Anyone else feeling really fed up?

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Before I start pleased don't reply with "but we've got to save lives" I get it but this isn't what this thread is about!

For the last week I've been feeling a deep sense of bleugh and couldn't put my finger on why. I've started running again in a bid to cheer myself up and healthy eating but nothing has helped. My husband and I have good jobs and touch wood, we're not at risk losing them thank goodness. DS is back at nursery and loving it. So all that combined I should be happy, but I'm really not.

I woke up today and really thought, what's the point? Whilst in a good job, it's pretty stressful and I'm at my desk from 8-5 with barely any breaks (I'm trying to stop that but hard when meetings are just shoved in the calendar). I'm used to travelling with work but won't be doing that again....great!

The weekends are a write off because everywhere you go there's a queue and even the joy of a trip to the supermarket has been taken away because of bloody face masks.

So what is the point? We're basically turning into some kind of socialist/communist society where we work but can do nothing else and are dictated to about what we can and can't do. This wasn't what I signed up for.

I thought the whole point of lockdown was to flatten a curve but now we seem obsessed with eradicating Covid, how bloody long will that take? Why can't we now just use common sense? If you want to shield and stay away because you're vulnerable then do so. But what about those of us that just want to get on with their life and take the risk?

Probably more a bit of a rant but feeling in a very dark place and can't see a way out of it.

Agree with PPs we certainly don't have a socialist Government its a Right Wing populist Government.
The aim of Lockdown may have been to flatten the curve but it will rise again very quickly if we go back to normal. Things have opened up as much as they can at the moment.. The problem was we didn't get infection rates low enough before easing lockdown. It is still in the community and can very easily rise exponentially again if things go back to how they were.

I think the plan at number 10 is to give us freedom this summer, then blame us when cases go up come autumn. Herd immunity was always the plan.

The winter will be bleak as fuck with Brexit as well.

@Bluewavescrashing

I think the plan at number 10 is to give us freedom this summer, then blame us when cases go up come autumn. Herd immunity was always the plan.

The winter will be bleak as fuck with Brexit as well.

I really really really wish I could disagree with this

Yes. I have spent much of the day in tears and it’s ridiculous. I’ve lost my job but am OK financially for a while, but got through to the final integife stage for something else. Wfh, more money, but I don’t want the job or to work for the company. Obviously if I get offered it I’ll need to take it but I feel so down that through no fault of my own I’ve lost a job that I really liked and now might have to take a job I really see as a step backwards. Feeling sorry for myself :(

Integife? Interview

@SengaStrawberry

Yes. I have spent much of the day in tears and it’s ridiculous. I’ve lost my job but am OK financially for a while, but got through to the final integife stage for something else. Wfh, more money, but I don’t want the job or to work for the company. Obviously if I get offered it I’ll need to take it but I feel so down that through no fault of my own I’ve lost a job that I really liked and now might have to take a job I really see as a step backwards. Feeling sorry for myself :(

@SengaStrawberry sorry to hear that.

It's ok to be honest that you're really sad to have lost your other job.

I'm in a similar boat tbh, although a transfer, but caused by necessity.

Tbh we are using this time to gradually stock up on supplies, see family and carefully have a bit of normality before it all goes tits up. You only have to look at the rate of spread in cold meat factories to see what's in store in the cold weather.

Thank you @labyrinthloafer. I’ve cried a lot since it happened. No one else seems to get it and that should just be pleased if I get any job x

I'm sorry to hear about your job SengaStrawberry.

I feel like I've reached the end of my rope today with being the person in the house that Sorts Everything Out and that Everyone Asks Questions Of All The Bloody Time.

And I very much count dh in that. Everything that happens in this household seems to need me to be involved and sort out somehow. I usually wfh half the time and out half the time. Obvs been wfh since March, although my work (self-employed) dropped off in May/June and is now picking up again.

I haven't had regular time by myself at home since November. It's not the physical space that I crave, it's the psychic. Just to be left alone with my own thoughts for a bit.

I've moved into the spare room as I can't even get up in the night without dh asking me what the time is.

I hate not being able to see a time when I'll have my head space to myself reliably for period of time.

The thought that 'as long as my children are okay, that's good enough' kept me going for a few months of lock down, but it's not enough for me anymore.

Personally I had a low point about a month ago when I realised we're in this for the long haul. It's undeniably shit.

I hit my low point today whilst out in my local town centre. All I wanted was a mooch round next and a sausage roll from greggs, both experiences were ordeals rather than enjoyable. I fucking hate it 😞.

@userxx

Personally I had a low point about a month ago when I realised we're in this for the long haul. It's undeniably shit.

I hit my low point today whilst out in my local town centre. All I wanted was a mooch round next and a sausage roll from greggs, both experiences were ordeals rather than enjoyable. I fucking hate it 😞.

Me too. It's shite. No pleasure.

@userxx

I know. All the little things I took for granted 6 months ago are now a chore because of social distancing regulations. Never mind the big things like holidays. Voice of doom here can’t see an end point, so I feel like I’ve got nothing to look forward to.

Although, misery loves company and knowing that others are feeling the same as me, has actually cheered me up. Possibly because a lot of the people I know irl seem to be treating it like one long holiday.

Possibly because a lot of the people I know irl seem to be treating it like one long holiday.

Twats. No other word for them 🤷‍♂️

Thank you @christinarossetti19

It’s been 2 months and I’m still devastated x

What’s pissing me off is the inconsistency.
Why is it ok for numerous households to congregate in pubs, not adhering to social distance, not cleaning tables, toilets bar surfaces etc between every customer and yet the theatres are still closed , wedding venues can’t function etc etc.
Children’s playgrounds are shut.
There is no reasonable explanation to this at all. Except perhaps a political one if appeasing the man down the pub who voted Tory. Now telling us we will soon have to wear masks after insisting for months they didn’t make a difference.
It’s all nonsense.
Now saying prepare for another wave when we will all be stuck inside and the virus will spread more easily due to everyone being in close contact.
Either open all venues, sensibly, or don’t open any.

Same here, it's like Groundhog Day and come September it will have been 6 months hard slog.

Stressful role at the best of times but made worse with cuts. Homeschooling. Home working with no change of scene or routine one day to the next.

I'm utterly exhausted and fed up.

emily I could not agree more! It is the number of contradictions that are really starting to annoy me. Most schools here will have been closed for SIX whole months, which has had a dreadful impact on young people, but the pubs are open no social distancing whatsoever and thats okay. I am disgusted and furious. Where is the logic in opening up some things and not others! You can fly on a packed plane with no social distancing whatsoever, but you can't get a doctors appointment for love nor money.

I am really angry about it. The injustice, the lack of logic and the priority men seem to have taken in this crisis has made me feel like a second class citizen for the first time in my life.

I feel the same. I have hated home-schooling. Am completely tired and fed up with everything. Things are either joyless so pointless or are such an uphill battle. You cannot "just" pop into anywhere. It is a military operation with queues, now masks etc. Cannot plan anything with any certainty. It's been handled badly. This whole mask thing is now causing huge division in families and amongst friends. I have had enough too.

I hate home schooling too. We’ve both worked FT throughout- it’s been a complete nightmare with no time to do anything else (‘d love to laze in garden/ do gardening/ home improvements- we’ve not had time).

But we did go to Cornwall for the weekend - we were very mindful of social distancing - it did feel like a bit of normality.
Sorry about your job @SengaStrawberry

Oh o went shopping yesterday - didn’t have to queue anywhere. Got a takeaway coffee - I’m going to try and do something ever week. I was feeling so down. Feel a bit better today.
What will really lift my mood is being able to get my eyebrows threaded 😳

Sorry you are all struggling, it’s a bloody shitty and tough time. Hopefully we are over the worst and heading in the right direction 😊

Cried on the way to my supermarket collection this morning. In normal times we only drive that way when we're heading West to family and and the sea. Which is at least once a month.
That ain't happening until late next spring is it.

I've tried to put it in 4 month blocks. 4 months to Nov to prepare for winter. Then 4 months out the other side.

I'm really struggling atm cause where most people are able to go and enjoy, days out etc we can't. We don't drive, so if we want to go anywhere we have to deal with public transport, which is no fun atm. So I feel trapped and unable to go further than the local town. All my family lives several hours away by train and God knows when I'll feel comfortable with the journey to see them ☹️.

@CeeJay81

I'm really struggling atm cause where most people are able to go and enjoy, days out etc we can't. We don't drive, so if we want to go anywhere we have to deal with public transport, which is no fun atm. So I feel trapped and unable to go further than the local town. All my family lives several hours away by train and God knows when I'll feel comfortable with the journey to see them ☹️.

Same for us, but we do at least have car etc, what's stopping us from getting out and "making the most of it" as the sanctimonious like to put it, is working such a stressful job throughout this remotely whilst tandem home schooling, no local family, not much family at all really, and just being generally knackered.

Shopping was my one trip out a week, sans kids, now I had to wear a fucking mask, which for some odd reason isn't tipping point, because the general public have been addled by the media!!