad at some point in the future.

*bigger groups at weekends.

Also, I NEED the gyms to open.

I feel resigned most of the time. I started taking St Johns Wort at the start of the year and that has helped to blunt most of my stronger emotions.

Having our Christmas plans dashed at the last minute- we live in Scotland and were planning to visit relatives in England- has made me cautious about looking forward to anything, even though I have booked some - cancellable- holidays for the summer.

This will be DS and my second birthday in lockdown. Last year was a milestone birthday, but to be fair my work made a really big deal of it so that was nice.

I'm very relieved that DS will be going back to school properly after Easter holidays, as that was a huge worry. DPs have had their first vaccine so that's good and we should get ours soon. I enjoy walking and have built up stronger friendships with some people than I had before, so that's been good.

I just hope this is the last of it, but the European numbers makes me worry that it won't be. I certainly intend to do as much as I can, when it's allowed.

It's weird, feels like nothing has changed. I think I am lucky that we didn't have any impact except for dc not going to school. Just hoping everything will be over soon.