How do you feel a year on?

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A year ago today our office closed due to Covid - and I think it was the last night the pubs were allowed open - so we're about to pass the 12 month mark since lockdown.

How are you actually feeling at the moment? Dejected, demoralised, depressed etc, or more excited that there's a clear roadmap out of lockdown and a successful vaccination roll out? Or just a constant mix of both?

Living each groundhog day as it comes.

Destroyed. Mentally, financially and physically. Soon, when everyone else is celebrating lockdown the real effect of my life of events of the last 12 months will become known and I will be a pariah. I live in fear.

Am good. Have had, like many others, lots cancelled, but the end is near, I think.
There's not a lot we can do about it. It's crap. The only thing we can do is to think positive. It will be okay.

Mixed, cannot believe it's a year

It's been really nice weather here for the last few days so I've not been feeling too bad, but before that (and I'm sure it will be shit weather again soon, so after this sunny spell too) depressed and bored fucking shitless.

Tired, mostly.
I don’t believe anything any more till it actually happens.
I’ve been busy making costume for an event later this year and while it’s very absorbing every now and then I remember that I might end up not getting to wear it.

I've gone past caring now.

I'll get back to work one day. I'll have my cataract op one day. Just not any time in the forseeable future.

Can't get excited about anything right now. Nothing to look forward too as what's the bet this won't be the last lockdown,? No point in getting hopes up only to have them dashed again.

I lost my job and I was shocked how badly it affected me.

I have really enjoyed all the time with DP and DD. In a way I don't want that to end but I will enjoy being able to travel and socialise.

It feels almost normal now. I wonder if I will ever sit next to anyone and not panic about corona or hug someone... I don't even bloody like hugs!

Grateful to be alive and have not lost anyone. But worried about the second and third waves in many countries and the lack of vaccinations. Exhausted by the mental effort of it all, and the pressure to keep cheery and positive.

I feel absolutely fine. I don't mind lockdown. It's a good excuse for laziness

Trying not to think about what it will do to my mental health if the roadmap is delayed for whatever reason. Very happy to have received my first jab last weekend.

Wondering how this has managed to be both the longest, and shortest, year of my life.

Mental health, pretty much destroyed. I'm on antidepressants for the first time since my 20s, for two decades I've managed to keep my MH in check.

Angry at the government's mishandling of it all.

Tired. Just existing, really, rather than living.

However, I had my first dose of vaccine on Wednesday so feel as if, for the first time, there's tangible evidence that things are going to get better. So while I'm feeling wiped out at the moment (physically because of the vaccine, mentally because... Everything), there are some green shoots. Cautious, but they're there.

Both DH and I have had long covid now for a year and it’s pretty shit and no sign of it getting at all better so I’m kind of resigned to us both having this long term like ME.

We both used to be very fit - I’m currently sat on the floor exhausted after having emptied the dishwasher.

I am pretty depressed.

Bubbinsmakesthree that sounds very tough

like I've been pulled through a hedge and stamped on.

Having trouble getting motivated but believe things are on the up Better weather will help
Hoping for a more normal year ahead.

Bored and definitely suffering from a measure of depression but seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I want to see my family, go on holiday and go back to having fun instead of endless boredom, fear and drudgery.

I just feel flat.
It’s actually been a real f**k up for us, as we had committed to moving abroad, a year ago we had just signed a years rental on an apartment in Canada and I had returned UK to finish our house sale.
House sale took longer and we reduced the price due to Covid concerns at the end of first lockdown, then the market went crazy.
We went in to full lockdown just after I arrived in Canada, we can’t travel even within Canada and there’s nowhere to go out and our university aged children can’t visit.
We live a very quite half life, feeling increasing frustrated and disappointed, it could be so good here, but it’s hard living like this.
I can’t see things changing for a while so feel like we will end up giving up and returning to the UK feeling disappointed and having spent a lot of money.
Mainly I just feel sad about feeling like this, I’m generally a very optimistic person but I now find it hard to imagine everything working out well.

Exhausted and broken. Also torn between feeling lucky I have a job but being drained from working ridiculous hours for this past year and not spending enough time with my family.

I was doing ok until recently but I feel utterly drained by it all now. I'd say I'm in a pretty empty spot and only managing in a performative way.

Not too bad. Optimistic even. My husband got covid almost a year ago and was very ill but doesn't seem to have any long term fall out from it. My workload has doubled, but my job is safe.

Perhaps my biggest frustration is that it's not looking like I'll be back in Australia any time soon.

Really fucking guilty. Am an Aussie living in London and watching my cousins raising their kids back there having an almost normal life while my kids are living a half life, they havent seen any family other than me and their dad in over a year. Due to year groups and isolations they've barely only had a few weeks in person schooling in the last year. I wish we had made different decisions in our 20s. I know theres no point saying coulda shoulda woulda but there you go.

Fatter
Tired
Disillusioned with the ineptitude of our government
I think dp and I have realized we can survive anything at this point
I'm more worried about DD though. They've really struggled. But we are supporting them and school are too.
I've also been shown who are real mates are too.

@namechange34

Really fucking guilty. Am an Aussie living in London and watching my cousins raising their kids back there having an almost normal life while my kids are living a half life, they havent seen any family other than me and their dad in over a year. Due to year groups and isolations they've barely only had a few weeks in person schooling in the last year. I wish we had made different decisions in our 20s. I know theres no point saying coulda shoulda woulda but there you go.

My family is in Aus too. Don’t feel guilty. We’ll come out of it soon.

I’m prone to depression so despite being grateful I am still employed etc. i still feel low, flat and fed up. Like I’m existing but not living my life.